[22M] Pingpong1 diary - PERSEVERANCE

@Samaranjay listen this. I don’t know why but I am in mad love with this. I am possessed

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Lil busy, will listen later

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Ok. You went to Chandigarh for exam I think…
How was it??

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Yeah I am in Chandigarh rn.
The test was yesterday, it was good, better than the last time I took the same exam.

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Day 28 sept.
Sadly I relapsed. Gave in to urges.:pensive:
Did nice today. Good study but was affected a lot.
Study 7:10 hours :white_check_mark:
Exercise :white_check_mark::white_check_mark:
Mistake:- Even after I knew urges are now adays knocking on my door I didn’t put much effort . I was solely dependent on my will power.but also I am exhausted from this regular efforts . But I can’t leave it like that and go. I have to fight.
This time I will go very far. That’s a promise. May be I will try to do nofap until my exams.

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This as @Luffy420 was me now have new account.

get up stronger buddy

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Let’s just keep getting better by the day, taking good learnings from each failure and giving our best everytime.

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Sure bro. This time final fight…

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Ya. Sure bro. I will do my best . Thanks you all for supporting me.

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29 sept
I felt overwhelmed by the regular learning process. I needed some break. Once I complete som subject (that is tomorrow) I will take rest from video lectures.
Also it is causing me eye problems so it’s better to complete these lectures as soon as possible.
Study 6:21 hours :white_check_mark: (had time but couldn’t study)
Exercise :white_check_mark::white_check_mark:
I am practicing breathing methods whenever I get urge or se**al thoughts.

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Home alone now. And getting urges in between.so I thought it’s better to go and write here.
I feel like I am again at the place where I was at beginning of journey . Uff.
Not writing much negative , just wanted to let off the little pressure building up.
Going for study now.:v:

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30 sept.
A lot of urges, very less study but lot of nofap motivation.
Study 3:30 hours only :disappointed::grimacing:
Pray :white_check_mark:

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1 oct update
a day full of wierd thoughts and completely lusty mindset (similar to when i was completely addicted) but i can feel i have lot more confidence and experience now. i can easily beat it . well not being overconfident.
study 5 hr approx (guests came)
pray :white_check_mark:

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I had been experiencing the same :sob:, I don’t want to be this way

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Ya bro . But we can do it. :fire::fire::fire:
#lustlesslifeforever

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It is a must have and only long clean no fap streak helps achieve that, there’s no other way

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2 Oct.
LAL Bahadur shashtri and Gandhi jayanti
Today I finally tried to conquer my inner evil. I read Gita then meditated and focused on a life free of lust.
Literaaly What I fear the most is a action drived by lust.
Other than these
Study 6 hours :white_check_mark:
Exercise :white_check_mark:
Meditation :white_check_mark:
I promise to do 9 hours or more study tomorrow

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3oct
Urges came at evening but I tackeled them. I realised that my thinking pattern is ultra bad when urges come.
I have to fight them and conquer not ignore them

Studying 9:30 hours :white_check_mark::white_check_mark: (I am totally happy for this)
Did nothing else :sweat_smile::sweat_smile:
Before sleeping I will try to revise and meditate as I have more time…

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:fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire:

:fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire:

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