Hey guys! I am feeling strong urges to fap since last night. I accidentally came across a latest pic of the model I used to jerk off to. And I haven’t been able to get it out of my mind since then. I just feel like walking to the washroom and blasting out my semen.
But somehow I got past the night and woke up early in the morning to prevent nightfall from happening. I worked out a bit, took a cold shower. And just now I was sitting at my table and revising my lessons and Boom! My penis is rock hard and again I am having brain fog. I just want to visit that model’s Instagram and look at the pics and fap to her.
But I don’t want to do it because I’ve come way too far to back to square one again. I don’t want to lose my pride for not having fapped for the past 2 weeks. I don’t want to lose that confidence in me. I don’t want to look at myself in the mirror like a loser after masturbating. I don’t want to become the person I was 2 weeks ago because he was pathetic, he was a loser, he objectified women, he thought porn is a reflection of society’s reality, he believed that women are fond of men with animal like sex instincts. But I am a lot different than that demon and I’ve realised all my demerits, all my fears, all my perils and all my goals and duties towards the society.
So I have decided that I will not give in to these urges and that if my urges get stronger day by day, then my will to resist those urges will also grow stronger day by day. And I am hopeful that one day will come when I will share with you all that I have overcome that demon in my head which caused me to give in to my physical desires so easily. I will throw that demon out of my system once and for all.
THAT’S A PROMISE TO YOU ALL!!!