@The_integrous_one listen this. I don’t know why but I am in mad love with this. I am possessed
Lil busy, will listen later
Ok. You went to Chandigarh for exam I think…
How was it??
Yeah I am in Chandigarh rn.
The test was yesterday, it was good, better than the last time I took the same exam.
Day 28 sept.
Sadly I relapsed. Gave in to urges.
Did nice today. Good study but was affected a lot.
Study 7:10 hours
Exercise
Mistake:- Even after I knew urges are now adays knocking on my door I didn’t put much effort . I was solely dependent on my will power.but also I am exhausted from this regular efforts . But I can’t leave it like that and go. I have to fight.
This time I will go very far. That’s a promise. May be I will try to do nofap until my exams.
This as @Luffy420 was me now have new account.
get up stronger buddy
Let’s just keep getting better by the day, taking good learnings from each failure and giving our best everytime.
Sure bro. This time final fight…
Ya. Sure bro. I will do my best . Thanks you all for supporting me.
29 sept
I felt overwhelmed by the regular learning process. I needed some break. Once I complete som subject (that is tomorrow) I will take rest from video lectures.
Also it is causing me eye problems so it’s better to complete these lectures as soon as possible.
Study 6:21 hours (had time but couldn’t study)
Exercise
I am practicing breathing methods whenever I get urge or se**al thoughts.
Home alone now. And getting urges in between.so I thought it’s better to go and write here.
I feel like I am again at the place where I was at beginning of journey . Uff.
Not writing much negative , just wanted to let off the little pressure building up.
Going for study now.
30 sept.
A lot of urges, very less study but lot of nofap motivation.
Study 3:30 hours only
Pray
1 oct update
a day full of wierd thoughts and completely lusty mindset (similar to when i was completely addicted) but i can feel i have lot more confidence and experience now. i can easily beat it . well not being overconfident.
study 5 hr approx (guests came)
pray
I had been experiencing the same , I don’t want to be this way
Ya bro . But we can do it.
#lustlesslifeforever
It is a must have and only long clean no fap streak helps achieve that, there’s no other way
2 Oct.
LAL Bahadur shashtri and Gandhi jayanti
Today I finally tried to conquer my inner evil. I read Gita then meditated and focused on a life free of lust.
Literaaly What I fear the most is a action drived by lust.
Other than these
Study 6 hours
Exercise
Meditation
I promise to do 9 hours or more study tomorrow
3oct
Urges came at evening but I tackeled them. I realised that my thinking pattern is ultra bad when urges come.
I have to fight them and conquer not ignore them
Studying 9:30 hours (I am totally happy for this)
Did nothing else
Before sleeping I will try to revise and meditate as I have more time…