In general, people hereheare are struggling with “energy stuck on the lowest level”, I mean ofc addiction to this temporary body pleasure and watching porn. However, I am the type of guy whos 90% of energy is in the head, I feel disconnected from my body, my emotions, personality and sometimes even memory. I am overthinking everything and feel more like infinity experiencing itself than human being, jave trouble defining myself as human.
I try to maintain my streaks, but only what I feel is that every drop of energy I save this way, goes directly to my mind, I feel disconnected from Earth even more then. When I relapse, I feel for the moment that energy from my overflooded mind is going “down” temporary filling those “lower levels of existence” and I actually feel a bit better.
Is hard mode going to fix this total imbalance? Or do I need to do something extra about it? Cuz I am having hard times not because of the urges, I just cant live under the pressure of my disconnected, overpowered brain.