Binocular's Diary [19 M]

[Isagi_Yoichi]

I’d been on the forum since long but why is my scouter beeping now?! Shit! It’s Vegeta and his power level… is rising… It’s over 9000! Ahhhh!"

So glad to have you back Vegeta Let’s go brother. Time to begin the Saiyan Saga

[Binocular]

@Binocular

I will do 3 study sessions following the 45-15 minutes rule (45 minutes full focus, 15 minutes rest).

Almost done. I did 2 sessions only. It’s my start and it’s not bad. Let’s see what I will do in my afternoon study sessions.

@Isagi_Yoichi

So glad to have you back Vegeta Let’s go brother. Time to begin the Saiyan Saga

Yes indeed brother. Vegeta became too soft like in GT. He needs to go super again. And with you around as well as the others, it will be like our Z team fights all over again

[Ironwill1000]

[Binocular]

I ran 30 minutes non stop and this is day 1.
Let’s see what else I can do good today.

[anon43749056]

Bro waiting for new challenge from you

[Binocular]

Alright. Yesterday was a weak day. I didn’t go running because my whole body was paining super bad. Not just legs. Back, neck, abs, arms too etc…I did more than my body can handle the day before yesterday and I’m proud of that. However, I fapped like 4 to 5 times yesterday. Pathetic little me.

Anyways, I went running again and ran 30 minutes again and did bicycle for a couple of minutes till I felt like I almost couldn’t walk anymore. Then I stopped. From now on, I will stop when my body says so. Not when my mind says so.

Anyways, I took a cold shower and drank decent amount of water. I feel a lot better now. I will eat breakfast then fuck it I will study hard today.

I don’t care what my brain tells me. My past never was a shame and never will be. It’s only the reason of my future success with the work I do in the present.

Now enough talk. Time to work.

Flame on!

[debellator]

update?

[Binocular]

If I don’t hide, I’m a bit depressed.

I managed to go past 7 days since two years, only to fail on day 8.

I’m starting to think I won’t be able to quit… Which is a first time of me thinking like this in my life. In fact, it’s the first time I get depressed.

How do I know? I’m not just numb for few days, I’ve been numb for 3 months now. I got a lot better when I was on my one week streak but then, it got worse after my relapse.

I don’t know what to do now really.

About running, I managed to run 50 minutes non stop which is a big achievement for me. But it’s been 4 days now since my last run.

For studying, I prepared 1 math chapter only for next year…

I’m really feeling weak nowadays. I don’t know what to do…

[debellator]

keep updating every day, and keep working on improving even when no results are seen

before you know it you will be back on track…

[basanaruga]

Everybody goes through these episodes. Don’t let the dark thoughts overwhelm you, for they are not real. They are figures of your imagination and are nothing more than pessimistic hypotheses about nothing. You can do more than 7 days. Sometimes to just do nothing is hard(just not to fap instad of giving in). But in the end the results are worthy. Here is one of my chinchillas to cheer you up.

[Binocular]

@basanaruga

Don’t let the dark thoughts overwhelm you, for they are not real. They are figures of your imagination and are nothing more than pessimistic hypotheses about nothing.

You know, I used to think just like that before. I don’t know what’s happening to me, it’s like I’m getting less intelligent the more older I get. But hey this too is an idea of my imagination. I can still fix it all.

@basanaruga

Everybody goes through these episodes.

And it is those who don’t give up and decide to rise powerfully are the ones who make the difference. I see now that I am 18, I am a MAN. I can make a decision seriously to change my life. I realized what that means this year only, in fact, I realized it this month.

@basanaruga

You can do more than 7 days

7 days is the limit of those who are not truly serious in making a change in their lives, it’s mostly based on motivation instead of purpose. I know I can make forever too but that will not happen over night. Everyday, one day at a time, I will strengthen my day one’s purpose and just not care about the circumstances.

I’m willing to give it a second shot. You know what, THE FINAL ATTEMPT.

@basanaruga

Here is one of my chinchillas to cheer you up.

Thank you brother
It looks so cuuuute

[Binocular]

I don’t know about you guys but this music gives me more peace than any other music.

C418 - Living Mice - Minecraft Volume Alpha

[basanaruga]

You can do over 9000 days.

[Binocular]

@Binocular

Self-improvement is not about being perfect from the start, it’s about trying your best to be better than you were yesterday for as long as you live. Failing 1 day or 2 or 7 is not a reason to reconsider this decision. Each day is a gift, a second chance to live with purpose. The present is a precious offering, meant to be cherished. When we understand what to believe in, we find the strength to act. And through action, we discover what is truly worth believing.

I am really messed up. I’ve been so focused on studying I forgot all knowledge I had about how to improve me.
Reading this back, I feel like the reason I couldn’t get past 7 days is because I wasn’t serious about improving from the start.
Self improvement requires a strong serious decision. But this year will be just same… I will be at school from 7 a.m till 6 p.m with exams everyday…
I’ll see what to do…

[Binocular]

@Binocular

My goal is 2 hours in a row before the end of this year!

@Binocular

I managed to run 50 minutes non stop

And that was only in 2-week time.
However, running everyday was no realistic goal for this year, past me. You were too busy. Yo should have made realistic goals.

[Binocular]

@Binocular

"_ I’ve relapsed, and it’s time to confront my addiction once and for all. Setting the milestone as breaking my record wasn’t the right approach. I may have tried to justify it with exam stress, but deep down, I know it’s wrong. It was my responses and reactions that led to my downfall.
I often ask myself, “What makes it different this time? Will I succeed?” At the moment, I don’t have all the answers. It’s been a year filled with excuses and mere words. I’ve seen others join here, achieve their goals, and move on while I struggle to reach a month. Maybe I’m not fully prepared, or perhaps I haven’t taken this challenge seriously enough. I confess that I’ve shown weakness in the face of this addiction.
But admitting weakness doesn’t mean I’m without a plan B. I’m still a teenager, and I have the power to change the game. I have no choice if I want to become stronger. True strength lies in how you respond to moments of weakness, and it’s clear I need to eliminate this vulnerability. This time, there won’t be empty promises. It’s a battle against destiny.

_Hmph, a teenager huh? I’ve seen plenty of “teenagers” in my time, but very few possess the drive and determination to back up their words. If you truly want to become stronger, then you better be prepared to put in the work. It’s not just about power, it’s about training your mind and body to overcome any obstacle that stands in your way. So, tell me, what steps are you taking to eliminate this so-called vulnerability of yours? crosses arms

_ I don’t know, do you have some advices?

_ Hmph, I suppose I can offer some guidance, if you insist. First and foremost, you need to establish a rigorous training regimen. Push yourself to the limit, day in and day out. Only through relentless effort will you see any progress. Additionally, analyze your battles, identify your weaknesses, and address them head-on. Seek out strong opponents who can push you to your limits. Remember, the path to greatness is paved with countless challenges and sacrifices. Don’t expect it to be easy.

_ But I know all of that! Maybe the problem isn’t what I must do but how should I convince myself to do it.

_ Hah, convincing yourself, huh? That’s where the real battle lies, isn’t it? Look, training your body is one thing, but training your mind? That’s a whole different ball game. You need to tap into that inner fire, that burning desire to surpass your limits. Visualize your goals, envision yourself standing at the pinnacle of power. Let that image drive you, push you to go beyond what you thought was possible.

_ My inner fire?

_ Yes, your inner fire. That indomitable spirit that fuels your every move. It’s the unwavering determination to rise above your current limitations and become stronger. Picture it as a blazing inferno within you, consuming any doubts or insecurities. When you face challenges, let that fire ignite your passion and drive you forward. Believe in your own potential, and let that belief be the catalyst for your growth. Remember, true strength comes from within. Harness that inner fire, and you will become unstoppable.

_ But I’m afraid of Losing in the future

_ Hmph, fear of failure, is it? Well, let me remind you of something, raises an eyebrow failure is a necessary part of growth. It’s through defeat that we learn our greatest lessons and find the strength to overcome. Embrace the possibility of failure, for it is what separates the weak from the strong. Instead of letting fear consume you, channel it into determination. Use it as fuel to push yourself even harder, to be one step ahead of your opponents.

_ I never thought about it that way. Are you saying that mastering all, not just positive but also negative feelings is the key for power?

_ You catch on quickly. Indeed, mastering your emotions is crucial in harnessing true power. It’s not just about embracing the positive, but also understanding the negative. Every emotion has its purpose, its role in shaping who we are. By acknowledging and controlling even the darkest corners of your psyche, you unlock a level of self-awareness that few can comprehend. Emotions can be a double-edged sword, but when channeled properly, they become a source of untapped strength.

_ I understand now. If you have one last advice for me, what would it be?

_ Never be satisfied with where you are. Always strive for more, push your limits, surpass your own expectations. The pursuit of power is an unending journey, and complacency is the enemy of progress. Embrace the relentless pursuit of improvement, and you will reach heights you never thought possible. Remember, I, Vegeta, the Prince of all Saiyans, will settle for nothing less than being the strongest in the universe. Let that drive you. Let it consume you."

That’s enough. My past bookmarked posts made me remember all I lost.

That’s it.

THAT IS IT

I AM BACK! AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN STOP ME NOW. I AM NOT ONLY BACK, I AM RISING ABOVE!

@Binocular

Sometimes we already know the answer, we just have to remember it.

[Binocular]

I, The Prince of all Saiyans, declare that today is the beginning of my rise for improvement!

[anon78653570]

@Binocular

You know, I used to think just like that before. I don’t know what’s happening to me, it’s like I’m getting less intelligent the more older I get. But hey this too is an idea of my imagination. I can still fix it all.

Do NOT worry

I am also in the same phase as you

I just want to tell you that don’t let pessimistic thoughts overpower you

God helps those who help themselves

If you focus on your present and try to control the controllable factors, everything will fall in line

Let your self confidence and persistent efforts make you shine in your goals

[Isagi_Yoichi]

“I need that Flight Tech!”
-Optimus Prime (DOTM)

Yo Vegeta…

I’ve been building a system to gamify my progress and I could really use your help…

Today while revisiting your fire as# NNN challenge… I saw you had used some super small sized gifs… They looked really incredible and were giving off some cool aesthetic vibes…

I need about 10 to 12 small gifs of similar size to complete my game model.

If it’s something simple like a markdown code, you can just guide me and I’ll handle it. But if it involves more intricate work… could you please lend me a hand?

[Binocular]

Yosh @Isagi_Yoichi !

Actually the bad news is, after testing my old method of posting gifs sized more than 1Mb I discovered it no longer works… I guess it’s because of some forum’s updates.

They still appear working on my old posts because they are already posted. If I edit one right now (which I have) it will show the old 1 Mb message like the following…

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/pg36kvjrch7mv5xfiiln8/Saitama-2.gif?rlkey=2e44zrkru8lv8f5y0paf48pxc&st=q0yp9gfy&dl=1(image larger than 1 MB)

Just like here ya.

Most of the GIFs I used were sized more than 1Mb, the method was to upload them on Dropbox, copy the link, and replace the “0” with “1” in that link.