Its feels goodā¦ trying to overcome this addiction ā¦
Until last month when I found this app never got motivated to this extent to quit this evil habit
Even though I relapse after few days , this time I again make efforts to start again
Which not like it used to be
Earlier I tried quitting and did for 2 weeks but then I relapsed and kept on mastrubating and watching porn from then on and never stopped
Iām also happy because earlier I used to mastrubate 3 to 4 times a day for every day
But now I mastrubate 2 to 3 times only when I relapse
So Iām improving but need to put more efforts
Many times we friends used to discuss how many of us mastrubate
I never used to say anything as I was afraid and used to continue mastrubating
And even my friends used to tell me that if they dont mastrubate atleast twice or thrice a day they get a headache
I was shocked but still as usual i continued mastrubating
Then one day i dont know how but i gained courage enough to tell my gf about this bad habit of mine and what did i hear from her
She helped me to overcome this habit and because of her and for her i get fully motivated to quit this shitā¦
Sometimes u need inspiration and she was my inspiration
But only after watching asli mard
I dont know but I feel heartedness towards all this shit
It will take time but I will win ā¦
And hence from now on Iāll post my everyday routine so that itās a common reminder for me and also it may prove of some help to any 1
Day 1
Pleasant day with 0 urges ( yipeeeeeeš
but need to be ready to face strong urges )
5.30Am - woke up
30 mins deep breathing and on chanting
6:00 reading a religious novel which is in the form of a comic so itās fun to read
6:15Am to 6:30 cycling ( feels good to breathe in the fresh air and get connected with drizzling)
6:40 - exercise till 8 am
(Yoga + pranayam)
Then bath+ brakfast
And then went to temple( feels positive )
9 to 9:50 pravachan on tv ( pravachan is something like a religious class)(feels motivated )
10 to 12 studies ( able to concentrate more)
12 to 1 guitar ( music music music ā¦ it is one of the best ways to spend time)
1 to 2 lunch (I dont have so much , I just eat slowly so that I enjoy it )
2to 3 tv with family (comedy showsš)
3 to 5 - studies
5- tea and then family time
6.30 praying to God
7 to 7.30 to meditation
7.30 to 8 video call with friends and having fun talking
8 to 9.30 studies
10.15 sleep after calming myself through meditation so that I can sleep peacefully
This was my 1st day
It was an amazing dayā¦
Just pray that every day goes nicely for every 1
So yeah thatās all was my day ā¦so keep going friends we will win.
You have a beautiful daily routine brother. This is the turning point in your life only and only if you stay true to your commitment. Here many people promise they wonāt ever fap again and will go back to square one. That wonāt help in anyway.
We are all here to help and support you. Together anything is possible. Keep going.
Thank youā¦ and Iāll try not to relapse early will try to extend as much as I can and who knows while doing so I wont feel like going backā¦
Thank you
Day 2
Wake up at 5 ( woke up at 5.30 but still not justified for me)
20 mins on chanting till 6.00ā
Cycling 15 minsā
Yoga + pranayamā
( 1 and half hour)
15 mins just enjoying the cool breeze on terrace while just closing eyes
8 to 9 - bath, break fast, temple
9 to 9.40 - pravachan
10 to 12 studies
12 to 3 - dilbecahara movie and lunch
3 to 5- planned to study but slept off after half an hour and woke up at 4.30 ( slept for the first time in afternoon in last one month)
5- tea time and enjoying tv with family
6.15 - dinner ā¦
6.40 to 7 praying to god
7 to 7.30 - meditation
7.30 to 9.30 studies (9.00 milk and ntg else eating or drinking after 6.40)
Tried sleeping by 10 but couldnt as I slept in the afternoon and hence slept at 11 but no urges no sexual thoughts just a few good moments and then slept off by 11.45
Earlier I used to feel anxiety due to study pressure
My legs used to shake unnecessarily and without me doing it
So my gf just suggest me to take two days off from studies
Just revise whatever I felt like and enjoy by watching movie , flying kite and all those sorts
Hence watched dilbechara
After watching that I got motivated and felt
Everything doesnt depend on my Markās
Iām studying as I like to and to gain knowledge so less anxiety ā¦feels good
Itās fine to take a day or two leave from studies so that we can calm our brain but we shouldnāt make this a habit
Thatās allā¦
Hahaha @totto_rewireā¦ yeah broā¦I have also taken this contractā¦
Bdwā¦ @DARSHAN2017 you are on right pathā¦we can do it bro.
Thanks man
And this time Iām not setting any goal
Letās try to make it a habit to stay without mastrubating
All the best to u and every 1
We will win forsureā¦
Great to hear that letās do this
DAY 3
WAKE UP AT 5ā - WOKE UP AT 6.45
OM CHANTINGā
CYCLING
YOGAā
Studies 6 hours ( done only 2 hours)
Watched another movie ā¦
Morning templeā
Urges - low ones
Praying to godā
Meditation in the evening
But still it was a good day for me
Just need to be more productive ā¦
Motivational quote
" legends are not made in a day
It is made over number of days
What we see is just success
But there are lots of efforts behind itā¦!!"
The grammatical errors and many errors might be there
But just ignore those and feel the quote
We will win for sureā¦
Day 4 - 31 july
Wake up at 5ā
Om chanting
Cycling
Yoga + pranayam
Templeā
Pravachanā
Studies6 hoursā( managed to do 3 hours)
But will increase slowly
Meditation in evening
Urges 1 but ignored it domt know how could I do it
YouTube used it but need to leave
Just realised something today YouTube is filled with more kind of shit along with good ones so choose wisely
Agression , anger and heartedness increasing day by day against porn industry
The reason being they are spoiling every 1 mind
I just feel like
Get super powers and go and destroy them completely
Itās happening coz I used to watch all types of porn including ā¦( dont wanna mention those shit)
But just thinking of them hurts me deeply from inside very very very deeply
Shit shit shit shit fuck this shit off
I dont want to go back to all these fucking shitssssš©
Porn has ruined our life
Now itās our turn to ruin them by diminishing the demandsā¦
Not now but I would love to see them removed from the societysorry if any 1 gets offended but anger is just filling me against those
I feel like Erik in the vampire diaries who at some point generates heartedness towards vampires and he wants to kill his vampire friends
But I will surely succeed and will give my best
Wont be able to tell my daily routine for next 4 days coz i5s festive season and gonna be busy
- my daily schedule is surely fucked up and I wont be able to follow even 10 percent but km sure
I wont mastrubate
Keep motivating every 1
And I apologize if any 1 gets offended
But I dont know where to show my angerā:rage:
Youtube nowadays is promoting inappropriate ads.
Pls edit & clear that bro. Bcoz everyone has a curiosity to search it.
Thanks man
And I completely agree with u regarding youtube adsā¦
Its us who are increasing thatā¦
DAY 5
1ST AUG
Pleasant day
Routine cancel cancel cancel for 4 days
But 0 urges
Playing with 3 and 5 year kids
Happiness
Then family playing ludo and cricket
I feel tired and slept off
And had an amazing dreamā¦
Which made my morning amazing
Day 6
2nd august
Again a day full of happiness , playing with kids , playing uno ,ludo and cricket
Tiring day
But I understood 1 thing
Itās just coz of loneliness we have indulged in all these shit
I was with a joint family for 4 days and I was so happyā¦
Itās better we start spending more time with vfc familyā¦
Day 7
3rd August
Had festival at home so full of positivity
But at night
It felt like my left side of body positivity
Right side negativity
I dont know why I felt this
But it was as if
My brain is fighting with my heart
My brain: its fine mastrubate
My heart : no dont do it.
At last my heart won and I didnt and slept
But I mastrubated while watching porn in dream
I felt so sad coz I must start my streak again from 1 which I didnt
But when I woke up
I was superb happy to find it was just a dream
I was happy that I didnt mastrubate it just that my brain is rewiring
Iām happy energeticā¦
This is very important. Resisting a relapse is one of the most rewarding things in this world. You wake up happy and energetic. Itās absolutely true. The happiness inside you get from resisting and succeeding is much greater than the so-called āpleasureā from giving in.
Iām happy to hear youāre recovering