Everything is fine . How are you little brother ?
Long time no see ?
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Glad to know bhai 
. Best wishes , howโs your health and leg now?
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Now no one call me Short Ten carrot or Salt 10 gajar 
.
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Always feels nice to hear words from my brothers , congo for the CDS and All the very best for for your BPSC mains and UPSC bhai
Thanks bhai wishing the same for you !
Thatโs really nice to know didi , and I should say Long time no see .
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18th April 2025
Diary update after 4-5 months , 2025 , so , โI got married and I am happyโ , yes I am not kidding, itโs true that in december one of my distant maternal uncle got married and these were his words and I attended his wedding . Got you in the first half?
Regarding my course I got good grades , I got an S grade and will repeat one course because I didnโt study it well tbh , else all good , I have break till 2nd week of May , might leave after completing the ben 10 challenge , this was in my mind since January and one more thing was in my mind since last yearโs October will bring it during my next break .
Many people are busy many new people joined rc , glad to see them here and wishing to see my old brothers active here too.
Regarding personal life , 2024 ending to end of march 2025 were really torturing for me , crying , pain and headaches (and head hurts 
) , the issues are still there but itโs not crazy like before , sometimes it becomes that brutal level crap again but nvm . I started fapping and crap , everyday 2-3 times a day to cope up, weakest nofapper . I wish to live at peace all alone now . I started not to care about bs .
But I was disciplined for the very first time , I started to workout regularly and consistently since 16 february , I am doing PPL rest routine and I love working out now , even though my parents scold me for doing it late . I am now able to do 12 push ups in a row , not a big number but I used to struggle to do 1 push up last year.
I sleep at 4 am (the time I wanted to wake up ) and wake up at 9-10 am , have to fix this tbh I need to reverse the numbers , sleep at 10-11 pm , wake up at 4-5am .
One more thing I will start earning some money hopefully from May-June 
. Itโs incentive based but yeah atleast I will earn by Godโs grace .
! God bless you
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Like jinwoo, great job 
You mean the forum?
Understandable. If you feel that is the best decision, definately go with it. Peace was alredy there when we were young but we ignored it that time thinking growing up will be peaceful but it really hurts to know peace was already an option but we didnโt choose it.
Same here, but I canโt do pushup, pullups and squats. Canโt pick up my own body weight. And my legs are not fully grown so have problems with squatting.
Thatโs even great news, cuz now you can buy the things you want since you will earn. Thatโs an real relief cuz u got job and congradulations.
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Bro sorry to say you arenโt trying hard enough caus you are better then me but still this slow progress is really disappointing even I used to struggle to do one push up but when I got consistent I done 20 just after 10 days of trying you need to try more harder to push your limits 
i know that you are much stronger and wiser than me thatโs why I am telling you to break your limits try your best do push ups whenever you get little time like i used to do them before eating that if I donโt complete 10 push ups in one set I wonโt eat or go out or blah blah but also as fast you improve your chances of falling get higher too if I donโt do push ups for continuous 3 days I lose my ability to do them and barely do 3-5 thatโs why you need to make it as an habit you can do it 
. Also do socialising once a week to keep yourself sane and your mental health well 
. Btw whatโs your height now 
since you started massai jumps I want to know before and after height 
!
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I was drinking water and almost choked 
Yoo Nicee brotha
The weakest nofapper does not exist. You are stronger than you think. You have the potential to go far more than you think you can.
Some people wonโt like that but if youโre not able to sleep at 10-11. When you sleep at 4, wake up at 6 or 7 
that way youโll evso tired youโll sleep at 10 definitely.
Or donโt do it if you can 
Damn niceeee 
You know broโs grown up when he can get premium 
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hello bro
how are u ?
What was your previous name?
iโm doing great
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Hello Bro, how are you?
I am fine, just occupied with work these days. I hope everything is going well!
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Thanks bhai
Itโs fine donโt be sorry and thank you for believing me brother .
Damnn mann . You got the potential .
Sure bhai thatโs what I am trying , maybe I am kinda heavy around 73-75 kg and I do 12 push ups in one go without taking rest else I do 4-5 more after 4-5 seconds . In total I do 45-48 pushups ig , in 3 sets.
Wasnโt regular tbh , what do you say about having a challenge to do 150-200 massai jumps everyday and sprinting 2 times a week? Others can also join us .Will share the video if you want
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Tbh itโs crazy , the time when I always wished to wake up and I go to sleep at that time , the neighbor in front of my house come at their balcony for a walk that time though 
, at first I felt weird but now I got used to it . Sleeping around 2-3 am nowadays kinda better , small improvement
Hell Yes , Now I can buy Vegeta(bles) for me 
from that money
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And I thought I just added few things and didnโt add much . It was Sholt_Tenkerrot brother
Thatโs really nice to know bhai
Really nice to know that you are fine .
Can understand bhai , wishing to see you active and check your crazy blender works ! Take care
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Oh u had that hunter x hunter pic previously??
Happy to be back here for pne last finaleโฆI
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I was used to do running daily gonna start it again from tomorrow
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26th April 2025
Time to jot down the thoughts that are in my mind due to the environment and personal issues .
This time itโs more screwed , last day was more draining, was being cussed and cursed for no reason and they donโt have guts , they were putting allegations . Idk why the heck but tbh itโs getting worse , canโt choose peace until it chooses me, sometimes just wish to run away but I canโt .
My father had an accident few weeks ago , and he couldnโt go for work due to the injury in his leg and his job was in danger , dk the exact reason but saw the letter he received , this may sort out.
Yesterday again the fight with relatives , senseless creatures just using their mouth , and putting allegations for no reason , fights happened many times but yesterday was too much. And yesterday and today wasted in numbness .
And unsure about their separation . I wanna run away but I canโt heck , trapped . WiIl get out of here as everyone cares about their trash craps ,they are just trying to pretend they care about us . Why , 2025 is more cooked from this pov and it matters and affects me a lot . This is fricking torture that they donโt get it .
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Your Father will be alright I will pray for him donโt worry itโs a hard time but this too shall pass away, Thereโs no night which canโt end!!
Also as for the problem with relatives everybody have them you are lucky atleast they are pretending to care anyways I donโt have much to say on it cause the relation my father had with his siblings was only one sided only and they just want property, Money is the root of all evils , although itโs correct that thereโs no happiness which you canโt buy with Money but the main thing is that the happiness should be there to be purchased what I mean I will explain through a example like you and everybody wants to make there parents proud by succeeding in life and wants to see them happy donโt you? But now they are dead when you become successful in life whatโs the point of money and success now when you canโt purchase the happiness for which you had longed for?? Thatโs how it works the most precious things is time which you have you can do anything whatever you want to do why limit yourself be blunt and brutally honest with life and stay happy donโt let the world and any relatives make you feel sad set healthy boundaries with them .
Also always believe on yourself, you become what you think and eat!
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SO sorry to hear the unfortunate thing
I wish to share something positive to help you
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Nah, if thatโs lucky then I am fine being unlucky tbh . Btw pretending thing wasnโt for relatives though , relatives are just some senseless creatures , who are more โฆ than I explained ever .
+1 and more to this .
Wellโฆ ! Thanks brother
Thanks brother , glad to see you here! How are you doing
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Negro when you said they just pretend i thought you meant like; Relatives - Beta how much percentage you got ahh 
that less
My son got this and that I am talking for your good nah!? You should had elaborated yourself howโs everything going anyways relatives ko maaro goli sab thik hojayega jesa ki mene phele kha tha ki aise kinhi airegero ki baat se dil na dukhao faltu apna , sab tumhare sath ha kuch bhi baat ho btadena I will do my best to help you , btw whatโs your favourite meal? If you get time then surely share your favourite meal here with us too 
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