Monday 17th Feb
Sorry to hear that @Davidfredrich
You don’t need to worry or feel down 
Try to step back, and see things from a different perspective as much as often 
I’ve really struggled today, I’ve got past day 10, and my mind has been tricking me into seeking pmo as a reward. Philosophy argues. But I’m held back. Thanks be to God
Day 2
Brother Hope everything is fone and clear
Had shower with warm water listened to songs and this makes me better
Believer you broken down me you built me
Everything thanks to the God .
Great day
Check in Tuesday - day 5 
Guys I dont know why but today I complete 5 days without pmo 
Good job, guys!
I finished day 54 now.
Tuesday 18th Feb
I really struggled today guys… Back and forth,… Yes and No.
My mind keeps on throwing up questions, and ideas… “why not this?” “you deserve” “if x = y…” etcetera…
Day 15 tomorrow
I want to keep saying No
Check in Day 3
Tuesday
All good had some nice conversations with frnds and had angood time in discussing politics
But one thing is for sure that ALL GIRLS ARE DOUBLE MINDED THEY WONT TRUST THE MAN AND THEY ALWAYS PLAY DOUBLE GAME THATS WHY THEY ARE FUCKED BY US
HAPPY QUITE HIIPPP HIPP HURRAH
Day seven today is 19 feb
55 days now. It is great to have a companion with the same number, @Karan050!
Still pmo-free in this new decade!
For those who are beyond 50 days and struggle: You still can make this a porn-free decade - just do not give in! Stay clean!
Checking in, day 8, all good, but still disappointed about relapse 8 days ago. From 63 to 0 is bad!
Wednesday, Thursday - February
@Forodwaith @Gk-00
@Rebooter81 @Forerunner
It’s been tough the past few days.
I’m back & forth, yes & no, but I’m saying no to pmo again
Lord,… I need and want to challenge myself.
It all starts and end with you, O Lord
Help me to make this a fun and rewarding challenge - Help me to refrain, to change profoundly, smoothly and easily - to see pmo as a choice, a choice I’ve made countless of times, and to make that new choice, a new habit that I can delight in - to delight in saying “no” to pmo.
Help me to see this is as such an easy thing to do, to separate this gift -this blessing- from all the ups & downs, confusion & insight, stress & overwhelming joy of life.
Help me, Lord, to make my NoFap less of a journey, but a being.
Help me, Lord, to reach 30 days, and to have a Blessed Lent period
Yes good prayer I pray the same for myself Amen
I’ve been struggling I dont know why. I think there are some faulty core beliefs that drive this behaviour. Its definitely escapism which seems stupid because my life isnt that bad its easy, I’m stuck in life like in concrete almost but pmo keeps me stuck so what am I escaping from?
Lonely feelings, emotional pain yes I think so.
I fought yesterday but I was back and forth. Getting out of the house in the evening to get some food shopping was a good idea it took me away from the temptation but I hadnt fully closed the door to pmo in my mind so when I got back and unpacked the shopping and cooked pizza (unhealthy choice!) I felt tempted again. Really what I wanted was somebody not porn. That’s wrong too I suppose just wanting somebody as if they were an object but it’s pretty normal too we are all like that. Sold my roku box on fb now I’m thinking about becoming friends with the girl I sold it to maybe we could hook up have sex you know? I must sound like such a pagan right? Just wanted some comfort you know I dont even know that’s about sex or virtual sex or orgasm I think maybe it’s about connection. Maybe that’s what we are all seeking cheap thrills and connection, excitement, bonding, closeness another body to hold?
Can see why people use escorts and prostitutes and people. I’m told its ultimately unsatisfying I’ve never actually done it but I’ve definitely considered it. But I have my church on Sunday, my christian friends, my Christian housemates, my bible reading plan, the bible stuff I watch on YouTube. I reminded myself of all the reasons why I shouldn’t view porn, the accountability software flagged my attempt to bypass it and will have informed my accountability partner but STILL I failed STILL. I still feel low yes I feel worse now. I got a match on Tinder but I haven’t followed it up do you know why? Because of my motives…
I have a non Christian friend who tempts me to use Tinder he is a bad influence. I’m between 2 opinions but I know a simple resolution; use Christian dating sites and be marriage minded not hookup minded. It’s not as if God is against marriage or sex within marriage. God invented sex but what have we done with it?
Yet it seems so natural to be tempted to deny this seems unnatural but I know sin nature and all that. Its crazy this mess how did I end up in this mess and how the hell do I get out and clear my head. Thinking for the umpteenth time yes its worth spending £40 per session for a counsellor a Christian counsellor… anyway just offloading peace all . Rbtr81
The idea that you have to choose between looking for a hookup or looking for a connection with somebody is an idea that leads to nothing. Either trying to find comfort in contact with or without a connection is not resulting in sustainable happiness. What’s important I guess is the connection with yourself. To be able to really accept that you want to.fool yourself with making someone else a giver and you the taker. There’s nothing to take our to give. Find peace with yourself and you will find someone who connects at the same level. Trust the radiation effect of not needing anyone, because you can be happy with yourself. The moment this becomes natural, you can connect to everyone around you anytime.
57 days! Looking forward to a great weekend! Cheers, guys!
Friday 22nd Feb
@Forodwaith @Gk-00
@Rebooter81 @Forerunner
I’ve been busy most of the day.
I was back & forth again - I’m in that a.d.i.d.a.s moment and go into fantasy at night and in the morning - that comfort of being in bed.
But maybe the phase isn’t such a bad thing, as I realised earlier -while the beginnings of negative dwellings about social life/weekend arose-
I chose a more solitary life for a reason,
to move away from fleeting things and to have meaningful relationships, seek God, pursue my goals, and cleanse my mind, purging short sighted attitudes.
This phase isn’t a bad thing - it’s part of my journey with God -
I want to relax,… I want to chill out, and walk with the Lord.
I’ve relaxed a lot of thinking,
and behaviour (kind of) - still anxious and a little panicky at times. I’ve relaxed a lot, stood tall against adversity.
I’ve have been moody, lazy and irritable, which is easily relatable to the selfishness that comes with seeking dopamine; being alone, PC, ■■■■, media…
Are p-addicts dopamine-hunters?
I could do a lot more relaxing, loads more, loads,…
Relax how I think, relax thinking itself,
To Choose Faith, Choose God.
Choose NoFap - it’s not a journey,
Just a thing we do - like collecting fragrances 
I’m wearing a stinker - Yatagan by Caron.
It smells like a bear just ate loads of medicinal herbs and crapped it on some guys leather jacket in a forest - I get a bit of a dopamine kick from frags ~
Lord, lead me to 30 days of nopmo, to retain my semen - to keep building strength to say “No” to ‘eros’ - and most importantly in my choice to do NoFap - noP/M/O - to know it is a choice to look at ‘eros’
NoPMO is a choice
NoPMO is a rewarding gift to myself
NoPMO is my little dopamine boost
Imagine what 30 days might do to shrinking that neural pathway? Or even 60?
Lord, I’ve looked at ■■■■/eros in this streak, on YouTube, on sites
That neural pathway is still, probably very much open,… Please help me to close it.
Thank you for all the other places, hobbies, friendships where I find reality 
Day 19 | 
Wednesday
