Welcome to the community man, we are all here in a similar boat. We came to this place because we don’t know how we got this far and how we went so beyond our morals. We don’t recognize ourselves in the mirror anymore. We don’t know what we’ve become.
That is a noble path you are taking though man, not many can readily say that there is something wrong with the direction their life is taking them in regards to ■■■■ use.
I personally haven’t dealt with hentai addiction, but just like everyone else here, we are all addicted to ■■■■.
I have also thought quite a bit about taking my own life at certain points. Things just looked so hopeless. I was living in complete contradiction to who I was and what I believed in as a Christian as well.
But there is a light at the end of the tunnel man! You made a good decision downloading this app. The community here is somewhat small, but it’s lively and attentive. There are several of us who have escaped this addiction and are here to support others. I am currently on Day 85 of no PMO (■■■■, masturbation, orgasm). It has been an amazing journey, lots of pits and roadblocks, but I have finally made it. This is the highest I have ever gone. I use to be someone who couldn’t go 2-3 days without relapsing.
Join a challenge on this forum and I think it will take you great places and will help to teach you how to beat this. My recommendation is the “Hero’s 90 Day Challenge” hosted by our brother @Forerunner. It’s a great place to get you started. Here’s the link: https://rewirecompanion.com/t/the-heros-90-day-challenge
Don’t stop fighting bro 
And if you ever need anything, don’t hesitate to message or @ me.