[20M]NoName's Diary - Escape Plan

Hi,
I’m on my day 2. Two years ago I joined gym and I was 49 kg. My height is 5’9. I was pretty skinny. But then I joined gym just for fun and that was the best decision I ever made, consciously. And then after a year I was 63kg. But later i got trapped in PMO and again started losing weight. Since muscle making needs testosterone and I was doing Ma***bation daily (I don’t watch Pn because of i have watched many ted talk on why porn is harmful and how girls are smuggled etc and developed my own philosophy for not watching porn) and due to murbating I stopped gaining any more muscles and mass and instead I started losing my weight. Now It’s time to be one punch man and give a punch to PMO .

My motive is -

  1. To gain weight/muscles and become 70kg with 10-14% fat percentage.

  2. To be PMO free and gain control over my urges and sex life.

  3. Sit continuously for 40 minutes Meditation by the end of the year.

  4. Using phone for at most 2 hours a day. Except under spacial conditions.

I need your support guys.ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ(◕ᴥ◕)
Let’s kill this addition and rewire my brain

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Day 2 Over.

Mild Urges after Using Instagram so placed instagram away in some folder to decreasy muscle memory.

This community is so awesome.(。:heart::heart:。)

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Day 3 Over. Day 4 started

It was a very tough day. Using phone is he only and primary cause of my urges. Looks like I have to so something about it.

I got some mild urges and strong urges. But managed to come here and read post and push the urges of.

Let’s see what future awaits.

Day 4 of No Fap ( Cont.)
:white_check_mark: Check In.

I’m experiencing strong urges since morning. But a very less will to masturbate. But not letting my guard down. Gonna cross 100 days.

But the main thing is I’m experiencing a strange behaviour whenever I’m chatting with my female friends. I feel strangely attracted not sexually but emotionally. I guess It’s some withdrawal symptom but it’s just 3 days. Nevermind. I’m focusing on other works. That’s it for now

Day 5 of No Fap (cont)

Take on Objectifying Women -

One the main reason why people particularly me Masturbate is because they get easily AROUSED when they see pictures of Pretty Girls or Women on Social Media.

This is because We have trained our mind to see how we want to see them i.e Sexually. The have forgotten how to praise Beauty. How our mind immaculately react to what we find beautiful instead we Objectify them and Think of them as Sex objects at very first Glance.

SOLUTION - MIND TRAINING - Whenever you see a girl on Instagram on Anywhere. And you think of them Sexually just then Stop your mind from thinking that and think about the immaculate , innocence in beauty. How it attracts you? And think of that You would not Objectify them. DO THIS EVERYTIME whenever you see a girl picture. And then your mind will automatically be trained and u no longer have to think about this.

This is what I did today. It was hard. But I tried to do adot this philosophy. My day was good today. Learning and observing good things. Thanks

@noname0000 I’d probably recommend first rewiring your brain which takes around 90 days, once the brain nerves that links the images of women into lust wither then you can focus on mind training.

Otherwise you’ll fall prey and end up PMO even though your intentions were pure.

Think of PMO (and your brain cells that are attached to it) as a lion. The longer you abstain the hungrier it becomes, eventually it’ll start starving so simply going near it will mean death. But wait long enough and it’ll die of starvation. Then you can work on fixing your mindset.

You could try reading or listening to Itachi quotes when you feel urges, his philosophy is so deep and awakening especially with the genjutsu of porn

Peace :v:

Hi guyz. I successfully for the First time completed 5days.

I want to tell you that now I’m going in
SAGE MODE
for 10 Days . ( i.e. 20 April 2021)

What is Sage Mode -
:muscle::muscle:Easy Mode - No Masturbating and Orgasm.

:white_check_mark::white_check_mark:Medium Mode - No PMO

:point_right::point_right:Hard Mode - No PMO + Delete Tinder(if installed)+ Daily Check In (except under emergencies)

:frog::frog:SAGE MODE = Hard mode
+ No Movies and Series or Anime. +
Can’t Use Explore button on Instagram

:person_fencing::person_fencing:SUSANO + SAGE MODE = Sage Mode + Only 1 hour if Social Media (except LinkedIn - 30 minutes extra for LinkedIn)

:full_moon_with_face::full_moon_with_face:INFINITE TSUKUYOMI = No Social Media , No PMO, No Movies, Series,Anime. Read atleast 5 Pages of Articles or Books that will Help you gain knowledge.

:person_in_lotus_position::person_in_lotus_position:The BRAHMAN MODE - Infinite Tsukuyomi Mode + No Sex + No foreplay + 1hour of Mobile in a day.

:headphones::headphones:Soul Binding Sealing Jutsu - a.k.a Dopamine Detox. You can’t use anything that gives to pleasure. Phone, tv, junk food, comics, porn nothing. Except Study and Workout. (Do overdo it for more than 2 days in the beginning )

Note - This App is not included in Social Media.

LinkedIn is partially a social media app. So if you wamt to use it just give ut at most 30% extra time than other apps.

And this is only my criteria of Modes. Others’ criteria may Vary. (It’s not perfect so I’ll edit it overtime)

I went to sleep at 10:30 PM half an hour ago. But I haven’t done fapoing from 5 days. Due to lack of dopamine my HEART feels LONELY. And this loneliness is telling me ti RELAPSE and you’ll be Happy. But I know Pleasure is not equal to Happiness. I will wait patiently till I find someone to fill the void in me and most importantly I’ll be that someone in a way. But I will NOT FAP. Because it is just a DELUSION. LONELINESS WILL GO. BUT THE REGRET OF FAPPING AND DESTROYING my own life won’t. I’ll cry. I’ll Scream. but i won’t fap.

DEATH OR FAP. DEATH WE CHOOSE.
:pray::pray::pray:

hi, I just relapsed. and this is the most terrible and worst feeling in the world. I didn’t want to do it. But just a single YouTube song Video. and then a million Chain of thoughts. and I begin to think if No fap is worth it. Yes it is. I was stupid to Relapse. This time No chances. No YouTube video. No Movies. :pray::pray::pray:Support me. Death or Fap Death We Choose.

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