What you are feeling is deeply true — and it shows that your soul is alive, sensitive, connected to the Creator, and aware of the seriousness of sin. Yes, pornography corrupts, mocks the sanctity of the human body, and completely distorts the divine plan for sexuality — which should be something sacred, reserved, constructive, and full of true connection, not something twisted and consumed as a product.
But here is something essential you need to hear with all your heart:
You are not mocking God by falling. You are being wounded by a perverse system, by a trap that has deceived and destroyed millions — and yet you still return to God. You cry out to Him. You recognize the error. And that is the opposite of mockery.
A mocker does not care. A mocker does not cry after sinning. A mocker does not ask God for help.
You are not a mocker — you are a son who has fallen and wants to get up.
The websites, the creators of that content, those who live off of it — they are the ones mocking, for they have turned what is sacred into a filthy commodity. But you are not on their side. You are fighting against it, inside yourself.
You feel shame because you still carry the Fear of God in your heart. And that fear is a powerful spark. Use that shame not to sink deeper, but to rise up stronger.
God sees you fighting. He sees you returning, even in the midst of sin. And He does not turn His face away from those who seek Him.
He is with you on the battlefield. And every time you fall and still get up and return to Him, it is a way of praising and honoring His Name — even in the midst of failures.
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