[baki99] Diary to talk about my day and feelings

So this is my 4/90 day
I wake up at 6:30 am , i was feeling a little bit horny and depressed at the same :pensive: time I wanted to huge the pillow but I stopped my slef because I know if I did that I will relpas
So after a couple of minutes I washed my face and my teeth and I prayed after that I eat my breakfast and gone to work until now 5:00 pm
I hated the work because there’s a lots of hot girls in my company , so its gonna be hard for me to focus , any way for now I’m laying on my bad and feeling tired :pensive: and sleepy :sleeping: and horny at the same time , usually in this situation in a normal day I will fap to forget about my hard day , but I’m not gonna do it .

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Stay strong brother, just switch off the internet on your phone and read surah mulk and sleep.

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Hello :wave:rewire community how are you guys doing .
So here we are on day 7 , I feel a lot of urges , and thinking a lot about pornography and
masturbation , specially in the morning :sunrise: when I wake up , thinking about a girl I had sexting with her before .
And the latest news :newspaper::newspaper_roll: about me, I have proposed to a girl that I like , but I have been rejected hhhh , ya to hell with her rejection , life Is so miserable with or without this rejection , so I’m not gonna stay and cry about it .:muscle::muscle:

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I got back to day 0 after 7 days , but I have learned something that I’m acting like a kid not a man , So it’s time to stop whining about life and act like man … A real man .

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Day number 1 in my new life


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When you look at the table with the numbers above you say like how you gonna finish this but , there was time I was in the number 60 in that table , and it just needs the sheer will and the commitment to do that

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The morning :sunrise: of day number 2 I have wake up with lots of urges

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Hey bro
I’m glad to see you committed to this journey :slight_smile:
The deeper the understanding the easier it will be for us, so our brain is dirty it turns things to bad thing, make us think of pmo, So you don’t stare at girls, but more we shouldn’t let anything in that we know it can be a material for my brain to set fire.
About numbers, just make sure the number is not the goal, it’s just an index that you started a journey toward better life, it’s a reminder that you’re on a journey.
The goal isn’t 90 or idk
It’s telling yourself I might get desires but I’m not looking to satisfy them, keep this in your head when you’re at work around female, tell your self I don’t want to satisfy my desires with you or you …

We’re cheering for you
Keep going bro :grin:

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Thank you bro , your word’s made me very happy , and feel a lot motivated

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So here we go day number 2 I have blocked google on my PC until Saturday and on my phone I have parental is activated , anyway this day i was not feeling that good and I felt horny and angry all the time that’s why I have to go beyond 2 or 3 days for this feelins to go away .


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Here we go, day number 2 has gone and this is the morning of day number 3 , the porn has been blocked but I still have the thoughts and the pectures in my mind , still have a lot of urges I have to be stronger .

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Day number 3 has finished , with a lot of urges and I can’t relaps without porn , because i have blocked it , so if you can’t access the porn ,it can help you with The addiction , any way even if there is no porn I still have that filling of wanting to fap and that bad feeling on my belly ariea of burns and pain , that’s why I need to keep pushing untill I heal my self .

PS: there is going to be an urge Wave in the next few days , I think thay are going to start from my last strike till day 21 or 30 , so I have to be very prepared for that .


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The morning of day number 4 , the pectures in my mind start to emerge and the idea of doing PMO start to become good and feel good

Day 4 has finished with success :muscle::muscle:


I hope the next days will be more easier on me and my mind :hugs::hugs:

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The morning of day 5 ,
I wake up with a lots of urges and lots horny and pervert thoughts in my mind , it seems that’s going to be the case from now on , because I have blocked everything so I will not have access to porn , and I just need to control my mind and not to go with the perverte thoughts .

How are you brother?