[ 20 M ] Risinglion123 in the pursuit for bright future

anon87955785 · July 15, 2022, 12:55pm

@The_integrous_one - Bro you were consistent with studies then why so? You can ask me if you need any advice regarding this matter but I’ll need details about why even after studying well this happened. ( My quote option not visible )

I am having a defeatist mindset which I used to cultivate since childhood. In short , considering myself as an utter failure if things are not done perfectly. Even though I am consistent in my studies , During the days of exams I relapse due to stress.

A logical person like you will move on quickly from it and work towards getting maximum marks for exam. For me , I would spend an entire day moaning about the unfavourable situations happened. I don’t want to be perceived as a cry baby , I am trying to be honest as possible.

Samaranjay -
Dude this is unacceptable, don’t ever lie bro.
Go and tell your mom the truth right now, and tell her that you didn’t tell her the truth first time because you were scared of punishment, after you get a good spanking from parents you’ll automatically become serious

I agree with you by all means. But I don’t have the courage to tell to mom. Its not the fact that I am scared of spanking. But I feel really low these days. Its my mom and dad who supports me in every possible manner.

They love me in such a way that I am scared that they would not support me anymore when I say the truth. Their support is my motivation these days.

anon87955785 · July 15, 2022, 12:56pm

Daily habits

Read 30 minutes
Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
Workout
Practice classical music

To do list update

None

Study for maths test
Complete DE 2nd assignment

To do list for today

Study SS notes
Study AC notes

Deadline

15 July - DE assignment 1
15 July - DE assignment 2

No fap update

MILESTONE : 3
Current streak : 4 days
Badge : Settler

Daily journal

14 July

Its almost 8 PM. Practiced classical music associated with god that is supposed to be sung on Thursday ( Lord Krishna and Lakshmi ). Was not able to sing well because my viral fever has not been fully recovered. I saw my mom sympathising with me at a distance because of me having trouble while singing.

When I saw her looking at me sympathetically, I was thinking " Do I even deserve this love ? " All the lies that I am telling to my mom every day is making me think whether I deserve her love or not. But at the same time , the deepest fears that the love I am receiving would be vanished the moment truth hits her. I am loving her love like anything.

Then kept myself occupied with my 2nd DE assignment after having a 15 minutes of Mindfulness and dinner. The assignment completed at 10.20 AM. Its always my mini goal to sleep and wake up early so that it forms a strong foundation or a massive boost to start my day. So I thought of sleeping early by sacrificing my maths test which is supposed to be taken tomorrow.

This assignment has to be uploaded online. While uploading online, one of my papers is missing. Searched for half an hour but there was no hope. Wrote that page again and uploaded it.

It took me about 11.45 PM to complete the DE assignment. So sleeping now will not help to wake up early.

Confession

The defeatist mindset

I would like to make a confession that I am having a defeatist mindset. A defeatist is a person who gives up everything for not being perfect in the things he / she is doing. For me , this is much dangerous than PMO as this is the reason for majority of my failures.

So its 11.45 PM and I was not at all feeling sleepy. As a rational person, one would think of studying for the maths test that is been taken tomorrow. But I didn’t. My plans screwed. I blamed and cursed God like anything for being so unfair to me.

Then I played Pokemon till 1 AM in order to cope up with my pent up emotions. Before sleeping, I apologized to God for being harsh. Then I dozed off to sleep

The end of confession

15 July

Woke up at 7.10 AM. I am supposed to get my bus at 7.30 PM. Brushed teeth, bathed , had breakfast, Arranged the books , ran 500 metres ( approx ) to catch the bus. Reached bus stop within 20 minutes exact. Continued with the book " The Secret " while travelling inside bus.

I was sleepy during my entire day. I tried hard to grasp the concepts that has been thought by the professors. During Lunch time, I went to professor’s cabin in order to develop clarity in the things that I did not understood during class. Studied maths during free time because of which my performance in the test was better than expected

After lunch break, I was busy doing my AC experiments in AC lab. The AC lab teacher ( Also my assistant class teacher ) told that people who has got low marks for the first internal examination has to attend the open house compulsorily. The lie of telling the wrong number of my parent in front of my class teacher started to haunt me. This haunting started to give me brain fog but managed to complete all the experiments anyway.

Confession

I have a crush on a girl but I used to get annoyed when she talks to other guys more enthusiastically than when she talks to me. So I am thinking of avoiding her as much as possible like P. Since like P , the more we think about it, the more willpower would be consumed which in fact can be used for productive activities.

What I learnt

Honestly I still don’t know how to overcome the defeatist mindset. It’s all matter of choices. I will try my level best not to fall into that trap again
My second confession even though a minute one , still bothers me sometimes. For this I believe some discipline is necessary so that I can aim for a higher purpose which is more rewarding than this thought.

These are my thoughts for today. There is hope.

Always thank God for everything

Sholtro_Tenjerrot · July 15, 2022, 3:39pm

Dude at first i was confused that why are you asking the same questions .

Sholtro_Tenjerrot · July 15, 2022, 3:51pm

This is called self handicapping bhai. You can do whatever you want remember you are Rising lion

Bhai they are your parents, they not only love you when you are achieving something or doing great in your life but they also love you when you are facing such low/bad time, tell them, at first they might become sad, but they will definitely help you . No matter what happens they will always love you.

BlackMagic123 · July 15, 2022, 4:00pm

Sometimes things don’t according to you wish, but I think honesty really does matter those times. You’ve got a strong support system then be honest to them, tell them everything if you think they should know. As Samaranjay said confess to them and be serious.
After that you will definitely feel relieved.

The_integrous_one · July 15, 2022, 5:07pm

See you know your problem already next time try noticing the thoughts and emotion, what you are feeling when you are facing the same situation, and rather than giving in to those thoughts etc. Just know they are mere thoughts and move on to the thing that’s actually right and necessary.

They support you and you lie to them? Things should be reciprocated equally, I am not saying I am fully honest myself but bro you are stressing yourself out unnecessarily by spilling a big lie for which you have to come up with a lot of lies in turn creating more pressure, you can live like this for a long time or you can face up to the situation once and take lesson for the upcoming time, it’s your choice, I am just putting my perspective forward, no hard feelings .

anon87955785 · July 16, 2022, 2:59am

@Sholtro_Tenjerrot Bhai they are your parents, they not only love you when you are achieving something or doing great in your life but they also love you when you are facing such low/bad time, tell them, at first they might become sad, but they will definitely help you

@BlackMagic123 You’ve got a strong support system then be honest to them, tell them everything if you think they should know. As Samaranjay said confess to them and be serious.
After that you will definitely feel relieved.

@The_integrous_one Things should be reciprocated equally, I am not saying I am fully honest myself but bro you are stressing yourself out unnecessarily by spilling a big lie for which you have to come up with a lot of lies in turn creating more pressure, you can live like this for a long time or you can face up to the situation once and take lesson for the upcoming time, it’s your choice, I am just putting my perspective forward, no hard feelings

I respect all your opinions, and you all are absolutely right by all means. The health of my mom is terrible these days. I think it would be better for me to get hurt ( I believe time heals ) than hurting my mom.

I promise I will work my ass off to get good marks for 2nd internal examination. If I didn’t get good marks, I promise I will tell my marks to my parents.

Samaranjay - See you know your problem already next time try noticing the thoughts and emotion, what you are feeling when you are facing the same situation, and rather than giving in to those thoughts etc.

I will never allow that mindset to control me from now on.

PS : My quote option is not visible. That’s why I am replying like this

anon87955785 · July 16, 2022, 3:05am

Daily habits

Read 30 minutes
Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
Workout
Practice classical music

To do list update

Study SS notes
Study AC notes

To do list for today

Complete Pending notes
Study SS Textbook ( Allen . V Oppenheim )
Study CAM Textbook ( Mazidi )
Study Maths Textbook ( G.L Devore )
Study Machine learning Textbook

Deadline

17 July - Inform Team members to bring the first page of the project
18 July - AC Test

No fap update

MILESTONE : 4
Current streak : 5 days
Badge : Peasant

Daily journal

15 July ( 6: 45 PM )

My back pains like hell. But managed to workout. Happy regarding the fact that I was able to work out at last. I have not been working out for almost a week. Cried while working out because the truth feels unbearable.

After working out, Practiced classical music. I was able to sing better compared to yesterday. Did Meditation for 15 minutes. But honestly, I was not able to focus well. Every phone call that my parents receive shivers me with fear. There is open house being conducted tomorrow. I have not told my parents about it.

After Meditation and dinner. Studied daily portions. My temperature increased while studying. My mom told its because I worked out today. But despite having difficulties , I was willing to study.

The left hand of my mom , is covered with plaster, because the doctor says the fluid that connects the joints of muscles is not present. She was given some medicine to regain the fluid and plaster to keep the joints in tact.

Yesterday accidentally my mom hit her left hand in the bed and was crying with pain. Seeing her crying, I also lost control and started crying. But came to senses before she noticed me.

Yesterday I asked mom whether she is happy by all means. She told she is not happy with her health but she told there is hope . She also told she is happy mentally. My another reason for not telling the truth is that she is happy mentally these days. I don’t want her to be sad. If she is hurt mentally, I am concerned it would negatively influence her health. The health of my mom is deteriorating. Still she manages to do her daily chores without excuse.

She went to sleep. While studying the remaining portions, I was telling to myself " As long as I am alive, I will make her proud ". Completed daily portions by 10.20 PM.

I have submit DE assignment physically on Monday. The good news is that I have completed it , But when I was arranging the assignment in a chronological order, I realized one of the pages is missing again. Found it after 10 minutes of searching. Also found the DE paper that was missing yesterday. Instead of cursing God like always, I remained silent even though I was hurt.

Slept peacefully at 10.40 PM. My temperature also reduced after having medicines. Unlike previous days , No regrets and confessions.

16 July

Woke up at 5 AM. Did my workout for glutes, lower and middle abs. Even though my mom suggested me not to work out these days , My gut says I have to do it. Felt better after working out.

Had a talk with my mom for an hour. And planned for today.

Self Reflection

1.Generally Saturday and Sunday are those days I am most vulnerable to relapse. But I won’t relapse today.

Saturday and Sunday are the days I regret the most for not studying. That won’t happen today.

End of Self Reflection

That’s all my thoughts regarding today.

Always thank God for everything

anon87955785 · July 17, 2022, 8:37am

Daily habits

Read 30 minutes
Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
Workout
Practice classical music

To do list update

Complete Pending notes
Study SS Textbook ( Allen . V Oppenheim )
Study CAM Textbook ( Mazidi )
Study Maths Textbook ( G.L Devore ) Study Machine learning Textbook

To do list for today

Complete pending notes
Study pending notes
Study AC material
Study Machine learning textbook

Deadline

17 July - Inform Team members to bring the first page of the project
18 July - AC Test

No fap update

MILESTONE : 1
Current streak : 0 days
Badge : Prisoner

Bucket list

Study Entharo Mahanubhavulu ( Popular classical music )

Daily journal

16 July ( 9: 00 PM )

After a workout and pouring my feelings here I felt a sense of calmness in my body. The whole environment seem looks so pleasant and still. After having a bath helped mom to hang the clothes. I admit I do experience some mini heart attacks whenever my mom receives a phone call or when my mom or dad post something in family WhatsApp group. But things become a lot better compared to yesterday. My emotions are in control to some extent.

The Open house is from 1.30 to 4.30 PM. My parents are not going there coz they are not aware of it. Since I am the leader of my class, it annoys me whenever I get a WhatsApp text from someone associated with the open house.

About 9.30 PM , I started studying. First, I thought of completing my pending notes. Since Completing the notes is a boring stuff , I thought of hearing music from Spotify. I decided to hear " Entharo Mahanubhavulu " which is one of my favourite classical music since childhood. So I was completing the notes while hearing it.

A new decision

I thought of adding a new concept called bucket list in my journal. Like SSR does. It contains all the things I want to do in life. Unlike To do list , its not mandatory but I would like to do it whenever I get a free time.

This is just to make sure that I aware of the things I wanted to do outside professional life so that I would at least try to do it in order to prevent any sort of regrets in the future

A relapse

I managed about 5 percent of my pending notes and thought of chilling a bit for unknown reason. I started to scroll You Tube and unfortunately saw Elizabeth Olsen in a triggering situation.

Then an intentional scrolling started and relapsed at 2 PM ( approx )

Journal ( Contd )

One of the worst aspects of relapse is not the relapse itself, its the next few hours after relapse. I was unproductive for the next few hours. Mindlessly Playing pokemon , continuing the fap marathon, mindlessly watching watching random You Tube videos etc. It persisted till 7.30 PM. This is one of the mindset I absolutely hate. This is the reason I fail in exams.

This kind of situation happened during exam days and it screwed the hell out of me.

I don’t know how to tackle this mindset, either I should find a way or be super serious about No fap , Not because of the fear of relapse but the fear of post relapse.

My little success

For me after relapse, it would take days to come back on track in terms of discipline and academics. But this time , I became self aware regarding the fact that even though I relapsed, I am still good in terms of discipline. I’ve been reading books daily, I started doing workout, meditated etc. I don’t want my discipline to break again because of relapse.

Generally I don’t practice classical music during the day of relapse. But I forced to practice classical music, forced myself to read book and forced myself to sleep early ( 11.00 PM exact , Generally I sleep at 2 on the day of relapse ) . And I am proud of it till now.

What I learnt after relapse

My mindless scrolling in You Tube was the main reason for my relapse. So I disabled You Tube. But I can enable You Tube whenever I want. I am not believing in blocking anymore as @The_integrous_one bhai once said " No matter how many blocks you give to yourself, at the end of the day its all about your choices " and I believe its true. No blocks has ever helped me in No fap even Digital detox failed. I am that smart ass when it comes to overcoming blocks.

So I am not at all focusing on blocking YouTube. I can enable You Tube in Settings options. Why I am disabling You Tube is in order to keep myself aware of my previous relapse.

I can still access You Tube via Chrome. But I promise myself I wont access YouTube by typing the official website. I would access it by videos option in Chrome. This is to make sure that I use You Tube for specific purpose ( even entertainment ) but not for mindless scrolling.

With all these decisions in mind. I dozed off to sleep at 11 PM. After 30 minutes of reading and 15 minutes of meditation.

17 July

Woke up at 5am , Started working out at 5.30 AM but dozed off to sleep at 6. Woke up 8.30 AM. I have to complete my workout before 9 AM because my dad ordered Masala Dosa and it would be coming here soon.

Completed Workout, Ate Masala Dosa , Bathed and Read " The Secret " for 30 minutes. I believe I could complete that book within 2 more days. Its 10.45 AM. Maybe coz of post relapse or post viral fever, I am feeling sleepy again. Slept and woke up again at 12.15 PM.

Regarding viral fever, its better now. Only a few sneezes and coughs remaining. Deleted Pokemon games so that I have no regrets associated with it.

Meditated for 15 minutes and moving on with my life.

A small lie

My parents know the fact that I was a PMO addict and continuing with my No fap journey even though they don’t know about this app. While eating breakfast I told like this ( Honestly Idk why I asked it. " The power of thought is really powerful isn’t it ? ". My dad asked me what made me think so.

I lied to my dad that I am 120 days of No fap now and because of that with the powers of thought I can channel the energy from Mooladhara to Forehead. And to my surprise my dad believed it.

This small lie even though its not harmful still add fertiliser to the habit of lying. I admit I lie sometimes to get appreciation, to cover truth etc. From now on I should be really mindful of what I am telling.

These are my thoughts for today.

Always thank God for everything

The_integrous_one · July 18, 2022, 10:07am

Dude how many

Sholtro_Tenjerrot · July 18, 2022, 10:16am

one day he will create his 100th diary.

Btw this app’s ads suxx, last day i saw bikini and boxers ads .

anon87955785 · July 18, 2022, 1:19pm

Yesterday I was really demotivated after a relapse. Thought of starting a new diary but then I thought why ???

Its me who has to change not the diary . So yeah discarded the plan

anon87955785 · July 18, 2022, 1:23pm

Daily habits

Read 30 minutes
Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
Workout
Practice classical music

To do list update

Complete Pending notes Study Pending notes
Study AC Textbook
Study Machine learning Textbook

To do list for today

Complete DE assignment
Complete Maths daily portions
Complete COI daily portions
Complete AC daily portions
Complete SS daily portions
Study CAM daily portions
Study DE daily portions
Study Machine learning half module ( Notes )

Deadline

18 July - AC Test

No fap update

MILESTONE : 0
Current streak : 0 days
Badge : Prisoner

Bucket list

Study Entharo Mahanu bhavulu

Lessons learnt during the journey

Update RC app according to time table
Study downstairs
Don’t use mobile phone after 11.00 PM even if not feeling sleepy

Daily journal

17 July ( 2: 30 PM )

Experienced huge trigger to perform an autosexual behaviour , A habit of triggering yourself up by looking at your own body. This is also one of my worst habits along with PMO. Even though it’s less dangerous than PMO , it’s one of my habits that lowers my self esteem.

I was initially controlled by that trigger for about 5 minutes , but before I fall into it, I removed my shirt. This is one of the defence mechanism that I use against these kinds of thoughts.

I believe the thought of being a bi is one of the worst side effects that a man can experience because of excess of PMO. The removal of my shirt is always a constant reminder that I am a guy , because it would feed in my subconscious that these are the things that only a guy can do.

After this incident, I drank water and decided to study. From 2.30 to 4.30 studied with small mini breaks , Completed three - fourth of my pending notes and dozed off to sleep again. My sleep schedule really messes me up ( Foreshadow)

Woke up at 5.30 PM , ate Chana Batura that my dad ordered and continued to study for 30 minutes.

Confession

After that I posted a made up joke in Sholt diary. Honestly that’s not true. So I deleted that message so that I won’t promote any sort of lie I am saying

Even though this lie is harmless, I want to be truthful as possible these days because lying has nearly destroyed my life. So I don’t want to promote it in any possible manner.

End of confession

Completed the pending notes after 30 minutes of studying. Prayed to God, Practised Classical music, had dinner and continued with my studies.

From 8.00 PM to 10.30 , Studying for AC Test for tomorrow with short breaks in between.

A New decision

Since I am studying upstairs, I am distracted easily by the social media. Taking short breaks more frequently than needed has taking me a lot of time to even complete small tasks. So I am taking a decision of studying downstairs so that I am frequently supervised by my parents.
Thought of adding a new stuff called " Things I learnt during my journey ". Even though its not mandatory to follow this every single day , I would mention it every day and would add some more points if I learn from mistakes. This is to make myself aware of the lessons I learnt during the journey and at the same time not to forget all those lessons.

End of new decision

Brushed teeth , did all the night routines and dozed off to sleep at 11 PM.

A relapse

I was not at all feeling sleepy as I was sleeping mindlessly during the earlier part of the day. Also a lot of urges kicked in. Tried to resist it with my level best but failed with desperate willpower.

After relapse, I was mindlessly scrolling through You Tube till 3 AM. After that slept at 3.15 AM with no energy left.

END OF RELAPSE SESSION

18 July

Woke up at 7.05 AM when my bus supposed to come at 7.30 AM. This is normal whenever I sleep late due to relapse. While Bathing, while running to catch the bus, I was constantly crying because I really feel guilty for my relapse. I could have overcomed that with ease.

I took me some moments to gather the courage again to fight harder. My main source of motivation that persist till now is that even though I relapsed , My daily habits is still in tact.

Today I am having a lot of academic stuffs to be done. So thought of planning to complete the daily portions during the lunch break. But that didn’t happen. Because I had some doubts to be cleared associated with the topics taught today.

After lunch break, I was bit late to enter the class , So I lost attendance and was made to stand outside class for a few moments. Not a big deal. I am used to it.

I was really lazy to complete daily topics during short breaks, I wont blame myself because I was also feeling sleepy coz of lack of sleep.

Had a test during the last period but I was able to perform better than expected.

Now travelling from my college to home via bus. Have a lot of academics stuffs to do. But I am optimistic that I can do it.

Always thank God for everything

anon87955785 · July 23, 2022, 5:23pm

Daily habits

Read 30 minutes
Pranayama 5 minutes
Meditation 10 minutes
Skipping 500 times
Suryanamaskar 4 times
Daily Workout
Practice classical music
Daily affirmations

To do list update

None

To do list for today

Complete AC record experiment 1
Complete AC record experiment 2
Complete AC record experiment 3
Complete AC record experiment 4
Study all formulas of SS
Study for assignment test
6.1 Study the notes
6.2 Study pdf material
6.3 Study any one textbook

Deadline

None

No fap update

MILESTONE : 0
Current streak : 0 days
Badge : Prisoner

My Day in 5 Key Points

Relapsed at 2.30 AM ( approx ). Felt depressed and lost hope. Tired and dozed off to sleep
Had minor exam today. Didn’t study at all yesterday. Just listened all the concepts from studious people 1 hours before exam. I may pass or fail this exam but better than expected.
Watched MS Dhoni Untold Story movie. 20 more minutes left to watch. Will watch tomorrow. Have to sleep early
Had my 2nd day of my Counselling session with a teacher. Feels great and gained hope from desperate situations.
Looked for a nearby coaching centre. Didn’t find one. Ought to develop a timetable for weekends.

Always thank God for everything

anon87955785 · July 24, 2022, 5:24pm

Daily habits

Reading novels 30 minutes
Pranayama 5 minutes
Meditation 10 minutes
Skipping 500 times
Suryanamaskar 4 times
Daily workout
Practice classical music
Daily affirmations

( Will discard daily workout, skipping and Suryanamaskar and replace with walking 10000 steps , newspaper reading and hair routine tomorrow onwards )

To do list update ( stand for partial completion)

Complete AC record experiment 1
Complete AC record experiment 2
Complete AC record experiment 3
Complete AC record experiment 4
Study all formulas of SS Study for assignment test
Study the notes
Study pdf material
Study any one textbook

To do list for tomorrow

Complete AC record experiment 2
Complete AC record experiment 3
Complete AC record experiment 4
Complete AC daily portions
Complete COI daily portions
Complete Maths daily portions
Complete SS daily portions
Complete CAM daily portions
Complete DE daily portions

Deadline

None

No fap update

MILESTONE : 0
Current streak : 0 days
Badge : Prisoner

Learnings during journey ( indicates not applicable to this day )

1.Social Media and gaming times ( Allowed to be upstairs )

Weekdays ( Puts tick if studied extra )
6.00 - 6.30 PM
8.30 to 9 .00 PM

Weekends ( Puts tick if studied extra )
9.30 - 10.30 AM
1 - 2 PM
6.00 - 6.30 PM
9.30 - 10.30 PM

Go to tuition class when mom have working day
Use Spotify if not asleep ( 60 minutes sleep mode )

My Day in 5 Key Points

Woke up at 6 AM. Done 500 Skipping and 2 sets of Suryanamaskar and dozed off to sleep . Woke up at 9 AM then
Today was my birthday. Had my birthday cake and sadya ( Kerala traditional food made during special occasions) during afternoon
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Studied ( Completing AC record )till 11 AM , but started binging P at 11 AM and relapsed at 4 PM. No productive activities after that.
Took a decision of following " Things I learnt during journey " and will follow like daily habits
Discarding workout , skipping and Suryanamaskar and replacing with daily 10000 steps walking as well as newspaper reading

Always thank God for everything

anon87955785 · July 25, 2022, 5:30pm

Daily habits

Reading novels 30 minutes
Pranayama 5 minutes
Meditation 10 minutes
Walk 10000 steps
Daily newspaper reading
Hair routine
Practice classical music
Daily affirmations

To do list update ( stand for partial completion)

Complete AC record experiment 2
Complete AC record experiment 3
Complete AC record experiment 4
Complete AC daily portions
Complete COI daily portions
Complete Maths daily portions
Complete SS daily portions
Complete CAM daily portions
Complete DE daily portions

To do list for tomorrow

Clear CAM doubts
1.1 Explanation for stack pointer
1.2 Crystal oscillator program
Clear Maths doubts
Complete AC experiment 2
Complete AC experiment 3
Complete AC experiment 4
6.Complete CAM experiment 11
Complete CAM experiment 12
Complete Maths daily portions
Complete CAM daily portions
Complete SS daily portions
Complete Machine learning daily portions
Complete COI daily portions
Complete AC daily portions

Deadline

None

No fap update

MILESTONE : 1
Current streak : 1 days
Badge : Prisoner

Learnings during journey ( indicates not applicable to this day )

1.Social Media and gaming times ( Allowed to be upstairs )

Weekdays ( Puts tick if studied extra )
6.00 - 6.30 PM
8.30 to 9 .00 PM

Weekends ( Puts tick if studied extra )
9.30 - 10.30 AM
1 - 2 PM
6.00 - 6.30 PM
9.30 - 10.30 PM

Go to tuition class when mom have working day

Use Spotify if not asleep ( 60 minutes sleep mode )

My Day in 5 Key Points

Woke up at 5:30 AM. Started walking for 1 hr , combined with 10 mins of walking 2 times ( To catch the bus and from bus stop to home ) , and with some walking in college , reached near to 11000 steps.

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Had a remedial class for CAM because of my terrible mark. Feels sad but have to move on anyway.
Except for my 2 friends, No one knew that yesterday was my birthday. But today it was leaked. Hopefully gpl didn’t happen . But they expect me for a birthday party or some sort of eatables. Hopefully, another guy in our class is also having his birthday tomorrow. So will share the fund associated with birthday parties.
Was a productive day. Was able to complete majority of tasks with the blessings of God. Hopefully expecting maximum productivity during upcoming days.
Finished reading book " The Secret " and currently reading " My Experiments with truth " by Mahatma Gandhi.

Always thank God for everything

anon87955785 · July 26, 2022, 5:32pm

Daily habits

Reading novels 30 minutes
Pranayama 5 minutes
Meditation 10 minutes
Walk 10000 steps
Daily newspaper reading
Hair routine
Practice classical music
Daily affirmations

To do list update ( stand for partial completion)

Clear CAM doubts
Explanation for stack pointer
Crystal oscillator program
Clear Maths doubts
Complete AC experiment 2
Complete AC experiment 3
Complete AC experiment 4
Complete CAM experiment 11
Complete CAM experiment 12
Complete Maths daily portions
Complete CAM daily portions
Complete SS daily portions
Complete Machine learning daily portions
Complete COI daily portions
Complete AC daily portions

To do list for tomorrow

Complete AC experiment 3
Complete AC experiment 4
Complete CAM experiment 11
Complete CAM experiment 12
Complete CAM daily portions
Complete AC daily portions
Complete SS daily portions
Complete Maths daily portions

Deadline

None

No fap update

MILESTONE : 2
Current streak : 2 days
Badge : Migrant

Learnings during journey ( indicates not applicable to this day )

1.Social Media and gaming times ( Allowed to be upstairs )

Weekdays ( Puts tick if studied extra )
6.00 - 6.30 PM
8.30 to 9 .00 PM

Weekends ( Puts tick if studied extra )
9.30 - 10.30 AM
1 - 2 PM
6.00 - 6.30 PM
9.30 - 10.30 PM

Go to tuition class when mom have working day

Use Spotify if not asleep ( 60 minutes sleep mode )

My Day in 5 Key Points

Woke up at 5.00 AM. Walked 10000 steps , read news using in shorts app. My body is not used to waking up early. So I was sleepy majority of the time. But with the blessing of God, that didn’t stop me from procrastinating. Had some power naps and it helped to some extent.
Me and other guy who is having birthday today decided to give our birthday party on behalf of his birthday as well as mine. Cut the cake and shared to some of my friends. But I was not able to be present there for long as the college bus leaves by 4.30. Since the fund associated with birthday party was done by him. I will give half of the fund to him tomorrow.

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Have viva tomorrow. I thought I will get enough time to study after studying daily portions. But didn’t. Even though I am blessed being productive today, I must also learn to prioritise my tasks.
Self reflection : I used to get annoyed and feels screwed up every Wednesdays during CAM lab hour because I am not able to understand at all. This time I should make sure my emotions should not overpower my intelligence even though I may feel as an odd one out from my team
Self reflection : About 2 weeks ago, I was in my peak of discipline but experienced illness because of lack of sleep. I should compensate my sleep during breaks and should make sure I am healthy physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually to be consistent when it comes to productivity and discipline.

Always thank God for everything

Strong_one · July 26, 2022, 5:44pm

So your name Gautam… nice… Secret revealed.

anon87955785 · July 26, 2022, 11:52pm

I thought, many people including you , Samaranjay and resilient one knew it earlier . If not , still ok for me.

Strong_one · July 27, 2022, 1:36am

Yeah I think I already knew . I have little memory of it.