First time I did it more than 10 years ago, I don’t know the exact year, because I was so unaware of destructiveness of that thing. I discovered truth about watching porn around 2 years ago and I wanna fight with my addiction, by far I reached 32 days as my best result without PMO.
I really don’t know how can I stop it. I habe bought software for blocking *orn in the browsers, same thing on my cellphone, but… my creativity is unstoppable. When I feel urge I will find the way to get videos. I tried variety of different methods, this forum is one of them. Some of you guys have so impressive recovery stories, for me you are heroes.
Yesterday I broke 16 days streak. From fourteen’s day I coudn’t focus and I was keep thinking about doing it again. And I did it. Today also. Now, one hour after that I feel horrible and I hate myself. I am thinking, why I am doing it, when will I stop.
Therefore, after many years of this destructive habbit it’s time for final quit. Here’s my diary where I am gonna post my daily’s report.
Also, I wanna reduce using my cellphone. I am gonna install software tracking time in using cellphone per day and report it here.
I promise to God, you guys and to myself. I will do whatever I can in quitting PMO habbit.
Rocky
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Can you think of anything you’re ashamed of if it ever got revealed to anybody you know. I have found willpower is weak when there is a deep shame over us causing self harm behavior.
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Thanks for this advice, it is not gonna be easy, but maybe essential.
Yesterday 5h 15 min on the phone and relapsed. Tomorrow’s report have to be better.
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Yesterday clear.
3h 58min on the phone.
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3h3m spent on the cell phone.
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Yesterday clear, 1h 58 on the phone.
Clear, 2h 59 min on the cell phone
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Yesterday clear. 4h 2min on the phone.
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12 days streak. Still feel strong. I read or listen everyday motivational book or podstast. This give me power. 
16 days streak and feel strong 
That’s fucking cool, Rock. Still foward bro, don’t surrender!
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22 days streak!
I am reading a book how to quit p*** for good. This is a story of one guy who was addicted for many years.
Also, almost everyday I watch motivational videos about successful stories eg.
28 days! So close to beat my highest streak on 31 days. POWER !
46 days! I forgot about PMO and even if I feel horrible I have no need to use this s***.
Open way to 50 days and then 90 days!
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YES!!! 50 days completed!
What I observed - my eyes are little bigger and they have specific flash on the surface. The skin is also smoother. Eyebrows seems to have more hair.
Mentally I dont feel much difference, but maybe I am not concious of that.
Anyway I am so proud of myself !!!
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Reset at 51 days. Next one will be 90!
After sometime with no concentration and self-discipline I am going back to challange.
POWER!
9 days streak today, but urges are often…
