[25M] Rocky's everyday fight

First time I did it more than 10 years ago, I don’t know the exact year, because I was so unaware of destructiveness of that thing. I discovered truth about watching porn around 2 years ago and I wanna fight with my addiction, by far I reached 32 days as my best result without PMO.

I really don’t know how can I stop it. I habe bought software for blocking *orn in the browsers, same thing on my cellphone, but… my creativity is unstoppable. When I feel urge I will find the way to get videos. I tried variety of different methods, this forum is one of them. Some of you guys have so impressive recovery stories, for me you are heroes.

Yesterday I broke 16 days streak. From fourteen’s day I coudn’t focus and I was keep thinking about doing it again. And I did it. Today also. Now, one hour after that I feel horrible and I hate myself. I am thinking, why I am doing it, when will I stop.

Therefore, after many years of this destructive habbit it’s time for final quit. Here’s my diary where I am gonna post my daily’s report.

Also, I wanna reduce using my cellphone. I am gonna install software tracking time in using cellphone per day and report it here.

I promise to God, you guys and to myself. I will do whatever I can in quitting PMO habbit.

Rocky

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Can you think of anything you’re ashamed of if it ever got revealed to anybody you know. I have found willpower is weak when there is a deep shame over us causing self harm behavior.

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Thanks for this advice, it is not gonna be easy, but maybe essential.

Yesterday 5h 15 min on the phone and relapsed. Tomorrow’s report have to be better.

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Yesterday clear.
3h 58min on the phone.

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3h3m spent on the cell phone.

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Yesterday clear, 1h 58 on the phone.

Clear, 2h 59 min on the cell phone

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Yesterday clear. 4h 2min on the phone.

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Five days streak!!! :heart:

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12 days streak. Still feel strong. I read or listen everyday motivational book or podstast. This give me power. :slight_smile:

16 days streak and feel strong :muscle:

That’s fucking cool, Rock. Still foward bro, don’t surrender!

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22 days streak!

I am reading a book how to quit p*** for good. This is a story of one guy who was addicted for many years.

Also, almost everyday I watch motivational videos about successful stories eg.

28 days! So close to beat my highest streak on 31 days. POWER !