Day 53
Woke up - 6:00 am 
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Workout - 30 mins
Morning meditation 
Cold shower
Study - 5 hrs
School work
Reading books
------------ Mindfulness
Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping
evening meditation :
Daily math practice :
No Daytime Nap
Youtube detox
Regular conversation with friends
I wanna go straight on my issues I am facing . My mind has become thoughtful again , thoughts arenāt stopping to arise , not able to meditate either . I noticed two things about this -
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A few days ago when I had gone to my grandmaās house in the village , it is very open area . air passage is affluent . So even if you are inside the room whole day , you are not deprived of fresh air ++ I was like out of the world for those two days , didnāt worry about nothing and relaxed . Surprisingly , I did not face thoughtfulness then . I was able to sleep pleasantly and thoughts didnāt disturb me . But when I came back home and stayed in my room for a few hours , the same thing started to happen again and is still bothering me . Sounds weird but its true . (My room has a big window but it remains closed nowadays due to extreme heat outside and also the cooler is fitted so it canāt work without windows being closed).
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or the problem might be my screen time , even if I am not using youtube/insta/discord or any other social media , I still spend a lot of screen time while studying and the power of my glasses has increased to as I can feel . Screen addiction has increased more in this addiction and my eyesight has become weak in this one month -_- .
idk what is causing this to happen but I have felt these two as the reasons in the past days . I will try to go out for morning walk and a small walk after the dinner . I was also thinking of keeping a small plant in my study table which which will produce oxygen and keep me fresh .
Besides all this , it can be because of my thinking too , the way I am overthinking about it .
huhhhhhhhhhh 
Kya bhai Iām not a God I am a person like you
rip sarcasm
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I was off station again yesterday , we went to 5 places and met different people whom we hadnāt after coming to this city .
++ I wonāt be able to do heavy workout like cardio , legs , pushups and squats for 1 - 2 because I had a kind of mini - surgery on my left toeās thumb yesterday .
I will try some dumbells and stretching tho
Surgeryš„ŗ
I faint seeing blood
Ok so thereās this workout domain called chair workouts or foot injury workouts, you can look for them on YouTube and give it a try. Itās pretty nice but only when you have a lower body injury.
In grown toe nail?
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no not the nail , a piece of glass sank deep inside my thumb and it started to create dead skin all around it , they made a cut in my thumb and took it out .
I seeā¦ Goodluck with the surgery!
Well the surgery is done already. We can say all the best for the recovery.
never mind brother 
. I will take it as a praise only .
++ It cannot even be considered as surgery . Was a kind of mini - surgery , they just injected anesthesia , made a cut and took out the piece of glass . Nothing else
Day 59
Woke up - 6:00
Workout - 30 mins
Morning meditation
Cold shower
Study - 5 hrs
School work
Reading books
Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping
evening meditation :
Daily math practice :
No Daytime Nap
Youtube detox
Daily Guitar practice
Regular conversation with friends
Ummm , yeah I am alive . Idk what had happened to me for these 4 days , I was feeling unreal . Wasted time , was away from disciplines and was indulged in my own artificial world .
Now as it is 12 more days before reopening and I havenāt even completed half of my work , I am tensed as hell . To be honest , I wanted to be tensed as this is what that can make me serious about my work . I am back into reality after realization again . After successfully wasting 30 days yet I will consider as giving time to myself as healing .
Now , I have planned to complete my homework till 7th may and do a lil bit of preparation for school in the next 7 days .
I was so wasting time on laptop that I am formatting it while typing this , yeah , I am cleaning my whole laptop and now Iāll just keep 2 - 3 apps and all study materials , nothing else . I feel proud for it but wasted half a thousand rupees to get a drive to keep backup , not too proud of that one .
#STAYIN MOTIVATED #STAYIN STRONG
++ rewatched the film inception after years and now I doubt if my entire life is a dream .
Do watch the matrix then, youāll be even more doubtful after that
Ok (:
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Day 59
Woke up - 6:00 :
Workout - 30 mins
Morning meditation
Cold shower
Study - 5 hrs
Cold shower
Study - 5 hrs
School work
Reading books
Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping
evening meditation :
Daily math practice :
No Daytime Nap
Youtube detox
Daily Guitar practice
Regular conversation with friends
great day , low feeling since morning but i donāt give a fck . In sab cheezo se uppar uth chuka hu main 
Will do some work till 10 and then go to bed . I feel hard to wake up at 6 nowadays , idk what will I do when I will have to wake up at 5 for school 
one thing I liked the most about mindfulness by Dr Phil is that it focuses on practicals and self - assessment . After every section , there are 2 - 3 exercises to test and understand your thoughts . Like - from where do they arise , what is the basic nature of the thought , how long does a thought last etcā¦
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Day 60
two months of nofap 
Woke up - 6:00 :
Workout - 30 mins
Morning meditation
Cold shower
Study - 5 hrs
Cold shower
Study - 5 hrs
School work
Reading books
----------------------------- minfulness
Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping
evening meditation
Daily math practice
No Daytime Nap
Youtube detox
Daily Guitar practice
So , everything bad that could happen is happening with me . I was already recovering from my thumb injury , suddenly now , I have jaw and teeth pain + digestion problems + memory issues as usual .
But bigger problem is , while the dentist was surveying my teeth , she found out that I have serious dental problem , my teeth are wrongly placed all over , the upper jaw is in wrong direction and so is the lower one . If not treated now , it will cause serious problems in the future . So now , once I heal from my ulcers and all , Iāll go for a dental treatment (: 
. Theyāll probably fit braces .
Great day to have
bye , so jao