Thank You Brother! Your streaks on scoreboard & words in forum keep inspiring to continue this journey.
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Check in - Saturday 7th December
Day 9 - All good… glory to God
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Checking in - Friday 6th December. Free and clean, thank GOD.
“Addictions started out like magical pets, pocket monsters. They did extraordinary tricks, showed you things you hadn’t seen, were fun. But came, through some gradual dire alchemy, to make decisions for you. Eventually, they were making your most crucial life decisions. And they were less intelligent than goldfish.”
William Gibson
The repercussions of an addiction are horrible. Once you finally climb out on the other side, you still have to repair all the damage that addicted you did in your life. Man…
Thank GOD I’m in the position now to repair things. This is a journey all on its own.
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Checking in
Friday December 6
All good and fine.
Less productive but very social these days .
Enjoying life with friends
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Week 57 ~ Friday 
It’s late now so won’t write much, though I’ve got loads to say.
All good, now - midday I stumbled - but thanks be to God 
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Day 6 of Week 57, Saturday
All Good …
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Week 57 - Friday. Checking in
All good 
Thanks be to God
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Week 19 - Dec 6, Fri - Streak: 103 days
This week is going so slow and so fast at the same time. Can’t wait to be done with my finals and take this stress off my back.
Not a very productive day at all. Couldn’t focus on electrical engineering so I switched gears semi-successfully to get all my technical writing assignments done completely. Finishing up after this, but will probably have to do a bit more in the morning before tutor. Got stuck watching this movie with my sister. I think the stress from my CS project is messing with my ability to focus. Hopefully after meeting with my tutor tomorrow I can feel more relieved after understanding what’s going on.
Counting the days till freedom.
This is my streak, I am going to make it.
“The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.”
- Friedrich Nietzsche
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Week 57 ~ Saturday
All good, Thanks to God
Ridiculous day, ridiculous urges,
And very real crossroads - twice.
Dream last night - I was at the edge of a cliff, a huge terrifying drop. There was a sense of fear or being scared, though also the feeling I didn’t need to fall.
My friend was there, and mentioned it was money I needed to be fearful(?) scared of, or concerned about.
In the dream it felt like it meant, I should be concerned about my future.
But today, without googling it, the vision came back to me - I could be wrong - but I feel it was telling me to be weary of power, success and riches.
Of course, success and wealth would be great, who wouldn’t want that, but at what cost?
If I was perfect, and didn’t need confession, didn’t need to reflect on my spiritual journey.
Would I still reflect, and earnestly seek the Lord?
I’m happy where I am, without a doubt -
Thank You The Lord is my shepherd, He makes me lie down in pastures green, He leads me by still waters - His goodness leads me home.
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Checking in - Saturday 7th December. Free and clean, thank GOD.
@Special_Bird Best of success with your CS project man! Freedom is around the corner - time to finish strong!
@anon67854825 Good job in getting past the chaser effect man.
“It is often in the darkest skies that we see the brightest stars.”
Richard Evans
There is always hope. There is beauty in the midst of the struggle.
New video: Say No to PMO, Yes to LIFE! Be More Productive!
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Checking in
Saturday December 7 ,201
All good and fine. Working to increase productivity
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All goodCheck in Sunday, 8 Dec 2019
I have manage to do what I did by delaying and getting the day passes one step at a time. However, due to urge, I watched it again last night but only sexy photos and only for a short while.
It didn’t give me pleasure and I felt like that the one step at a time strategy I started last week has worked.
So this morning, I have listed again the reasons why am I not going to watch porn and have reset my goals and planned my steps.
I took the time to write it down as suggested by many people in the group, and I really found that, while I was questioning myself last week about what is wrong with porn, this time, I think the answer was again clear.
This journey is long and hard.
It is not even anywhere near or as hard as the academic journey or some business venture.
I am a specialist doctor with a Masters degree in Internal Medicine, and I don’t think any of my academic journeys is as hard as this journey to keep clean.
I have been married for many years and have not got a child, and I have had multiple failures doing IVF.
We live in a country where flooding is common, and I have had multiple times where my house was flooded and we lost a lot of things.
But none of this hardships can be compared to the hardship of trying to keep away from porn.
So, appreciate any small achievement that you have made.
Appreciate all the help that we get from this group.
Because this journey here is much harder than anything that I had in my life.
I am really thankful to God and to you guys for the help that I get from this group.
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Week 57 - Saturday
Checking in. All good
Thanks be to God
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Week 19 - Dec 7, Sat - Streak: 104 days
@Forerunner Thank you brother! Feel so relieved having met with CS tutor today. Think I’m gonna make it through these finals
Played Halo on the PC today as a birthday gift, any old Xbox players will know the significance of this day for me, it is a beautiful thing 
. Only got to play for an hour though, which is alright because I need to study. Maybe more at the end of the week.
Started journaling on paper some of my more personal thoughts and discussions with myself, mostly pertaining to my faith, thoughts on life and such. Stuff I haven’t solified yet and want to explore in depth but without offending anyone, so I think this will be good.
Feeling pretty drained lately though because of finals so I apologize if my posts are kind of off elsewhere in the forum.
It’s late and I have to wake up early, so I’m off to bed. Night.
This is my streak, I am going to make it.
Don’t have much quotes right now, too tired maybe. Or maybe there is none that quite fit lately. Hopefully you like my music, or at least trying a taste of something different.
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Day 23. Check in. " NEVER GIVE UP, EVEN IF YOU FAIL. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. THAT’S THE STRONGEST THING THAT CAN HELP YOU IN ANY SITUATION "
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Checking in ;
Week 57
All good .
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Checking in - Sunday 8th December. Free and clean, thank GOD.
“I used drugs to feel better. I quit drugs to be better.”
Unknown
We all want instant gratification. Same-day delivery. Instant messaging. Takeaway food.
It feels like giving into the addiction makes us feel better in the short-term. But it’s usually the case that what gives us short-term pleasure provides long-term pain, and vice versa.
We can only feel at peace with ourselves when we’re acting in accordance with our values and moving towards meaningful goals. That’s when we truly become better.
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