Lol I’ll email you or smth on how I do it then 
now go sleep mate. Gn!
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ok bro, goodnight, seeya 
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I messed up again, relapsed last night.
I am thinking of keep my mobile phone in locker for some days now, I really need to disconnect for a few days and realise what’s been going wrong.
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Bro what were the thoughts before you relapsed?..like the thoughts just before you went all the way and the thoughts leading to the situation of you peeking.
What was your emotional state during that time…happy sad bored?
Try to remember these and you can get a clue
In my opinion, mobile is not your issue and you can’t get rid off your phone forever…you have to use it somehow or other…so try to change internal situation rather than external factors.
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I don’t know, probably I was bored I was just sitting there browsing mindlessly. And there was this tug of war, if I should go for it I tried not to but eventually failed.
Next time I think when I feel urges instead of opening the forum on my phone I should just throw my phone away
or you can talk to somebody or just go n take s shower
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Yeah there’s plenty of good things I can do instead of opening the phone, usually I take the forum to be my go to during urges but that requires using the internet 
, so I tend to mess up more.
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I think your mind needs that dopamine, so what can do is either sleep if its night or give yourself something else…games or any entertainment.
Then there’s pushups and coldshower as @ASH1267 said.
Personally when urges hit I never did pushups…
I used to watch some funny dog cat video…which is highly entertaining or just sleep it away.
As days increased, strength of urges reduced.
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Yeah I am kind of forgetting what I used to do when I had urges.
I really need a break from mobile for a few days.
I’ll use it for just working out in the morning and put it back in my almirah. I’ll record my progress in my offline journal. I need to do this for a few days and do some serious contemplation.
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Yess bro. You can do that for the initial days, after gaining a headstart you can slowly face the world head on!!
Yess do it…Only you have the perfect solution for yourselves. Once you find your personalized method, you can make good progress!
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Thanks man. I’ll come back in a few days, maybe 2-3 or a few more.
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Will be waiting for you bro 
Also, I don’t have to tell this still, keep up with your studies 
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Yeah I’ll .
Thanks 
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Wish you the best!
I also have the bordom → PMO issue…
I am working on my commitment to _always first write sth/anything in either this forum or diary about what is happening as soon as I even think of porn… So I distance my self from the habit chains leaving to PMO.
You seem to be doing sth similar:)
Some distance to the phone to get past the chaser is a great idea!
Take care and get tat streak going again!
Bests
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12th November 2:35 pm
This relapse broke me, really. I am having a lot of thoughts and emotions, there were these two specific moments where I just wanted to cry while working out and while practicing basketball, I was on the verge of crying.
I felt alone for the first time. Like I started thinking about how I made a 100+ days streak once then I suddenly remembered there was Alan, we crossed, 90 days together, 100 days together and then I fucked up and one year later I am still at the same place where I was addiction wise, I will be crossing one year on the forum in December beginning, what for? All in vain. I am actually thankful to the forum that I was able to build some good habits but the main reason I joined the forum was to leave this addiction and I am at square one. I know this all might seem unlike me but this is what it is, I really needed to share this, I just want to cry.
And I can’t talk about any of this with my friends, I don’t have even a single friend who is serious about no fap, they are all pro porn, just one moment ago one of my friends sent some P*** on our college group, I was so annoyed I left the group.
Whenever I tell my friends that I broke my streak and it made me sad or anything, they just laugh at me saying why am I so uptight about it, it is meant to be enjoyed.
I am really thankful to the people here who are still supporting me but I am letting you guys down and myself down time and again.
I started preparing for Gate this year because after last year’s gate I knew I was free from this addiction, I was more than one month into the streak and going great so I decided to take the chance once again, but I let myself down, I let everyone down, I still have sometime till Gate but I can’t say anything now, everytime I start a new streak I am confident about myself that I’ll do good this time but I don’t, I just don’t.
I am sorry for letting these negative feelings onto you (whoever reads this) but if you can please forgive me.
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Don’t worry bro , everything will be fine … Well if you feel like crying just cry . Earlier I used to think tough men don’t cry , but it’s not the case . I have cried so many times after failing in nofap that lead to depression and anxiety…Over the past 1 year I have cried more than a newborn baby do… It’s natural …
All the time you spent on the forum is definitely not wasted , you must have learned so much from this forum … You have enough knowledge on this addiction . You just need to arrange these pieces to get to the exit …
Everything has a time … As you are preparing for an exam , I think you should not focus on nofap too much and should focus on studies… Just keep 1 day in a week as a relapse day without porn… After exam you have enough time to tackle this problem😊… You just need to adjust with this…
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I had been crying since I wrote above post.
Thanks for your words.
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hey mate
i feel with you truly
earnestly
i would like to hug you
the problems is not with you
there are others who struggle like you
you are never truly alone
just make your feelings known
you will always have this comunity
wher others see your struggles purity
there is nothing to forgive i for one am, actually gratefull for you sharing this!
i can relate to the lack of people arround me irl who want to fight this.
i have to agree with you on that one: what for ? i am interest to knwo what didi you expect?
to me it seems like you currently stuck.
but than again a streak of one month is pretty decent !!!
were you capable of that 1 year ago?
i strongly disagree with this statement yes you failed to keep up your streak but you did not really let anyone down NOFAPERS are comited to the fight against PMO you lost abattle but not the war! you are still here you are posting you still want to quit as long as you doi not give up you can not really let yourself or the people down. relapses are part of the process and how you dill with them and your reaction to them is an important lesson.
you honor yourself by beeing truthfull and authentic here! that is something to be proud about.
it is hard to deal with tension and stress in exam periode and this only gives you the feedback that there still some things about your addiction you do not fully comprehend/adress.
here are some ideas for after your exams if you think you might need some impulses you seem wuite knowledgable after all 
:
unsolicited advice
did you go back to the start of your journey on this page regarding MOFAP strategies?
- maybe make a list of the practices regarding PMO you have had last year and than one with the ones you have dropped/changed
- make a list ofg how you are currently dealing with PMO what behaviours and strategies you apply in what situation are there any that you ahve no strategy for?
what do you mean by “gate” ??
best regards keep up the new streak!
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I am on no fap since Jan 2020. Joined the forum in December 2020, till then my highest streak was 19 days.
Then in 2021 my streaks go somewhat like this
134 days, 33 days, 49 days, 13 days, 2 days, 20 days, 10 days, 2 days, 6 days, 25 days, 5 days, 6 days.
Thanks for this 
I need to think about this, I am not doing anything recently, I just go on with life, stick to my habits and studies as much as possible, I have even forgotten recently how I made those good streaks. I will think hard about this today itself.
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It stands for General aptitude test for engineers. It is the exam I am preparing for. It is in February
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