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It’s good to be back here. I didn’t know Daily Poll has started again, otherwise I would’ve come sooner. Start June Poll & mention from which date it Starts (I wanted to fill April n May poll but date confusion)
Stay Strong
Week 12 - Mon, Jun 1, 2020 - Streak: 1 day
@Hubinho Definitely man, but you’re right, we have to take the wisdom out of each streak and really learn from it. Yes bro, I have to get back up there! Thank you for the encouragement
Today was a good day. Was very mindful and got a decent amount of work done. Feeling better, but I’m staying focused.
Late night tonight, trying to stay on schedule, so goodnight guys
Sorry I’m gonna leave again
It’s okay bro @rowdy_nik
May God keep your path simple and straight
Checking in | Day 8/21 | 2 june | 9:00 pm | 1 hours offset delay bcz of work
Day 31. Check in. All good✌
Tuesday, june 2
@anon67854825 @Forerunner @Forodwaith
All good. I tried to study some more today, I failed somewhat but I certainly put more focus on it and was a little more productive this time. It feels kinda hard to start studying again just after having graduated, I don’t have much motivation. Hoping to get some news for jobs and to start doing some job interviews soon, to give me some new stuff to do.
The reboot is going fairly well, I am getting some urges sometimes, that feel very powerful on me at the beginning but I know that I don’t want to listen to them and I usually let them go by safely, they don’t last long.
I read on ybop that the addiction will cause a weakening of the prefrontal cortex, which basically means that my ability to make conscious and rational decisions when I’m subjected to urges is weak, so if I engage in a tug-of-war between PMO and not PMO I know I will probably lose. Just being aware of this has helped me a lot in how to approach urges, when I stumble upon triggers I just think about the fact that PMO is not an option anymore in my life because I chose so, and focus on something else. Since there is no action on my part and I don’t create an expectation in myself to go searching for P, the urges dissipate fairly quickly.
Thanks to God for another clean day
Week 12 - Tues, June 2, 2020 - Streak: 2 days
A solid 2 days under my belt, feels good.
Got to bed later last night then I wanted to, but still woke up on time. Although I set the alarm back 15 minutes again when I woke up. I know it will get a lot easier to not do that when I get to bed early. But I’m sticking to waking up at this time, otherwise it just ends up getting pushed back again. If I really want it, I’ll get to bed early.
Tonight I got to bed late again (but less than last night), and I also avoided my work today. Went exploring instead, had a good time, but work definitely needs to come first always. As I was writing in my daily journal, I realized I use exploring as an escape from stress. I had another math quiz today which was causing me a lot of stress because my professor grades so harshly on them. It would have been better to get it done first, and from now on I must.
Urges were present today before I started my quiz, definitely because I was stressed, because now they are gone. Staying mindful of the trigger helped to stay focused, also because I reminded myself of how terrible I would feel if I relapsed.
Anyway, I better get to bed. Goodnight guys
Checking in | Day 9/21 | 2 june | 10:41 pm | 3 hours offset delay bcz of loads of work
35 days p***-free streak. In June this story will continue! Cheers!
Wednesday, June 3
All good. Did some light work, and also dedicated time to reading, my workout, and prayer. For some things, I just really need to wait to see some changes after I put in the necessary work and dedication, finding a job and rebooting from PMO are some examples. As they say, Rome was not built in a day!
Thanks to God for another clean day
Wednesday 3rd June
Most of my days are extremely similar.
I’m really missing Mass and spiritual routine, my spiritual life feels like 0.1% at the moment. Late nights and late mornings.
But work is good, and I’m accomplishing,… and it has a positive effect on others - Thanks be to God
I still desire to be faithful, calm, and feel the peace of the Lord. I’m not searching out God nowhere as much as I have done, and it shows in my irritable & short sighted nature at the moment.
“What irritates you, teaches you more about yourself”
Week 12 - Wed, June 3, 2020 - Streak: 3 days
@CM2018 Congrats man! That’s tough work. I hope to be up there with you soon
Today was a really lazy day to be honest. Frustrating but they happen. Not very mindful either. I wonder if I had done my daily journal and stayed focused, whether that would have helped to set my day right or not. I used to journal/visit the forum in the morning, but then it started to take up too much time. I think the best thing is to just avoid my phone altogether in the morning.
But ya today was interesting, it’s one of those days where you just can’t get yourself to work for any reason, but you also can’t get yourself to relax. So you just sit there on your phone doing nothing. It’s kind of an icky feeling for a day because I didn’t relax and I didn’t work, so I really got barely any value out of it. But I have to be grateful that I did spend some time with family.
Anyway, tomorrow, I think I’ll set a rule to not use my phone in the morning. While my coffee is brewing I can check my phone for any important emails or messages, but then it must go away until lunch when I can check it again, but only for the same reason and to do my daily journal. Then it goes away until I’m done with work for the night.
Anyway, good sleep schedule I’m on now, so that’s something to be happy for. Goodnight guys
@Special_Bird that checking phone in morning is also happen with me. Morning time is very crucial for us to start day. But I check first thing is phone🤦♂️when I wake up. It is also like addiction. But We can change this habit by making strict rules. Hope we can also change this habit as soon as possible.
Checking in | Day 10/21 | 4 june | 8.33 pm
Hey guys @Gk-00 @reboot123 @Special_Bird @simion @weir @CM2018 @gdog65
@Karan050 asked me to create a June poll, which is located at the top of the thread.
I’ve not been doing well. Lots of grief, lots of numbing through porn. I’m on a kind of arms length relationship with God, wanting him to support me but not able to seek him out for the healing and leadership I need.
Thursday 4th June
@Forodwaith @Gk-00 @Rebooter81
Got to be a little later last night, and woke up much much earlier than usual
I want to live stream Mass tomorrow morning.
Some urges late in the day, but I’m all good.
Thanks be to God
I think poll isn’t visible in app