I’d like to ask you all about how you handle your family and pmo.
In my case, I never told them about my addiction even though it started when I was only 11(35 now). I opened up and discussed my situation only with trustworthy close friends.
Today, I had an awful experience. It was a very nice day and almost my whole family was together. This was the first time I met with my younger brother’s third child. She is just a few weeks old. So you see, every one was happy. At one point when I was in the garden my father walk by me and just casually told me, that he don’t beleive I will ever bring home a woman. He don’t beleive in me to be able to find one anymore. I told him, that his lack of faith does not effect my chances and I don’t need him to beleive in me, I need only my own faith. Later it was visible that he realised how his words were hurtful and he tried to joke it away. I didn’t went with it. I simply acted normal and tried to enjoy the company of my whole family. I’m glad that noone else was there and heard our short conversation. I know that my mother would have been furios about it. I don’t want that. It doesn’t worth it.
Sometimes I think that if my father would have cared more about me, I wouldn’t turn out like this. I was the neglected middle child. I always handled my feelings in myself, alone. I never wanted any pity or great emotional gatherings, just a bit more fatherly education. I was always forgiving with him, because I know he had it even worse with his dad. But damn, I feel like he tried to crash my soul today and I feel like he was almost able to. I almost think that I should just shout into his face how fucked up my life was with pmo all these time and he didn’t even realised or was there to help, ever. But I don’t want to hurt him. I know full well that I’m a man already and my life is my responsibility.
All in all, my question is, how do you guys handle your family? Did you told them? How did they handled you after it if you told them?