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Happy Anniversary brother :crossed_fingers: Keep going bro stay strong :fire: It’s one year in this forum you gotta show us some huge streak records now and become inspiration for the upcoming ones ! Crack that GATE with the power of Focus and confidence you get through practicing nofap

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Congrats @The_integrous_one !

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Thanks bro, just one year here, not another year :joy:

No bro, constellations and meteor showers are visible with naked eye, it’s not possible to watch them with telescope, and I live in Himachal, environment is pretty clean here stars are clearly visible most of the times.

We do that too, on the night of meteor showers, not always but sometimes, me and my sister are planning to do this next week, it’s the peak of Geminids meteor shower.

Thanks a lot bro :v:.

Lol thanks :sweat_smile:

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8th December

  1. Study: 1 hr
  2. :white_check_mark:Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping last night
  3. Sleeping before/around 12 am last night: Around 2
  4. :white_check_mark:Workout: 25 min + basketball drill
  5. :white_check_mark:Prayer
  6. :white_check_mark:Affirmations, Visualisation
  7. :white_check_mark:Reading and contemplating the daily stoic
  8. :white_check_mark:Evening meditation: 10 min
  9. No daytime nap: 17 min nap
  10. :white_check_mark:No internet till dinner except for studies/important matters
  11. No sugar
  12. :white_check_mark:Shutdown ritual (planning for the next day)

Slept a lot last night, had no mood to do anything today, wasted most of the day lounging around, which I am now regretting.
Seems like I celebrated the anniversary wrong way :joy:, a total rest day, will get back on track tomorrow onwards

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You are lucky bro :pleading_face:
I am trying to watch this for last 4 years…no luck where I live…

I only got to stargaze 4 times…when I was at my native place…
I can never forget those days :relieved:

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I used to live in shimla 7 years ago, I remember the sky was crystal clear there at night, thanks to less pollution and more greenery and also the altitude. But where I live currently nothing’s visible except the moon and a few stars :confused::night_with_stars:

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I saw 34 meteors in 2019 Geminids meteor shower and about 30 last year in Orionids :joy:

Damn :fire:

:sweat_smile:

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9th Dec, 11: 38 am
Last night I messed up, I had very high urges, I stroked somewhat and there was pecum :man_facepalming:, no porn but this seems like a relapse now :broken_heart:, I was like wtf did I just do, I had no intention to lose the streak, was going good but I’ve to restart again, have to be extra careful. Though this one is totally upon me, I had made some around the perimeter searches last week and that’s why this happened.
Starting a new streak and this ones gonna be completely clean. I’d follow all my rules strictly, God help me.
@alphadude sorry for letting you and everyone down :man_facepalming:.
How it takes one small mistake to set the day count back to zero

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You don’t have to consider it as a relapse, if you only did that for a few seconds…
When in abstinence, its not unusual to get few pecum while in high urges…maybe it would have come automatically.

If its only for a moment you can still continue bro!
You didn’t fall, it was a slipup…you can still run!

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I feel stupid now :sweat_smile:. But what is done is done now.
And as I said there were a few around the perimeter searches during this streak, it’ll be better for me if I start fresh.
I do have good strategy now but I was getting overconfident because of it. Thank God this happened before the last man standing challenge started, I have a reminder now to never get complacent.

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And btw congrats on getting a girlfriend and also that you were able to cry finally.
Regarding family problems, I know you are strong enough to handle it

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You have a good point here…this must be the reason for your unusually high urges…

Try to not be too dependent on the Detox apps you are using…you have to control your mind…rather than controlling your phone…

Maybe working like this…you may stop searching stuffs…

Yeah bro…you are lucky and right! :100:
Its a reminder for me as well…if you can slip this easily…I have to be more careful too!
We have to grow strong! :triumph:

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Oh that I just use for study purpose. So I don’t get distracted during studies

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I’d have to disagree on this one. Especially if the precum has occured. The combination of willingness and precum seems like a relapse to me. Both of them happening individually isn’t relapse. But both combined surely is.
I’d go far and also say that while watching ■■■■ you get precum is a relapse.

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Yess broo…this felt damn good…a weight fell of my shoulders!!
I feel more emotionally stable now :relieved:

About gf…lol let’s see how it goes…I have 0 exp as its my first relationship… :laughing:

Thanks a lot bro!!
Your words gives me strength to continue :fire: :relieved:

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You are right bro, that’s why I reset :sweat_smile:

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This itself is a relapse bro…
And the above mentioned point, I agree…

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True that…

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I’d advise not to put her on a pedestal and go blinded by hormones. The hardest thing to do so far.
Also be firm on your stance, especially when she teases you sexually. Tell her not to do it, or make sure you won’t do go down that path.
Else it will end up in a disaster inside you.
I wish you all the best.

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Okay…coz I have seen people searching desperately for blockers and then undoing it and relapsing…then again search for even stronger blockers…

This dependency takes us nowhere…so the responsibility of not watching or searching should be upon us!

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