First time I did it more than 10 years ago, I don’t know the exact year, because I was so unaware of destructiveness of that thing. I discovered truth about watching porn around 2 years ago and I wanna fight with my addiction, by far I reached 32 days as my best result without PMO.
I really don’t know how can I stop it. I habe bought software for blocking *orn in the browsers, same thing on my cellphone, but… my creativity is unstoppable. When I feel urge I will find the way to get videos. I tried variety of different methods, this forum is one of them. Some of you guys have so impressive recovery stories, for me you are heroes.
Yesterday I broke 16 days streak. From fourteen’s day I coudn’t focus and I was keep thinking about doing it again. And I did it. Today also. Now, one hour after that I feel horrible and I hate myself. I am thinking, why I am doing it, when will I stop.
Therefore, after many years of this destructive habbit it’s time for final quit. Here’s my diary where I am gonna post my daily’s report.
Also, I wanna reduce using my cellphone. I am gonna install software tracking time in using cellphone per day and report it here.
I promise to God, you guys and to myself. I will do whatever I can in quitting PMO habbit.