@Aoshigreen Thank you very much bro! GOD bless you always.
Hey starting from today I will check in everyday!
My journey till now-21 Days
@Vansh24 Welcome to this diary
Can I add you to The Poll? If so, what’s your country and sharing code?
Had lot of urge today. Urge as in, my brain felt numb. Needed dopamine. Mind was blocked. I’d my test today. I somehow managed to perform decent in the test. I didn’t give energy to even a single thought of porn. Cause I know that a single step towards it will trap me like quicksand. I stayed strong. Now the numbness has gone. Feeling better. Its by 21st day of noMO and 4th day of noPMO. I promise you all I wont relapse.
My country -India
Week 45 - WednesDay 3 - Sep 11
Milk got Spilled Setback but can’t be a circlejerk now, Flame on
Still aiming for 90 days like @Forerunner bro
Week 45 ~ Wednesday
All good, and
All Glory to God!
Week 45 - wednesday
Checking in for Wednesday 11thSept
All is good.
(I only remember to check in when I woke up on the 12th)
Will check in for 12th tonight
Week 7 - Sep 11, Wed - Streak: 17 days
Remembering the fallen here in America, 9/11.
Don’t want to waste my life. Many on this day lost their lives and were never able to spend it to their full potential. They never got to go back home to see their families, to spend time with them one last time. All of their dreams and aspirations lost in the debris of those buildings.
But here I am. I don’t know why some get to live and some get to die, but wasting this life I have been given would truly be a sin.
Many gave their lives in service of my country so that I can live free. It would be a waste not to live it to my full potential.
I don’t know when my time will come, but I want it to be spent in good faith and perseverance.
Not in sleepless nights and endless depression.
One more day till I beat 18 days. Let’s do this!
“It is not that we have so little time but that we lose so much. … The life we receive is not short but we make it so; we are not ill provided but use what we have wastefully.”
Lucius Annaeus Seneca
Checking in - All good
Week 45 - September 12, Thursday
Checking in for 12th Sept Thursday
All is good.
Stopped in the middle of trying to open some sexy photos
My higher mental function is able to control the old primitive brain
Checking in - Thursday 12th September. All good, thank GOD.
“Someone once told me, ‘I heard you finally got rid of your addiction.’ I smiled and said, ‘No, addiction doesn’t work like that. Once you have it, you will always have it. I just choose not to feed it.”
There’s a Native American story I always enjoyed about two wolves which dwell with every one of us. One is fiery, full of hatred and rage and motivated by destruction. The other is calm, thinks clearly and makes good decisions. They are always present within us, fighting each other for the chance to seize control. The one who wins and gets to act through our lives is the one we choose to feed.
At any moment, we can fall right back down and spiral into old, self-destructive habits. But we also have the choice within the same moment to make better decisions that will uplift and improve our lives. Let us feed the right wolf today.
Week 45 - Thursday
Week 45 ~ Thursday
All good, focused, worked hard, achieved, pushed myself, completed things, worked late, Pride, (over work?) Sloth, indecisiveness and that habit - I should’ve Given Thanks sooner, without hesitation.
Thanks be to God
Today’s my fifth day of noPMO. My Bones crumbling has almost gone. But I still feel sensations in my head. I don’t know if it’s just me or it happens with everyone though. I’ve stopped edging and lurking at girls. This has helped me a lot. Few days back I was travelling in bus and saw two girls talking to each other. I’m ashamed to say this, but even their voices turned me up and my down became hard. I was about to cum but then I opened this app and felt the urge. This app has really helped me. I hope I never relapse and can maintain my streak for longer days.
Checking in - All good
Week 45 - September 13, Friday
Week 7 - Sep 12, Thurs - Streak: 18 days and 3 hours!
Booyah! Beat my old streak, can’t believe it man. Haven’t felt like this in a long time, I’m really making progress.
Despite this, I have been very angry today for various reasons.
But I’m letting it all go right now. It is frustrating, but if I let it get to me, it will probably only lead to a relapse. As you were saying Forerunner, feed the right wolf. This anger I would say is justified, but I can’t let it overwhelm me.
Plus I am doing really good, it is all basically new territory from here, at least in the sense that I haven’t been this far in possibly even a year. This is my streak, I am going to make this happen.
“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”
Checking in - Friday 13th September. All good, thank GOD.
@Special_Bird Congratulations on passing day 18! Keep going strong man.
“We don’t choose to be addicted; what we choose to do is deny our pain.”
A critical reason why it’s so difficult to break free of an addiction is associating more pain with quitting than with abstaining. As much pain and havoc PMO has wreaked on our lives, there is still a tendency to see it with rose-tinted glasses, as something pleasurable and enjoyable. But the marks of true pleasure and enjoyment are in the memories we have of the event afterwards. No one can look back and say, Yup, that relapse was so worth it. I’d gladly do that again.
However, we view PMO as a source of euphoria and stress relief, forgetting how we felt the moment after relapsing. How can you ask someone to stop doing something he enjoys? Why would someone choose to stop doing what takes away his stress? This is the fight we have with ourselves, and our bodies rebel against us. But this viewpoint is a lie and an illusion. Our stress and anxiety are multiplied upon relapse, and the joy disappears.
What helps us break free of this thought pattern is honest reflection on our past. We will reach that conclusion that PMO is a source of pain and not an antidote. To help aid us in this, we create strong reasons to quit, things we have a burning desire for which we cannot hope to accomplish while engaged in PMO. With those reasons, PMO loses its appeal in our lives.