Yes! Thank You brother. That was a journey full of fight against raging emotions & to keep urges in control. But now, I’m not gonna fall into circlejerking. I’ve learnt a little & I will never stop. We’ll get out of this eventually, You too Stay strong brother. Flame On 
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I relapsed and I feel horrible… 
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Checkin…thursday and friday…
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Check in- day 16
All good… glory to God
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Day 3. Check in. We can overcome this habit together. 
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Week 11 - Oct 10, Thurs (Check in for Wednesday as well) - Streak: 46 days!
Didn’t check in yesterday because I had to get some sleep.
@octaveLower Welcome to the group man!
@Forerunner Thank you brother, she is indeed something special.
@Positivebloke I haven’t heard of the pomodoro technique, but I’ll check it out! I definitely need some serious study habits.
And I think you are right about the overthinking with schoolwork. It is frustrating, all my work is piling up because of my Calc class. My goal has always been all A’s and I’ve kept it since middle school, but I don’t know if I can do these sleepless nights anymore. I’m getting seriously depressed and worrying about my mental health. The professor isn’t making it any better. Right when I think I have finished all of it for the week, he assigns a huge assignment for the next night and makes a test due on Sunday. I’m losing my mind.
I’m seriously considering just going for C’s in some of these classes and working on building my actually skill. I want to be competitively ahead of my peers when I graduate, and I think skill is what will put me ahead on that, not grades, or at least that’s what I have heard. I mean, what is the selling point of having an A in calculus if I have less programming skills than other possible candidates for hire.
But at the same time, it’s so scary to let go of that. I have had it for so long. And I don’t want to lose my scholarships either.
Jeez la wheez man. I think I do need a serious dose of that meditation your talking about 
. I’ll download headspace ASAP.
And thanks bro! She is strong and it’s pretty crazy that I can talk about it with her. My grandparents are who I grew up with and idk how I would ever talk to them about this, but when she came along it changed a lot for me.
Ya sorry for the huge vent.
Also thanks for the recommended read, looks like I could use that right now in my life. I’ll check it out!
Long day, long week.
No urges recently which has been nice. But my prediction is that they will hit hard after all these stressful assignments are over. I think my brain is just in work mode right now. So I’m going to watch out for that.
Even though I’m living moment to moment right now, I have to step back and remember how far I have come this time. This is truly something amazing.
On another note, a girl broke down and started crying in our computer science class today. She just couldn’t take all of this stress from our program along with other things at home going on apparently. I felt really bad for her. I think I’m going to invite her to my friend group group chat for Computer Science. I think it will help her to feel better when she knows all of us are struggling too.
Remember we are not alone guys, in whatever we are doing, wherever we are in life. This addiction doesn’t need to be our demise, the end of our story. And neither does any life circumstance you are going through. We will get through this.
It will take everything we got. It will burn and break us down. But in doing so, we can build ourselves back up with the new knowledge we have gained from this struggle.
It is just like a muscle. When we exercise, we break it and tear it. It hurts, it’s sore, and it sucks. But if we keep at it, it will become stronger as the tissue rebuilds. But we have to keep at it. Persevere through the everyday pain. And day by day, it will become a more capable muscle.
So also will we be more capable with perseverance, with fortitude and resolve in our decision to change.
Stay strong guys
“Big things are built one brick at a time. Victories are achieved one choice at a time. A life well lived is chosen one day at a time.”
-Lysa TerKeurst
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Checking in - Friday 11th October - Day 2
There weren’t any urges today, however, I felt very drained, unproductive and lazy. I’m not sure if this can already be a flatline, just seems too early. Perhaps this low energy and laziness developed because of PMO.
The good news is I fought against this mood no matter how overwhelming it was. I have come to realise that the no PMO lifestyle isn’t about only quitting PMO but also about becoming the best version of yourself that you can be. The time gained should be put to good use.
@Special_Bird thank you for the warm welcome. I wish you all the best with your studies and I hope that you find the right balance for yourself.
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Check-in Thursday & Friday
@rowdy_nik
And specially @anon67854825.
Enough is enough. You can’t keep being stuck at the same cycle anymore.
You need to progress in life, beyond rewire. You deserve better. You deserve Happiness, beyond all these around-the-corner pleasures.
Grab my hand, & rise again.
Promise me, that this is your streak. Promise me, that you’ll do your best.
You have not joined this platform to relapse.
Forgive yourself for what has happened. But make sure you don’t take this forgiveness for granted.
Do not count days, but make each day count.
We cannot let these sex maniacs & child traffickers destroy us as an individual, & more so as a population.
This is not a fight, this is a choice, a choice you land at everyday. Choose mindfully, & join me in my journey 
Spread your arms, because I’m giving you a virtual hug 
Let’s touch 3 digits together. I want you guys to be there with me for the view from the top 
@Special_Bird
You’ll love the pomodoro technique 
There is an app called goodtime on playstore & also there are lots of websites with pomodoro timers.
It is a timer, basically.
Since we students have to study for hours, focusing seems tiring. And as we are rewiring, stress is common.
So divide your study into chunks of time.
Once you’ve started the pomodoro timer, make sure you respect it enough to not stop it till you’ve achieved the day’s target.
When it starts, first there is a 25 minute timer, where you study with complete focus.
Each study session is of 25 minutes, and counts as 1 pomodoro
After each pomodoro, there is a break for 5 minutes. Do whatever you want in the break session, & don’t push yourself to study.
Washroom, music, chores, walk - choice is yours.
But make sure you come back for the next study session when the bell rings.
After 4 pomodoros, there is a 15 minute break. Which is so enjoyable! 
You’ll realise the importance of these short fragments of time.
5 minutes suddebly starts feeling long.
25 minutes start feeling short.
Wierd, & easy.
You’ll start counting each second subconsciously.
*I have to Study for one pomodoro" sounds better than “I’ll study for 3 hours” because it seems manageable.
You just have to convince yourself to just do one pomodoro & not waste much time procastinating & start the pomodoro timer right away
You’ll eventually endup doing 4 pomodoros straight (2hours) without even realising the length. It feels shorter.
Try it yourself, there’s alot I can talk about, but it’s better if you discover them yourself.
Check this out :
That’s a really kind gesture of you wanting to help the girl out. Tells alot about you.
Do it 
Your own stress may relieve while relieving other’s.
And nice analogy with the muscle building. It’s true!
I have read it in robin sharma’s the 5am club, he says that ‘willpower is a muscle, the more you use it the bulkier it becomes.’
And ‘Success is not an event, but a process.’
Everything’s fine here
I have been lazy today. & I won’t let it happen again.
I’ve been struggling with managing my sleep.
Since I am early rising (waking up at 5 am),
I get alot groggy during the day.
I’ve tried napping but, it never works out for me.
The alarm just doesn’t go through my thick skull. I end up oversleeping and disrupting my cycle again.
I’ll wake up at 5 again tomorrow, & try caffeinating.
Anybody got tips for getting freshened up again when feeling drowsy, But without nap?
Imagine an elephant 
Imagine it walking.
It walks, slowly, majestically. & Keeps walking.
It passes through the thick forest,
Passes through the swamps,
Crosses the river, & the waterfall.
And walks across the grasslands,
And the springs.
Across the valleys, and the desert too.
Uphill & downhill. Doing it’s basic survival activities as it walks.
Across the rocky mountains, & the thick bamboo shoots.
It sees the climate progress along the way.
And walks while it rains,
Walks in the sun’s heat,
Walks as it snows.
But it doesn’t see how far it has reached. All it focuses on is the next step, and the next step, & the next.
One foot, then another, & another. Enjoying the focus, enjoying the silence, even in dangers & noise.
That’s what progress is.
Not how far you reach. But how mindfully you experience the moment, and what you choose to do now.
Good night 
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I usually try meditation first, but if I still feel depleted I have found that exercising really helps, anything to get the heart pumping and blood flowing, even a brisk walk does the job.
Good luck with this. I have a similar struggle at the moment. If you find something useful that I haven’t mentioned yet please do share. I’m open to new ideas.
I wish you a good nights rest.
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That’s very kind of you @Positivebloke. I’m abstaining 100% from P, also staying off chaser effect. Just have to gain more strength. I promise this time I gonna cross a month n beyond.
Also, heard abt Pomodoro technique before. Will try to adapt it too.
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Checking in - Friday 11th October. All good, thank GOD.
Day 120! 
Time is the most precious element of human existence.
Denis Waitley
An old man presents you with two choices.
One is a massive skyscraper of £20 notes, crumpled, muddy and dusty with cobwebs on them, towering far into the sky. The elderly man tells you that it’s over £1.5 billion. “Ah, but you don’t want that, my friend. Look at how long it would take to clean up! Who wants the stress and hassle? It’s not worth the effort.”
The second choice is a nice, crisp, brand-new £5 note, fresh from the mint. The old man presents it to you with great excitement, like a cheque from the lottery. “This is what you came for! Take it, no strings attached! And I’ve more where that came from!” He shows you hundreds of £5 notes, a shoebox full. “Come back whenever you want, and I’ll hand you another £5!”
What choice do you make? Easy right? I don’t care how dirty £1.5 billion is, I’m cleaning it up and taking it with me! I’ll hire 30 people to clean those notes if that’s what it takes.
But every time we relapse, we choose that shiny £5 note instead of the beautiful life we could be living. We easily forget how precious life is, and the consequences of our actions become cloudy and murky within our minds at the moment of temptation.
That skyscraper represents the next 50 years of your life. Sure, some work will be needed to repair the damage caused by the addiction, but your life is infinitely more worthwhile than 5 seconds of pleasure from pornography. The time we have today, we can never gain again. If you relapse, you’ll wish you had those days in your streak back again. It’s never worth it.
Let’s take charge of our lives and make the next 50 years beautiful!
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Week 49 ~ Friday
Thank you for your kind words of support @Positivebloke 
Bless you 
Hey @sdom Thinking of you today
Unfortunately for the community I had a fall - I know we don’t like them, but I’m fine.
I’ve been overthinking things a lot recently, re-addressing my reasons. My many ideas about why to quit have been smashed - but it’s a good thing.
Today I’m saying “Yes” to 30 days free of pmo, for nothing other than; upholding a decision.
My focus is God alone.
Thanks be to God for today and bringing me here.
Gladly back at Day 0 - pray that I’m always being guided by God and not my ego
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Day 4. Check in. If you think positive, the things always become easier. Its all depend upon our mind.
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Checkin… Saturday…
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Week 11 - Oct 11, Fri - Streak: 47 days
@octaveLower Thank you man!
@Forerunner Congratulations on making it to 120 bro! You are a beacon of light in this community Also great analogy, very true!
@Positivebloke That technique sounds pretty awesome, I could really use that right now cause ya I’m spending like my entire day just doing school work. I just downloaded both headspace and goodtime so I’ll set them up tomorrow. Thanks for the rundown of that and the video!
And yes I think you are right. I have been helping a few of my friends fix bugs in their code late into the night but just being able to help them has been a great destressor for me. It’s a little upside to these stressful weeks.
As octaveLower said, exercise is the biggest thing that helps my drowsiness. But I find I get the best results from exercise with a goal, like martial arts or maybe playing a sport with friends. Something to stimulate both the mind and the body.
Anyway, great elephant story, that is true, sometimes we get so caught up in the future plans of reaching very far goals that we lose sight of what’s important in the here and now. It makes it seem like we can spare another day to this addiction. We lose track of our time here.
As for me,
Skipped class today and slept in. I realized I need to break the cycle of low sleep. My health is more important. I can figure out the rest.
Visited the town where they shot Halloweentown today with my family. Don’t know if you guys have seen that movie considering most of you are from different countries, plus like no one that I know knows it either lol. But it was a good movie from my childhood. Had a lot of fun visiting there.
No urges today. Which kinda makes me nervous for when they do decide to come back. I really got to be wary.
Vibe today:
Thinking back to the feelings when I was in deep in relapses. This song really sums up the feelings I had then. All those years I was trying to figure this out and no one could help me. I kept reaching out and no one wanted to or could answer my questions. It’s amazing to me how society doesn’t address these things. I remember I would get mad with my youth pastor and youth leaders for not speaking to us about this issue. I knew everyone in my youth group was dealing with it, even a lot of the girls apparently. But I don’t think the youth staff knew what to do either, they couldn’t beat it themselves. That was a sad reality. People really need a solution to this. I know a lot of my friends just ended up accepting it. I couldn’t do that.
We can fight this, it’s possible to win. I want to go back to those friends and show them my streak when I get to 365 days. Show them it’s possible. Give them hope, you know? When we all finally reach that point, I can’t wait to go back and help those who were in the dirt with me, who were stuck in that pit.
Keep at it guys, we will do this together!
“There are no traffic jams along the extra mile”
-Roger Staubach
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Checking in - Saturday 12th October - Day 3
The urges are starting. I had to defeat two. I’m very fortunate that the urges weren’t very strong. I used the method @Forerunner describes in the Hero’s 90 Day Challenge to defeat these urges.
I am grateful to be on this journey.
I hope everyone is still going strong.
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Week 49 - SaturDay 6 - Oct 12
Had a little leakage due to Nightfall (I don’t know why too many of them happening since I started NoFap. Maybe its the talc I use, too slippery. Lol) But it was certainly triggered by my actions two days back. I clearly remember masturbating to that lady’s cleavage in my fucking dream. So, I think its remaining semen from that day edging, ejaculated now. However, even if I don’t count it as Relpase, it is enough guilt to Reset the counter. My two days doesn’t count in success. I will reset everytime I lose my semen, except to my girl.
I’m God’s Lonely Man ~ Taxi Driver
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week 49 - Saturday
Today all good. Was in a bad period, but feeling like I can get through this now, time to get back into it!
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@rowdy_nik I completely get what you’re saying. Remember that you weren’t awake to physically do the act. You can’t hold yourself accountable for what happens during sleeping/dreaming while your not consciously awake. Don’t feel guilty. You’re doing well.
@Gk-00 We are here for you. You can do this.
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Checking in - Saturday 12th October. All good, thank GOD.
@Special_Bird Thank you very much for your congratulations brother! It’s been quite a journey getting here, GOD willing I will continue on this path. I remember how hard it was for me to get here, so I try to share as much as I can on how I got here. That goal concerning your youth group is inspired!
@Gk-00 @anon67854825 Glad to see you coming up out of the pit brothers! May GOD bless your new starts and help you succeed.
@octaveLower That is awesome news - that method has saved me hundreds of times, I’m delighted to hear it’s helping you.
“The only way to determine genuine motivation and/or intent is to observe the behavior of an individual.”
Rollo Tomassi
For a long time, my actions didn’t reflect the desire to break free. I thought I wanted to be free so badly. My spiritual life was in tatters, I prayed and sought GOD daily but I felt so ashamed of continuinh to fall short of His Standards. My relationships clearly reflected a lack of love for other people and a self-involved narcissism. My finances were a mess, I was at home PMOing instead of working or improving my life, and I started gaining weight. I knew it was down to the addiction, and that I had to quit in order to improve my life.
Yet, I would entertain sexual thoughts regularly, I watched movies and TV shows I knew weren’t safe for me, spent so much energy browsing on YouTube and Instagram and other sites for borderline NSFW material. I didn’t follow any plan or strategy, I just wrote a date on the calendar as day 0 and hoped for the best.
It’s only when I started acting like someone who wouldn’t relapse, that my streak started to match as well. I read dozens of success stories and formed my own strategy. I read 5 books on the addiction and many articles. I started implementing positive habits and determined that I wouldn’t go back there, no matter how I felt in the moment.
That’s something I evaluate daily now, how are my actions reflecting my desire to remain on this journey? I pray that I continue to see them aligned with my determination to lead a loving life and work towards a better future.
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