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Ah , there he is !!
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Oh damn 
Welcome back.
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Then what did you expect from me. Living my entire life with Bekhayali song or something 
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God saved me for the past 3 days
As you know I was really depressed and suicidal for the past few days. On the day I deleted my previous account , I really thought of it.
I was alone in my home. I saw 2 packet of Dolo 650 mg tablet ( 24 nos ). I started eating one by one out of desperation. When I was about to eat the 4th tablet, I got fainted. It was in 10 AM.
Then I woke up at 3 PM due to unbearable stomach pain. But I canāt move because of weakness. Luckily I saw a Glucose D packet near me ( My mom have erratic sugar problems. So she generally keeps Glucose D packet near the window ).
After 1 more hour, I got my energy back and was saved.
I know no one will believe me and its okay. But anyway I am reborn now with the Blessings from God.
Time to start fresh.
I have set my Digital Detox from 10 PM to 5 AM with an intention to sleep early. Will update tomorrow. Good night 
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Welcome back. Itās never too late to make things right.
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Damn, you had a near death experience. I am sure you would have taken some good lessons from it.
Thank God you are fine.
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You are Reborn !! and you know what this reborn is not just for Living but for Conquering your every problems and Inspire others.
All the Best 
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Goku was suffering, his opponent was too strong even for his Kaioken times 20, he was at near death but did he give up?
Atmosphere changed and lightning appeared suddenly in the sky, before he knew it, heās eyes turned green and heās body began to change. And when life asked him about his decision he responded:
āI am the faith of the universe, I am the light that appears in the dark, I am the protector of the innocent and a nightmare to you!ā
And this happened!!!
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Too much procrastination has created a lot of threat in my life. I need to figure things out and more importantly make some concrete actions that support my good decisions.
Since I am now having a basic Badge unlike earlier, I can only have 15 - 20 replies per day. So I should be mindful about how much I reply. So from tomorrow onwards, I will post all the productive activities done today.
I should also have to update on a hourly basis like @yashnofap01 is doing so that I can come back on track asap when things screw me up.
But the problem is as mentioned earlier, I have a basic Badge now. So I am restricted to not more than 15 - 20 replies per day. So I am planning to edit a single post after hourly intervals. So thatās my thoughts for today.
Action is what matters the most than the goal itself. I know people may disagree but I want to keep myself believe this ideology for the time being. What if it works ? Lets see. Chapter 2 Verse 47 of Bhagavat Geeta also supports this
Anyway I have bright future ahead because I believe I have.
Thank you God.
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Productive Activities Done
Woke up on time ( 7 PM )
Cold Shower
Hair routine
Set up my bed with new bedsheet
Asked the driving teacher regarding the location for the next class
Completed 1st video lecture of Analog Circuits
Reminder for tomorrow
Wake up before 7 AM
Bring Driving Test Pass certificate to Driving School
Daily Journal
8.30 AM
At 7 PM , I got a missed call from my driving teacher to come to the destination to start driving. I was unexpecting such kind of call at that time. Generally class starts by 8 PM. Since I was really drowsy, I took me a lot of time to reach there. To be honest 30 minutes late . And I expected a yelling from her and yeah it happened 
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While driving, the only problem I experience is I still have less idea how to apply clutch and brake at the same time during the transition from Gear 1 to Gear 2. Another reason to be yelled at. In fact the entire 1 hours was a yelling class . I am fine , I am used to it.
8.40 AM
I am planning to have breakfast after bathing. Due to my screwed up lifestyle, I havenāt bathed for 3 days and I regret it. I started to experience small cold because of this. But before that I have to change my bedsheet.
One thing my driving teacher told me is that I lack some presence of mind. I am always been pampered by my mom so I rarely get a chance to be independent. I am 20 years old so from now onwards I should take my decisions for myself.
Will update after having breakfast
9.40 AM
Completed having breakfast. Bathing after 3 days is a different level. You feel as if steam is coming out of you as if you poured some water over a blazing fire .
Had appam and paneer for breakfast while listening to Naruto Shippuden opening music ( Heroes come back ). Also have paid the bill for newspaper.
Today morning the driving teacher have asked me to meet her tomorrow at Kakanad ground for the H practice. But I have less idea where the location is. I am bit reluctant to ask her because she is kind of short tempered woman. But I have to ask her anyway to prevent future yelling.
This is kind of moving out of comfort zone. Will update after I ask her.
10 AM
At last gathered some courage to call her. She told the H ground is opposite to the Toshiba company and near post office. Still I have no idea where on earth that place is . I have voice messaged my mom and dad whether they have some idea about that place.
My Gut feeling says the best thing I can do right now is to study Machine Learning with the help of a YouTube channel. So thatās it. Time for execution.
10.05 AM
Change in Plan. For the time being, I am planning to learn Analog Circuits with the help of YT Channel. YT Channel associated with Machine Learning was recommended by a girl in her class.
But I was bit skeptical whether it would cover all the topics for the exam. I asked her regarding that. My fatherās advice is Gold. Intuition helps. She said it would not cover any topics for the exam at all.
What if I started studying this 
? I would have wasted many hours for that. She told she will be sending the PDF of all the notes of Machine Learning from another student if she gets it.
Anyway Learning Analog Circuits with the help of YT. Also planning to take some notes associated with it and study.
I will update here after I complete studying 1 video lecture.
11.30 AM
Completed 1 video of Analog Circuits. 52 remaining. Tbh , its boring as hell. I gonna reward myself with a glass of Horlicks now. After that , will start 2nd video
11.40 PM
Had horlicks. Tastes sweet. It would have been more sweet if there was sugar in the house . Now planning to study. I hate it. Left with no choice.
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Lessons learnt throughout the journey
- The most important thing you can do is to give your best shot in the things you take at even in the things you hate. Its always easy to say follow your passion or follow your dreams. But many people are not blessed enough to recognise their passion. Passion is not always found, It can also be created. Whether you are passionate or not , The journey associated with it is always a tough path and thatās what makes you a stronger human being .
(My Momās quote when I asked about her opinion about success )
- A human being is an animal. Sounds no brainer right ? But thats also an answer to your sensual pleasures like PMO. Human beings like many animals has 2 things in common. Impulsiveness and Intuition. Intuition was highly developed during earlier times because it gives us a warning of a future threat incoming. These days there is no tigers or lions to kill us. We no longer needed that. So the intuitive part of the brain is almost deactivated. But there are still threats like PMO which can kill you indirectly
Whenever an urge appears, you will get 2 thoughts consecutively. The first thought is impulsiveness and the second one is Intuition. Believe the second thought not only for this addiction but for life
( My dadās advice about how to overcome Pornographic addiction )
- How you have spent the day doesnāt matter, the moment you realise things are not going as it ideally should be, immediately take a āU turnā. Itās possible even at the last minute of a day!!!
( My personal psychiatrist opinion about how to be more disciplined )
- Its always okay not to have a long term goal. Take some small goals and execute it . Successful small goals will lead you to bigger goals without your knowledge. Donāt be afraid when life moves without your knowledge. At the end of the day, thatās what makes you excited to live every single day because anything thatās anticipated never excites you. Embrace the unknown
( My thought after suicide attempt )
- Every Dream have a known or unknown deadline. If you fail to meet its requirements within the deadline, the dream would just remain as a dream forever
( My thoughts when I didnāt get Honours degree for Electronics only because of 0.03 percent less )
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I follow similar routine
I am new.
Can u be my friend and share ur story in short plz
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Itās a deleted account.
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Actually @ahiv is a new member , I think. So he may not know whether one account is deleted or not. 
@BlackMagic123
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Hi @ahiv 
Like @BlackMagic123 & @anon30406793 said, this is a deleted account. Itās owner changed it to another one by the name of @The_Rising_One.
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Hourly updates! Nice, Will implement it myself too.
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Best part of todayās journal !!
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Well Google maps is always an option, Idk why would anyone call someone to ask for directions now a days
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Probably heās having Crush on her 
(just kidding)
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