This is my 3rd day and I’m feeling tremendous urge to release myself. It’s mainly because in the past 3 days
- I got scolded by teachers
- Had a heated argument with my mom
- Got falsely blamed by classmates
- Girlfriend is upset about her life and I can’t do anything as I am miles away. All I’m doing is trying to make her happy, but nothing is enough.
The days are going really rough so my brain is sneaking on to me and telling, " Hey, you are having a tough time. Let’s have a shot so that we can feel calm".
I said, “Aha! Not gonna happen. This is the God’s way of testing me of my dedication. This too shall pass, but the regret that’ll come after jerking will not go. And I’ll eventually give uo on this journey. Whatever it takes, I won’t fall”
On the first day, I said that I’m masturbating for the last time and I hate to disobey myself.