Week 11 - Oct 8, Tues - Streak: 44 days
@anon67854825 Thank you man, I know I need to be easier on myself. I will look back and see all of these things as minor setbacks in the grand scope of it all. Good learning experiences, but nothing to get worked up about.
Thanks for the encouragement bro, I needed that
Stay strong yourself and peace with you too!
@Forerunner Ya I’ve been thinking about that. A plateau seems inevitable after reaching such a big goal as 90 days. But remember that that is the nature of this journey, you’re in the long haul to freedom. But maybe it would be good to revise your strategies to better fit a long term schedule.
You had to make your activities intense so as to carry yourself down the cliff. But now that you are in the basin, maybe it is better to take off your climbing gear and put on your rucksack. Create a new activities schedule that is manageable and flexible over the long-term but still pushes you towards your goals. Ask yourself realistically what you’re able to accomplish on a daily, weekly, and monthly schedule. Maybe you are trying to do too much with too little time? And don’t get me wrong, I don’t think you should stop going for these things, but even too much good work can turn to bad work. Measure yourself.
Idk tho, hopefully that’s relevant to what you were saying. Didn’t mean to come off like I know what’s up if it sounded like that.
A lot of us look up to you man, we just want to see you succeed. You’re doing some amazing stuff here and your regular posts really encourage me to keep going.
Stay strong
@Karan050 Welcome! Glad to have you join us dude
As for me,
Things were good today, but busy. No urges.
You know, last night after I posted I was thinking about all that I have to be grateful for. Yesterday, my mom came in and gave me this pack of techie stickers for my laptop that I had been really wanting. Like I don’t even know where she got them, she just gave them to me. But she said she felt bad that my day sucked. I was like bro, she’s the best.
I got to be grateful for that. I didn’t always have her in my life. Now just as a disclaimer, I hate talking about my “past” cause it seems like everyone nowadays does that to be edgy or whatever, but Im here to journal, so I legitimately got to be grateful for her. I didnt get to see her for half my childhood because she was out on meth and all that. Shes literally the best mom in the world though. It took 5 and a half years, but if she had never come back from that I would have never been the person I am today. I probably wouldn’t be doing NoFap either. She was the one who helped me to see that I could fight this and to find this app.
I haven’t talked to her in a long time about my streak or anything, I got so ashamed about it, even though I know she would understand. But now Im waiting till I get to the new year. Then I’m going to show her my streak, I’m really excited for her to see it honestly because I think she thinks I have just kind of given up or something. I want to make her proud.
But you know what’s crazy is that it took her 5 and a half years to get clean and it looks like it’s taken me that long too. Exactly that long. Crazy stuff.
Anyway, I better get to bed.
Here’s my vibe for you guys tonight (it’s a bit different than my usual music, but you can’t go wrong with the oldies):
This is my streak, I am going to make it.
“Notice that the stiffest tree is most easily cracked, while the bamboo or willow survives by bending with the wind.”
-Bruce Lee