[22 M] RE: Awaken's Nofap Journal

Journal
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Activity Time :white_check_mark:
:sunrise_over_mountains: Morning Routine
Wake Up :alarm_clock: 4:00 AM
Bathing & Getting Ready Properly :shower: 4:00:4:50 AM
Garlic empty stomach :garlic: 4:50-5:00 AM
Cleaning Room :broom: 5:00-5:15 AM
Cooking :cooking: 5:15-5:45 AM
Breakfast + Supplements :kiwi_fruit: 5:45-6:00 AM
Study 6:00-10:30 AM
Visa appointment booking :telephone_receiver: 10:30-11:00 AM
:sun: Afternoon Routine
Messaging Accommodation for early sign 11:00-11:30 AM
Bank application escalation 11:30-12:00 AM
Confirming Visa appointment booking 12:00-12:30 PM
NAP 12:30-1:30 PM
Lunch 1:30-2:00 PM
International Driving License 2:00-3:45 PM
Beard + something to buy 3:45-4:15 PM
Photograph 4:15-5:00 PM
:cityscape_at_dusk: Evening Routine
GYM change🏋🏻‍♂️ 5:00-5:15 PM
Buying some clothes & shoes 5:15-7:00 PM
Eating something healthy + Suplements 7:00-8:00 PM
:night_with_stars: Night Routine
Netflix & Chill :popcorn: 8:00-10:00 PM
Dinner :curry_rice: 10:00-10:30 PM
In bed - by 10:30 PM
Turmeric Milk🥛 10:30-11:00 PM
Sleep :sleeping_face: 11:00 PM - 4:00 AM

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Activity Time :white_check_mark:
:sunrise_over_mountains: Morning Routine
Wake Up :alarm_clock: 4:00 AM
Bathing & Getting Ready Properly :shower: 4:00:4:50 AM
Garlic empty stomach :garlic: 4:50-5:00 AM
Cleaning Room :broom: 5:00-5:15 AM
Study 5:00-8:00 AM
Calling VFS 8:00-8:15 AM
Study 8:15-10:30 AM
Visa appointment booking :telephone_receiver: 10:30-11:00 AM
:sun: Afternoon Routine
Searching Backup Accommodation 11:00-11:30 AM
Bank application escalation 11:30-11:45 AM
International Driving License 11:45-1:00 PM
NAP 1:00-1:30 PM
Lunch 1:30-2:00 PM
Beard 2:00-2:45 PM
Photograph + Document copies 2:45-3:30 PM
:cityscape_at_dusk: Evening Routine
Buying some clothes & shoes 3:30-6:00 PM
Swimming 6:00-7:00 M
Eating something healthy + Supplements 7:00-8:00 PM
:night_with_stars: Night Routine
Netflix & Chill :popcorn: 8:00-10:00 PM
Dinner :curry_rice: 10:00-10:30 PM
In bed - by 10:30 PM
Turmeric Milk🥛 10:30-11:00 PM
Sleep :sleeping_face: 11:00 PM - 4:00 AM

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I want that spacecraft sci-fi lovercraftien type spiritual relationship with a being from another dimension. Just kidding.

My ego has dissipated in past few days, not because I broke but because I won. Its weird, the more successful you get, the more humble you become.

But I don’t wanna be soft, like my previous selves of my childhood, it was a suffering. I am glad I became cold, may be that is why I had this success. Not that much success though, still a long way to go.

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Activity Time :white_check_mark:
:sunrise_over_mountains: Morning Routine
Wake Up :alarm_clock: 3:50 AM
Bathing & Getting Ready Properly :shower: 4:00:430 AM
Garlic empty stomach :garlic: 4:30-4:35 AM
Cleaning Room :broom: 4:35-4:45 AM
Study 4:45-7:30 AM
Asking for bank form & filling them 7:30-8:00 AM
Study 8:00-10:00 AM
Bank 10:00-10:30 AM
Another Bank 10:30-11:00 AM
Visa Casefile :telephone_receiver: 11:00+11:30 AM
:sun: Afternoon Routine
International Driving License 11:30-12:30 PM
Beard 12:30-1:00 PM
Photograph + Document copies 1:00-1:30 PM
Lunch 1:30-2:00 PM
:cityscape_at_dusk: Evening Routine
Buying some clothes & shoes 2:00-4:00 PM
GYM 4:00-6:00 PM
Eating something healthy + Supplements 6:00-8:00 PM
:night_with_stars: Night Routine
Netflix & Chill :popcorn: 8:00-10:00 PM
Dinner :curry_rice: 10:00-10:30 PM
In bed - by 10:30 PM
Turmeric Milk🥛 10:30-11:00 PM
Sleep :sleeping_face: 11:00 PM - 4:00 AM

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I might take cold shower as I am having urges.
After everyone sleeps, I will take it and then study.

Reclaiming that throne Awaken? Kinda.
I have no power as of yet. All I have is a frail ego build on support from people that never questioned my ability.

Gotta change it, need to work harder, and most importantly smarter.

Fuck emotions too, cold logic is the way ahead.

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I relapsed.

I aim to reach 90 days. Will I? Like this. Guess not.

May be I am afraid of my own success. What if I get successful.

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Activity Time :white_check_mark:
:sunrise_over_mountains: Morning Routine
Wake Up :alarm_clock: 5:30 AM
Bathing & Getting Ready Properly :shower: 5:30-6:30 AM
Garlic empty stomach :garlic: 6:30-6:35 AM
Study :open_book: 7:00-12:00 PM
:sun: Afternoon Routine
Test :100: 12:00-1:00 PM
Lunch :bento_box: 2:00+2:30 PM
Buying some clothes & shoes :shopping_bags: 2:30-5:00 PM
:cityscape_at_dusk: Evening Routine
GYM :martial_arts_uniform: 5:00-6:00 PM
Study :open_book: 6:00-10:00 PM
:night_with_stars: Night Routine
Dinner :curry_rice: 10:00-10:30 PM
In bed by 10:30 PM
Turmeric Milk🥛 10:30-11:00 PM
Sleep :sleeping_face: 11:00 PM - 4:00 AM

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I didn’t do anything today. I slept and wasted my time. I feel really bad about it.

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I tried using overlay Ai to bypass an exam, it just ended up wasting my time instead.

I could have solved in 20 minutes, the AI made me took 30 minutes instead.

In the end, I only used the AI for one question out of the 45 there were. It was so bad, and I could not stop it in between exam otherwise I would have left window.

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Activity Time :white_check_mark:
:sunrise_over_mountains: Morning Routine
Wake Up :alarm_clock: 4:00 AM
Bathing & Getting Ready Properly :shower: 4:00-4:30 AM
Garlic empty stomach :garlic: 4:30-4:35 AM
Cleaning Room :broom: 4:35-4:45 AM
Study :open_book: 5:00-10:00 AM
Calling bank :bank: 10:00-10:10 AM
Visa Casefile :telephone_receiver: 10:00-10:20 AM
Bank :bank: 10:20-10:30 AM
International Driving License :identification_card: 10:30-11:00 PM
Photograph + Document copies :card_file_box: 11:00-11:30 PM
Study :open_book: 11:30-1:30 PM
:sun: Afternoon Routine
Lunch :bento_box: 1:30-2:00 PM
:cityscape_at_dusk: Evening Routine
Buying some clothes & shoes, camera, mic, utensils, etc :shopping_bags: 2:00-4:00 PM
GYM :martial_arts_uniform: 4:00-6:00 PM
Eating something healthy + Supplements :cooking: 6:00-8:00 PM
:night_with_stars: Night Routine
YouTube Video script :popcorn: 8:00-10:00 PM
Dinner :curry_rice: 10:00-10:30 PM
In bed :red_paper_lantern: - by 10:30 PM
Turmeric Milk🥛 10:30-11:00 PM
Sleep :sleeping_face: 11:00 PM - 4:00 AM

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Activity Time :white_check_mark:
:sunrise_over_mountains: Morning Routine
Wake Up :alarm_clock: 3:00 AM
Bathing & Getting Ready Properly :shower: 3:00-3:20 AM
Garlic empty stomach :garlic: 3:20-3:25 AM
Cleaning Room :broom: 3:25-4:35 AM
Lesson 21 :open_book: 5:00-5:30 AM
Lesson 22 :open_book: 5:30-6:00 AM
Lesson 23 :open_book: 6:00-6:30 AM
Lesson 24 :open_book: 6:30-7:00 AM
Lesson 25 :open_book: 7:00-7:30 AM
Lesson 26 :open_book: 7:30-8:00 AM
Lesson 27 :open_book: 8:00-8:30 AM
Lesson 28 :open_book: 8:30-9:00 AM
Lesson 29 :open_book: 9:00-9:30 AM
Lesson 30 :open_book: 9:30-10:00 AM
Bank :bank: 10:00-10:20
Visa Casefile :envelope_with_arrow: 10:20-10:30 AM
International Driving License query :identification_card: 10:30-11:00 PM
Photograph + Document copies :card_file_box: 11:00-11:30 PM
Nap 11:30-1:30 PM
:sun: Afternoon Routine
Lunch :bento_box: 1:30-2:00 PM
:cityscape_at_dusk: Evening Routine
Buying some clothes & shoes, camera, mic, utensils, etc :shopping_bags: 2:00-4:00 PM
GYM :martial_arts_uniform: 4:00-6:00 PM
Eating something healthy + Supplements :cooking: 6:00-8:00 PM
:night_with_stars: Night Routine
YouTube Video script :popcorn: 8:00-10:00 PM
Dinner :curry_rice: 10:00-10:30 PM
In bed :red_paper_lantern: - by 10:30 PM
Turmeric Milk🥛 10:30-11:00 PM
Sleep :sleeping_face: 11:00 PM - 4:00 AM

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Activity Time. :white_check_mark:
:sunrise_over_mountains: Morning Routine
Wake Up :alarm_clock: 7:00 AM
Bathing & Getting Ready Properly :shower: 7:00-7:50 AM
Garlic empty stomach :garlic: 7:50-7:55
Cleaning Room :broom: 7:55-8:10 AM
Cleaning Vehicles :fire_engine: 8:10-8:30 AM
Sunlight (+30 mins) :sun: 8:30-9:00 AM
Wise :credit_card: 9:00-9:30 AM
Bank :bank: 9:30-10:00 AM
Visa Casefile Ready :white_check_mark: 10:00 AM
Another Bank :atm_sign: 10:30-11:00 AM
International Driving License query :identification_card: 11:00-11:30 AM
Resume :page_with_curl: 11:30-12:00 PM
Documents Copy + Photograph :card_file_box: 12:00-1:00 PM
Accomodation Update :crossed_fingers:t2: 1:00-1:30 PM
:sun: Afternoon Routine
Lunch :bento_box: 1:30-2:00 PM
:cityscape_at_dusk: Evening Routine
Buying some clothes & shoes, camera, mic, utensils, etc :shopping_bags: 2:00-6:00
Eating something healthy + Supplements + YouTube Ideas :cooking: 6:00-8:00 PM
:night_with_stars: Night Routine
GYM/Football :soccer_ball: 8:30-9:30 PM
Dinner :curry_rice: 10:00-10:30 PM
In bed :red_paper_lantern: - by 10:30 PM
Turmeric Milk🥛 10:30-11:00 PM
Sleep :sleeping_face: 11:00 PM - 4:00 AM

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Don’t know if this a goodbye.

I am leaving formally. Formally cuz informally things don’t work out. I might come back if I feel like it though. Thanks @The_Rising_One for the to-do app recommendation. It’s good, I will use it for now.

Those who are close to me already have my contact or are connected on “YPT”. So there is no point missing many.

And yeah, deleting this app and forum history + saved login passwords.

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Bro, sometimes you say you’ll stay for at least 2 years, and then the next day, you’re gone :sweat_smile:. Anyway, I genuinely hope you overcome your addiction soon. To be honest, I feel like this forum hasn’t really helped you much in that specific battle. But aside from that, you’ve improved a lot in other areas—and that’s all thanks to your own hard work.

You’re awesome, bro :fire:. You have real potential, and more importantly, you actually use it—and that’s the best part about you. You’ve got a bright future ahead, just don’t let this addiction hold you back.

It might be a good idea to check in once in a while and let us know how things are going—but of course, that’s totally up to you. Since you’ve decided to leave, all I can do now is wish you the best :four_leaf_clover:.

I truly believe you’ll do great in life. If anyone can rise above this, it’s you :fire:

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