Beginning of a new chapter: Rajameghanan's diary

Journal
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2nd May

Today I am thinking of keeping my tasks simple.

Do some works in Excel
Newspaper reading
Subject revision
Workout

Hope I will complete it.

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You will win.

You can win.

Love you so much.

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23

Thank you man for your support

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24

I see you created your own diary, finally.
(Looking forward for doing some special replies here :joy:)
All the best bro and remember. There will be a time when you overthink about nofap (the moment before relapse). As soon as it comes, act fast. Act fast and you will shock your brain. Act fast by getting up, doing some pushups, washing hands and face with cold water and reflect and do self affirmation. You will feel at the top of the world if you do. That’s what personally helped me a lot.
All the best bro :fist_right::fist_left:

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Thank you for your advice man. I will follow it.

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26

Well today, the day went in playing cricket. All I did was doing the project in Excel and read some articles in newspaper. Beyond that, it was a good day. That’s it for the day. See you guys tomorrow.

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3rd May

Today, I tried to read newspaper with full focus but I read it to some extent of focus. Completed a page. Then watched Fight Club. The afternoon went in TV. I went out with my friends in evening and came back by 8 pm. Since we met after a month, the day went with a lot of fun. That’s it for the day. Bye.

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May 7th

I will be having online classes today. I am gonna start studying from the scratch today. I hope for a new beginning in everything since I am not doing what I have to do everyday.

Today’s tasklist:

  1. Workout
  2. Online class
  3. Read any book
  4. Read newspaper
  5. Study any subject
  6. Cold shower
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7 May

  1. Workout :white_check_mark:
  2. Online class :white_check_mark:
  3. Read any book :x:
  4. Read newspaper :white_check_mark:
  5. Study any subject :white_check_mark:
  6. Cold shower :white_check_mark:
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8 May

Tasklist:

  1. Workout
  2. Study any subject (Atleast 1 hr)
  3. Read newspaper ( Atleast 5 articles)
  4. Read any book (Atleast 10 pages)
  5. Cold shower
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May 8

  1. Workout :white_check_mark:
  2. Subject ( Atleast 1 hr) :x:
  3. Newspaper :white_check_mark:
  4. Book :white_check_mark:
  5. Cold shower :white_check_mark:
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9 May

Tasklist:

  1. Workout
  2. Study any subject (Atleast 1 hr)
  3. Read newspaper ( Atleast 5 articles)
  4. Read any book (Atleast 10 pages)
  5. Cold shower
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May 9

  1. Workout :white_check_mark:
  2. Subject ( Atleast 1 hr) :white_check_mark:
  3. Newspaper :white_check_mark:
  4. Book :white_check_mark:
  5. Cold shower :white_check_mark:
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May 10

Tasklist:

  1. Workout
  2. Study any subject (Atleast 1 hr)
  3. Read newspaper ( Atleast 5 articles)
  4. Read any book (Atleast 10 pages)
  5. Cold shower
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May 10

  1. Workout :white_check_mark:
  2. Subject ( Atleast 1 hr) :x:
  3. Newspaper :white_check_mark:
  4. Book :white_check_mark:
  5. Cold shower :white_check_mark:
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June 13

I was hoping to get the first half century of my streak this year, tomorrow. But all of them went in vain. Today, on my 49th day, I relapsed. I pmoed this afternoon. I was encountering one of the biggest urges since this week.

I was alone with my grandparents. I got no projects or works to do. I gotta bed to sleep for the entire day. Though I made myself moved, worked out this morning, read newspaper and slept in the afternoon. I don’t know where the urges came from. I was in a half sleepy state. Before getting complete consciousness, I edged a lot. Then I thought I failed to continue my streak and eventually went into the shit.

I know it’s not good. This made me feel bad again after long days. But I hope for the best. I would like to share some mistakes I did this time, so you and I will learn from it.

  1. Don’t let yourself bored for more time.
  2. Don’t you ever sleep alone in the afternoon even in the nights (if can’t surround yourself with the pictures of your family or your goals or anything which will abstain you from doing it)
  3. Whenever I don’t feel sleepy in nights, I just fantasize a lot like those. So it should be avoided for sure.

In this 49 days, I almost kept myself busy with works. And whenever I get urges I said to myself like “You are not grown to groan”, “It’s not what men do”, “It will make you unworthy” These stopped me because it deals with my ego.

I hope I won’t get into chaser effect and again gain my momentum. So, here comes the restart!

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That’s the way! Don’t let this fall break your spirit, brother @rajameghanan. Here, let me cue your theme.

Sorcerer Rajameghanan Fushiguro’s theme- Resilience

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Thank you @Ryomen_Sukuna this gives me more confidence.

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40

Hey all. It’s been a long time I came to my diary. Because it happened which is not supposed to happen. I fell to pmo today, 36th day. It’s all my mistake. I should not have done it. I was alone. Got more triggers and at one stage, I edged a lot and led me to pmo. Anyways, I will come back stronger. I will rise again. I hope.

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Good bro. 36 day streak is a very good streak. I have know you to be a very strong person last year because you reached a streak of more than 150+ days with a strong mindset. But what happened to inner spirit inside you, I don’t know.
Never mind. Lets together start a new journey this time. I am in my day 5.
Lets have a nofap challenge together.

Remember you learn everything when you relapse.
This time you know how dangerous edging can be.
Not just you, any sane human being would become horny if he edges.
So please prohibit edging.

Jaikiravaraikum ethanavati venalum thokalam nanba :smiling_face: :raised_hands: :handshake:

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