Hi there. Just to introduce myself, my name is Doc and I’ve been a heavy ■■■■ addict for the last 11 years of my life.
I was first exposed to ■■■■ in 6th grade. I was a pretty lonely kid and all I wanted was just to feel loved. So I dived into watching YouTube, unrestricted by my parents. This ultimately led to my first exposure, which was just girls dancing on the internet. Nothing as horrible as what I watch now, but it sparked it.
Ever since then, it has gotten worse and worse every year. Last year it even got to the point where I was on obscure sex dating apps to find someone to satisfy my fantasies. I even found an older woman who I almost lost my virginity to. It has even gotten so bad that I have been kicked out of school because I have no desire or drive to finish my assignments.
This year, I found the woman of my dreams. And she has made me a better man because she has been in my life. But I still can’t shake the addiction and I don’t want it to ruin my relationship and I can feel it bleeding in. Right now she is the only future I can see and I can’t screw it up.
I hope this is allowed, but I really need someone to hold me accountable. I don’t feel like I can share this with the people around me. I feel so evil and broken. If you are someone that is willing to help me, please feel free to respond to this forum. Or if there is a dm function (I haven’t really explored this app too much yet) please feel free to dm me.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I pray that everyone reading this breaks free from these horrible chains.