Nov 2
Day 13 (about to start)
The reason i am posting this is to notify myself that today i am having urges like hell since morning and another thing is that since last 3 days my health is not showing up properly its getting worser and worser each day and today its worst till now i have very high fever with cough and canāt even move due to weakness , i think its just viral as suddenly it became too cold here ā¦ i made some promises that i will get back to track all habits etc everything on day 10 but since then i am mostly on bed ā¦ today i am getting urges but i donāt have stamina to relapse lol i know it sounds weird but it is as it is ā¦ this post is just to remind myself the worst days i went in my nofap journey day 10 to day 13 (13 can be more extended until i get back to normal) worst days worst urges and worst productivityā¦ i see myself supportless , lonely stuck in my own thoughtsā¦ my friend circle almost all are mean they just need me at time of studies everyone knows i am very sick still they message me give notes, clear my doubts,etc everythingā¦ i Donāt except sympathy from anyone neither i need anyone to take care of me i can do that very well but atleast donāt hurt by such talksā¦ after many thoughts i stopped them helping and started ignoring such people its better to stay alone rather than helping such people as at bad times no one shows up for me that makes me and my feelings hollow from inside day by day maybe one of the reason for no improvement in my health but i think i should not let this affect my nofap streak i promise here in this message i wonāt do that at any costā¦ its hard for me to find people trustworthy though but now i will not care about any of these jobs as health first i promise this on behalf of you all (who read this post) that I wonāt affect my streak and my health because of anyone
Still in the game ā¦ will get back to everything once i am back to normal ā¦ hope you all are going good
Happy days awaiting lets go:)
Will update soon as everything gets normal
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