Yo @Awaken_one. Time to get real.
See this trauma you’ve been in, I’ve been in one too. I don’t know about you but I even took medicines for it, strong enough to feel the pressure of brain cells cracking. A strong OCD of hate for a narcissist who treated me like trash intermingled with feelings of love, a curse, clouding my abilities to concentrate and focus. I lived with this curse for 4 years and then I broke my limiter. I broke it once 2 years ago years ago and continue to break it every single day since then. What happened? One day I heard Vegeta say this in one of the episodes, yeah sounds hilarious how @Binocular would be the one. He said, I don’t care and became a Super Saiyan.
For years all I thought was to wait for myself to heal. All I thought was to move on. Then it clicked to me. I don’t care if I’m dwelling. I don’t care if I still love that certain someone. I don’t care if I don’t. I don’t care if I have moved on. I don’t care if I haven’t.
I don’t care about anything or anyone.
I care about getting this and this thing.
And that this and this thing should be power. Nothing emotional. Nothing sentimental. Just raw power.
Deep down you might say to yourself but I still care. It doesn’t damn matter what you feel deep down. Words are power. And if you say I don’t care repeatedly, you’re feeding your cold rational self while killing your emotional side.
Sure, you might still feel the pull of emotions like attachment, pain, regret and think to yourself deep down I care about so and so and I don’t care about this endeavor to power. Again a true care that comes from within isn’t needed and doesn’t matter. What you feel doesn’t matter. What you force matters. A care that is forced, cold and voluntary is all you need. You know what you want. That’s all. Doesn’t matter if you truly care about it or not.
You can get only so far in life if you let your traumas heal. If your rational self cooperates with your emotional self. The emotional side has to die, to truly arm the rational self.
And life’s like Mahoraga. Keeps evolving to throw new and improved shit on you. If you allow time to take its course, you’ll never get to true power. Might even get get bested by this beast called life. Believe me.
Thoughts, feelings and behaviour operate like a cursed triad. One affecting the other two. While thoughts and feelings can be elusive for you right now. Behaviour is always under your control. Something you can use to warp the other two. So the next time, that trauma, that desire for comfort, those urges arise, say to yourself
I don’t care
Short and sharp. It’s easy to repeat, like an incantation. If you want something even stronger, try this:
You might have had a chance to defeat me back in the state I was then, but now you’re too late.
Say it out loud with a psychotic, unhinged laugh to supercharge its effect. Channel the emotions into this statement and you’ll feel an overwhelming surge of strength like Sukuna.
Whatever I told you, isn’t a random as# article, copy pasted from Google. Years of self experience with scientific research.
Yeah I’m not perfect. Not the most disciplined person. Not the guy with the shiniest cursed techniques like Gojo. Even act dim sometimes in real life moves. But one thing is certain. My Battle IQ far exceeds any mortal.
At the end, it’s your choice. Who do you wanna be.
Yuji? Haunted by circumstances beyond your control? Or Sukuna? A master in a league of his own.
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