Today Im starting again…
I have had few longer streaks (longest being 15 days and average being 7 days). I starting porn when I was 16 years old. Now Im 24 years old. Since 16, I used to masturbate almost daily. Before I started masturbation, I used to see porn , imagine porn. ( I didnt do masturbation that time as I didnt know about it)
You may wonder, how would a person see porn without knowing masturbation. That time, porn for me is very softcore which includes more of seduction than fucking (even now I like porn videos of this time). I used to watch videos from youtube( now you can see why I didnt know masturbation)
It all started at 16 when one of my friend told me what masturbation is and how good it feels. I went one day and tried at home. That was my first day. I still feel, if I had a chanxe to go to past and correct a situation, it would be only this day.
But past is past, Masturbation since then ruined my concentration. From then as soon as I come home from college( around 7 pm), I take lite food and within half an hour I go to bath (firat see porn and bath). I used to take one hour for bathing. At arounf 9:30, I used to eat dinner and sleep. Wake up next day, go to college, comeback and do above. This was my routine. I lost all the valuable time without studying.
I just study for 10 to 20 mins before exam and get decent score ( as I listen to the classes and wont forget them). I still think, If I didnt waste time daily, I used to be in a better position than Im today.
So not quitting porn and getting more and more addicted to porn is my single point of failure.
Im 24 now, I still have a chance to pursue my life goal. But for that, I need to quit porn addiction and stop spending more time on it.
Till now, I was doing nofap without any goal. But for this streak, Im keeping a goal of 90 days and I will keep telling my brain about these 90 days. I will try to not watch porn these 90 days.
Wish me good luck.
I will keep updating my daily experiences and how productive I was without watching porn. I may not update daily, but once in 2-3 days.