1st July 2025
I just have to jot down here now . And I am quite surprised to see that whatever I journaled on 26 april that exact thing happened after that , from my fatherโs second accident (he is fine now , he was unable to walk due to ankle injury in other leg this time , the effects are still there) to allegation and running part . Ngl they are crazy (in a mentally ill way)
Nvm , I have my exams on 13 July and I havenโt done anything yet , I am such a clowโฆ, I have wasted many days and if I will waste them further, I will be cooked . Like I plan but donโt execute , I sit to study but I donโt , I end up wasting my time on laptop . I have to learn some skills but โฆ
Regarding workout , I got demotivated last month after looking the same fatty guy , and that time my shoulder had an injury like it was painful to perform push exercises especially lateral raises, I dropped the frequency then started to procastinating my workout sessions . Now I started to proper warm up before workouts.
I know it will take time but I looked same , same fatty guy , my diet is an issue and sleep schedule too. Trying to get back on track.
And Job thing nah I gave up on that incentive based job now.
I am not improving and as a result I am having thoughts about them, during march 2025 to june I didnโt have a single thought about them but now. I am weak again my mind is trying to escape .
Itโs seeking comfort .
I should have slept by now , but I am a clo.. , but journaling was important , I do journal in a personal diary (sometimes when I feel overwhelmed).
One more thing I waste my time after waking up (nah , I waste my whole day).
Enough now , I have to focus on my exams now . No explanation , no promises .
Wake up at 9:45 am ( I wake up at 11 am nowadays)
No phone before 12 pm
Workout before 11:30 am
8k steps
No Junk food
Meditation
No crap Slot 1 , 12:30 to 3
No crap Slot 2 , before 7 pm
No crap Final , before 11 pm
Do CD-P
Sleep at 12:30 am
. Thank you and have a lovely and victorious life !
! God bless you 
Wake up at 9:45 am
No phone before 12 pm
, Me aapke father ke liye dua krunga jaldi thik hojaye . Tum apna dhiyan rakho bhai , jyada tension mat lo dhire dhire sab hojyega time aane pr , although bigad bhi sakta h isiliye bhai thoda serious hojao studies ke liye, baki mujhe aap pr yakeen h aap Agr kuch thaanle toh aapko koi nhi rok sakta. Or rhi baat aapki physique ki toh demotivate na ho bhaiya , thoda time lgega pr hojyega โTrust the process, . Intermediate fasting 12pm to 6pm and running kro daily . Jaldi uthne or sone ki aadat daalo , aapko aap jo abhi h usko badalne ke liye apni habits badalni padegi phale . Or jyada tension mat lena kuch bhi kro to pure bharose se Krna ki tum krsakte ho
Awahahaha 
