Thanks man
Fresh start to the end
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@The_integrous_one that AVRT video showed us, is working really well on me👍, I think you should try it once again.
Anyway, the legendary month has begun😄
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Oh yeah!!!
I totally forgot about that even after all those memes 
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Yeah it’s good bro 
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1 Nov 12:34 pm
I didn’t post what actually happened last night so here goes.
My mind (Addictive part) was craving for that dopamine real bad, it had been happening since 2-3 days, last night it totally took over me, this usually happenes when I am sleep deprived but I wasn’t, so not sure how that happened.
I knew I had made some vows and Addictive part of me also knew the same so it tried to get that dopamine without breaking the vows somehow. I opened the mail, I had a mail from Instagram that I have some pending requests, I opened insta accepted the requests and went to search section, I didn’t search for any name or triggering words but I kept on scrolling, my insta is usually clean but guess what I came across one triggering image, I closed insta at that time thinking what I was doing, but then this weird thought appeared I have already fucked up a bit why not fuck up completely 
then after sometime opened the search section again, one thing led to another and boom relapse. And as soon as it happened I came to my senses again, wth did I just do, it takes one moment of weakness to throw weeks of hardwork down the drain, not worth it, not worth it at all.
I am back on track now, worked out, had a cold shower, good brunch, feeling good, going strong once again. Not gonna give up, will have to add one or two more guidelines to the list of my vows, though they are more like things to take care of so I go much longer this time.
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Added 3rd and 5th this time and made some tweaks.
Keeping such guidelines does have a good impact on me.
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Bro, insta search section on mobile is full of triggers, ive had so many relapses bcuz of this.
Before you click on the search button only, it will display triggering images, even if you dont follow indecent accounts.
Im totally avoiding this by opening insta on laptop on my google browser as there are no triggers while searching i can assure you.
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Well I straightaway deactivated my insta account so all well now
I didn’t use it that much anyway so it’s better this way.
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1st November
- Study: 1 hour
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Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping last night -
Sleeping before/around 12 am last night -
Workout: 40 min + 1 hour basketball
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Prayer
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Affirmations, Visualisation
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Reading and contemplating daily stoic
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Cold shower
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Evening meditation: 15 min
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No daytime nap: 20 min nap
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No internet till dinner except for studies/important matters
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Shutdown ritual (planning for the next day)
After the unfortunate incident last night I couldn’t sleep so I watched parks and recreation for sometime, slept for just 5 hours 
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Watched some more parks and rec in the day, it helped improved my mood a lot, took a 20 minute nap, studied somewhat, went to play, had a good half court game, after that dusted my room and arranged my almirah. Spent rest of the time chatting and talking to friends.
Will watch a little parks and rec and sleep. Aiming to hit good study hours tomorrow.
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Are your workout routines different everyday ?
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Did you mean any sort of Mindfulness practice ?
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Yess I am following pull muscles one day (biceps, traps, back, forearms) , push the next day (triceps, chest, shoulders) and legs+abs the third day.
I have 10 kg dumbbells now so even less workout is burning me up 
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I just do about 5 exercises per muscle group, 50 seconds high intensity followed by 10 seconds of rest.
Rest of the time I spend in skipping and stretching.
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Got it .That Alan’s thing
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Have you read daily stoic?
It has 366 lessons one for each day of the year, it is quite philosophical and is quite relatable to real life incidents.
I read one page every day think hard about each line and try to relate it to my life, just that.
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Yeah I was doing whole upper body on one day and legs plus abs the next day but whole upper body in one day was becoming quite taxing so Alan adviced me to switch it up like this.
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Oh sorry. I never thought it was a book btw . If I am right stoic mean the one without any emotion and I associated with mindfulness when you said you are contemplating it.
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The whole sentence says “reading and contemplating”
Yes it is quite related to mindfulness, it’s more philosophical though
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Most of the lessons are about being more mindfulness of our choices and actions.
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Yeah But I thought they are different habits in a same bullet point . My mistake
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Yeah I got that , no worries.
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