"Check-in" Daily - diary challenge

Day 2 and just want to say that the great way to avoid this is just enjoy the life and be busy. Spend time with loved ones and improve yourself

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Been bingeing and failing a lot I have far too much time on my hands as I’m unemployed at the moment so yes keeping busy is part of the solution but only part of it. My life is in a total shambles at the moment and my addiction to porn is partly responsible

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@Rebooter81 Really sorry brother to hear what you’ve been going through.


Day 8 Completed
Rank: Commoner :man_farmer::moneybag:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Fasting
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Watched NoPMO Motivational Video
:white_check_mark: 12.9km Walk
:white_check_mark: Listened to Scripture
:white_check_mark: Mindful Breathing
:white_check_mark: Worked on eBay Business
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Online Sex Addicts Anonymous Meeting
:white_check_mark: Conversation with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Learning for Philosophy Course
:white_check_mark: Visualisation
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Journal Entry
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Rewire Companion Entry

Always thank GOD for everything.

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INDIA,xzqrkh
FRIDAY(5th day started)

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India,xzqrkh
Saturday(6th day about to start in 2 hrs and 30 min)

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Friday 16th Oct

@Gk-00 @Forodwaith
@Rebooter81 @Karan050
@srubio @Forerunner
@Probably2 @Anaf7864

Pmo takes away the mind and the spirit.

I had a temptation this evening;
The :relieved: comfort feeling calling, to start edging to p, followed by the “underneath-ness” like pulling a cloth over myself, realising it for the first time.

So I didn’t even start :+1::pray:
but at the moment I still want to,
Just to calm my mind and heart, free of racing thoughts - though I could just snub and ask “erm, who invited you, Mr.OCD? Spotted you, see ya”

When we pmo we are no longer on-top but as if in an underworld.
Why? Because it blots out “good” Mindfulness, but also replaces “good” Peace.

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Saturday 17th Oct :-1:

Mini challenge;
NoYoutube/&similar in the morning,
or before bed.
NoAimlessness in my Internet usage :pray:
Glad to be here, Thanks be to God.

@Ash_Matt @Special_Bird
@Anaf7864 @Probably2
@Rebooter81 @Forerunner
@Forodwaith @Gk-00
@Karan050 @srubio

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@Aoshigreen Fantastic new start mate! GOD bless you :pray:


Day 9 Completed
Rank: Commoner :man_farmer::moneybag:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Fasting
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Watched NoPMO Motivational Video
:white_check_mark: 11.4km Walk
:white_check_mark: Listened to Scripture
:white_check_mark: Mindful Breathing
:white_check_mark: Plans for eBay Business
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Conversation with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Learning for Philosophy Course
:white_check_mark: Visualisation
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Journal Entry
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Rewire Companion Entry

Always thank GOD for everything.

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The one thing we miss before relapse is the feeling we feel after relapse. We should realize that feeling before it.

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Chronic failure plagues me brothers (I fell last night). But God is my encourager and I’m not giving up.

Today I’m thinking about how I can improve my environment as well as denormalize the sense of living in failure that has become so normal. This week also relate a lot to how I live in time. I need to stop thinking of time as something that owns me but as something to enjoy as a gift and secondly steward as a resource.

Peace be with you in your journeys. Let us render into God what is God’s, our time, our talents, our very selves as instruments of righteousness not for impurity and the defiling of our bodies. So help us God.

  • Amen

@Aoshigreen @Gk-00

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@Probably2 very wise words :pray:

@Forodwaith we’ve spoken in private a few times, you are certainly not a failure, but a very intelligent, kind, handsome person of great worth. Please never think of yourself as less, even, even if you make short lived choices :pray:

So, Sunday 18th Oct

I woke early, drank water, put laundry on.
Feeling good, I go to my phone, Youtube, start browsing inappropriate things :pray:

NoYoutube/NoPhone in the morning :-1:
Epic fail.

I notice when I feel good, no worries, no problems pmo isn’t a problem - But it is.
Luckily I anticipated the after feeling, breaking my hopes for myself and the thought of coming here to be honest about it :pray:

Thanks be to God, and Thanks be to you guys here keeping me accountable :pray:

Mini challenge;
I have a phone addiction. I naturally go to YouTube or my phone to pass the time.
I have a couple of healthy things I’m interested in that I watch on YouTube (Thanks be to God)
But I need to be mindful;
What am I watching?
What am I doing? Is it bringing me joy?
What time is it? Is it healthy?

@Karan050 @Rebooter81
@Gk-00 @Forerunner
@srubio @Anaf7864 @Ash_Matt

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Day 10 Completed:
Rank: Apprentice :man_student:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Fasting
:white_check_mark: Prepared Healthy Meal
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Watched NoPMO Motivational Video
:white_check_mark: 12.6km Walk
:white_check_mark: Listened to Scripture
:white_check_mark: Mindful Breathing
:white_check_mark: Worked on eBay Business
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Conversation with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Learning for Philosophy Course
:white_check_mark: Visualisation
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Journal Entry
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Rewire Companion Entry

Always thank GOD for everything.

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Sunday 18th Oct; bar this morning

Mass,
Fun time with family,
Meaningful talk with my dear friend,
Some work,
Played fifa with my mate,
Nice meal,
Some more work.

Spent a few mins browsing on my phone shopping for a few items for an event.
It was also my birthday a few weeks ago, so I’ve been looking at things I want to spend my b’day money, rather than fizzle it away with nothing to show.

I had a few aimless moments of looking at news headlines and Instagram with no real interest, but nothing eros.

Hope you guys are all well.
Always, Thanks be to God :pray:

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Thank you @Aoshigreen, my progress and victories should get more headlines in my inner thoughts.

I’m a day back into reboot and letting go of unhelpful thoughts, including triggering thoughts, as I trust the Lord to be my shelter and strength.

@Gk-00

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Hangin in there. Stay strong and keep the faith

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starting from day 1(today) but this time more stronger;
India,xzqrkh(add me as a companion and lets battle together)
19th october, 2020

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Monday, October 19th

@Aoshigreen @Forodwaith sorry for being absent lately pals, I read your posts from time to time but could not resolve to post myself regularly, I am not really able to get myself back on track now.

@Forodwaith I am failing a lot too lately, it is so frustrating to desire not to resort to PMO anymore and then finding myself doing it everyday. It is difficult, but we are not here on this earth just to not masturbate, we have a lot of other things going on in our lives, and we should make the most out of them. Even if we are flawed and addicted we can do good things to ourselves and to others! :slight_smile:

In recent news, I finally got my first job! I will be working as an R&D engineer in a company a few kilometres away from where I live, starting from next week. I’m very excited to begin, everything will be new and I have a lot of stuff to learn, but I want to put all my energy into this new adventure, hoping to make the most of this opportunity that was given to me.

I really want to be firing on all cylinders to be effective at work, and in my life in general, and to do this I want to revamp my efforts to quit PMO. I don’t know how, I haven’t been very motivated lately, but this is the fight for my future, it must be taken seriously again! Surely having to work everyday will help to keep myself busy and not having time for addictions :muscle:

Lord help me in this new adventure, and take care of us all that want to break free :pray:

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May GOD make it so brother :pray: Good to see a post from you, and congratulations on the new job!


Day 11 Completed:
Rank: Apprentice :man_student:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Fasting
:white_check_mark: Healthy Meal
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Watched NoPMO Motivational Video
:white_check_mark: 7.7km Walk
:white_check_mark: Reviewed Psychoanalysis
:white_check_mark: Listened to Scripture
:white_check_mark: Mindful Breathing
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Conversation with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Visualisation
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Journal Entry
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Rewire Companion Entry

Always thank GOD for everything.

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Congrats on new job that should really help you in many different ways

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I need your discipline !

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