Hello everyone, i actually used to have an account here but lost access to it. Im happy with this new account though, however I am still struggling to beat this addiction. So i will let it be known here, I will beat this addiction. I just pray the lord forgives me for what ive done, being so obsessed with pornography and masturbation. But starting today i WILL prevail! We all will! Stay strong brothers 
. For todays diary I will admit i relapsed. But this will be for the last time. Any pornography i have saved or any that i have access to i will remove. I am telling myself that it holds no benefit to me, that it is simply dragging me into a dark space. While it may be hard, nothing good in life ever came easy. I will do my best to update daily, wish me strength brothers, this will be a long journey.
I apologize for not posting yesterday. After a long day at work i relapsed, while it wasnt the start i wanted on my journey it did help me learn something. I need to break my routine of coming home after work and going straight to the bathroom with my phone. I knew i was going to relapse if i did just that. Yet i couldnt stop myself. I must make an effort to keep my phone outside of the bathroom or anywhere else i could be left alone. This way i can limit the accessibility i have to pornography. I am happy to say i did not relapse or even think of relapsing today. However i am upset i didnt study for school. Tomorrow is a new day though, and im ready to take it on!
Well brothers today was a decentish day, but i will take the small victories with pride. I started to watch ■■■■and masturbate but quickly stopped myself before i went too far. While i technically did relapse i didn’t “finish”, for lack of a better term. So i see this as progress, because without climax im hoping to even further the idea that pmo is a waste of valuable time. I cleaned my home, did homework, and even managed to spend time with a friend. My motivation feels like its slowly coming back, and im excited to continue my journey!
I dont even know where to start. Ive been trying i really have. I made it to 4 days clean and then i relapsed. But now i cant stop again. It clouds my mind when it shouldnt. Not just the prnography, but wasting time scrolling through social media and just doing anything other than be productive. Im falling behind in my college classes, my chores for my apartment arent being done so i live in a wreck, im wasting money and never making times for friends. I genuinely feel alone, im so addicted to prnography, social media, pointless video games, and just anything non productive. This diary hasnt been what i planned it for and i feel like im falling behind in life. Sometimes i wonder if im just a waste of skin. Infinite potential wasted on one man who cant seem to break free from his addictive vices. Idk what to do. I wish i had someone to talk to. I feel so weak and stupid, but i am trying. I just keep losing motivation and its hurting me mentally to the point where sometimes i feel like quitting.
It made me sad to read this. I can see you’re hurting brother.
You are not alone man. Many people here on this forum know your pain all too well and can relate. Read anyone’s diary here and you can find similar frustrations and challenges. We understand what you’re going through, and we care.
You are most certainly not a waste of skin. Never lose hope, never give up the faith. You are blessed and highly favoured. You have unlimited potential. You have a lot of things going for you.
You made it 4 days clean. If you can be free for a day, you can be free for a lifetime. That means that in about 100 hours, you experienced the temptation to return to pornography and masturbation, and you were victorious. You can always do that. And I’d imagine that you’ve gone further than that in the past. Believe in yourself.
You have what it takes. There is no difference from one urge to the next; none of them remove your ability to say No and make a better decision. Some battles may be more difficult than others, but no addiction can beat the resolve of a man determined to escape from it.
You have important goals and dreams to accomplish. There are ideas unique to you, a light GOD placed in your heart which only you can shine. There is nothing for you in PMO.
GOD bless you on your journey and give you strength. We are here with you, watching and supporting you. We look forward to seeing happy posts from you man.
Thank you brother. I have reflected on myself and devoted more energy to become a better person. Its difficult but inspiring to see how many others are going through similar struggles. WE WILL BREAK THROUGH
Hello everyone, im very happy to bring this diary entry today. Yesterday i was having a break down because of my lack of motivation and overall feeling of defeat. But today i made it 100% clean. Not even a thought of pmo, i cleaned my apartment, did groceries with my girlfriend, and all though i didnt have time to study for school i feel ready to take on tomorrow. Thank you all for the likes and for the support, its a great feeling knowing i stand alongside such great people. Im praying for all of you, all of us, as one! We will bury our demons and become stronger than ever before!
Yes bro absolutely! 
Hello everyone im back again with mixed emotions today. I have relapsed a few times within this past weekend. While its not what i wanted, ive noticed i have been consistently going a few days clean between my relapses. This seemed impossible just a few weeks ago. This is war, war against my demons and addictive vices. And everyone suffers casualties in war, but the persistent and strong will always win. I cant give up just from a few failures. I would like to give my sincerest thank you to @Forerunner . His words inspired me to not give in, but to be patient and consistent. But i will be honest with you my brothers, i am afraid. Not just because of my demons, but i have severely fallen behind in my college classes. I have roughly two months to make a huge academic comeback. Please pray for me, i need your energy and support more than ever. I will be sending good energy and prayers to you all as well. I have an exam today for one of my classes, this could make or break my grade, but i know greatness never comes easy.
This is all i have to say for now, but remember everyone, its easier to run from our problems than it is to face them. Stay strong!!
Hello my brothers, i hope all is well! Good energy today, i would like to think it comes from everyone’s prayers and support, so thank you all. Im pushing for 2 days clean now, im also going to put a higher effort into my studies. I also plan to get back onto my diet and exercise routine. I missed my routines for about 5 days now, but tomorrow i can expect a good breakfast and workout. I am also planning on organizing my money more responsibly. Small steps but lots of promise! Lets keep the momentum going everyone, we’re all worth too much to give up!