There was a time when I was not able sit alone for even half an hour ā¦
Now I love spending time with myself
Loneliness has been replaced by peace
I donāt know if this is because of following celibacy or bcoz I have cut off all the energy draining thingsā¦ idk but wht i am observing within me is something
Kuch bura tha Jo pighal rha hai ā¦bahut Kam din hue h lekin certainly the urges ,thoughts sb apne aap change ho rhe h ā¦ I decided to praise myself so got a new book to read kuch intresting Mila to will share
Jai hoā¤ļøāš„
Sure abhi tk Iāve read a few chapters I think the tactics explained r quite gud but implementation of those in real life is kinda confusingā¦ Khair my frnd read one or two pages n she said dimag khrab kr dene vali book h
Rest Iāll share the topics soon in form of short notes.
I was doing gud in all areas everything was smooth, I thought Iām recovering but again the same things it was just 22days or so n i failed ā¦I think Iām not worthy of getting the benefits of no fap.
I canāt be a gud student ,a gud daughter, for few days Iām working deeply for my goals n then where d fk am I putting d energy !!! Enough of disappointing everyone who trusted me I have tried every possible way be it celibacy socialising or whtever shit is said to be a weapon against this.again writing long letters to myself but will it be if any use ā¦No. bcoz Iām fking useless Iām just a insecure person who cannot stay alone just one day when nobodyās at home my mind throws me in this direction ā¦enough of giving tries to it I think I have wasted half of my life in this NONSENSE addictionā¦
ELIMINATE ME FROM ANY CHALLENGES I WAS INTO .PLUS I REQUEST MODS TO DELETE MY ACCOUNT N POSTS FOREVER ā¦
Sry to everyone n to me as well bcoz I cannot gift myself a sober life
Ok, I see. Whatās the beauty if everything is achieved easily??
Have I failed lot of times? Yes
Did I ever give up? No
Does it matter now? Yes because I addressed the root cause, I can get urges but I am 1000x stronger than those stupid shit. Why? Because I know I have much more power compared to those dipshit urges.
After a huge failure i decided to start once more bcoz Iām left with no other option
This is the only path tht gonna take me towards successā¦ Itās just me v/s me n I must be a lil gentle to myself instead of saying harsh wordsā:smiling_face_with_tear: ā¦agar girte hi nahi to uthna kese sikhenge ā¦this time
NO MORE EXCUSES
NO MORE NONSENSE
NO MORE LIES TO MYSELF
THIS PMO IS AN EVIL THT WILL DO NO GUD TO ME ā¦
BEING HONEST TO MYSELF
N JOURNALIING DAILY EVEN IF I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY
You should then reset the streak and start again.Make a journal of your daily progress.Not this one.Like make a target such as day 1/21 days.After you complete 21 days then make it 50 days then 90 days etc.Challenge someone and win togather.There are many challenger out there who still falling.If you think urge hits then visit this forum daily to keep your urges low.Thats what Um doing since october and my current streak is now 111 days.
U want me to create one more post will tht help Iāve already created this as new one ā¦plus there r no girls u guys r having gud bro support whom do I add as accountability partner .isnāt it better tht I do it alone why be a disturbance for someone else n make them demotivated as well
We are not girls, but we are fighting the same enemy.
You can mock me if you want. But this is where you are losing, I was in same situation a month or two ago. But I stopped looking for reasons to prove that āI am the only one in this situationā and then when I heard from few people in this forum, I got to know many people are going through worse shit.
When we look for ways to be better instead of focusing whether we are alone in any situation or not, thatās when actual growth happens.
But itās bad u know everytime u PPL motivate me n if I failed again how long r u going to say try again ā¦no atlast we give up on others its only ME whom I can be accountable to ā¦ still Iāll tryna change but i am not able to address the problem in a correct way thts why I have so many excuses
I decided to praise myself so got a new book to read 
kuch intresting Mila to will share 
do share some insights if you find this book good
I have tried every possible way be it celibacy socialising or whtever shit is said to be a weapon against this.again writing long letters to myself but will it be if any use ā¦No. bcoz Iām fking useless 
I think I have wasted half of my life in this NONSENSE addictionā¦
this time
will tht help Iāve already created this as new one ā¦plus there r no girls