Ok now i will start writting a diary.
I will write my problems and the challenges related to pied and all the struggles i am gonna face to defeat pied everyday.
Suffering from pied since 2 years.
I smoke heavily
Drinking is very occasionally.
Weight 62 kg.
Started watching porn in 2008
But i started abusing myself in 2013.
In 2015 i realise that i am not getting proper erection.
I was so stupid that i ignored the fact at that time and continued to watch porn i was so damned addicted of it.
I am in a long distance relationship.
Last year i discovered this no fap as a cure.
Along with this i consult with a homeopathy doctor too.
And after 22 days of nofap and medicines
I had sex and it was great.
I tried nofap so many times ealier but everytime i failed.
Everytime i try to figure out the reason that why i failed.
This time i think i go too harsh on myself ealier.
Ealier i use to stop smoking and faping at the same time.
And its so hard to quit smoking and faping.
And i am a heavy smoker. 15 cig approx / day
This time i decided that i will not go too harsh on myself.
Smoking and faping are my two biggest enemies.
I will handle them one by one.
After 30 days of nofap i will start cutting of my smoking.
And hope so one day i will defeat both of them.
Join me guys and encourage me.
I really need someone to save me.
You need a plan of action. How to avoid triggers, what situations gives you the triggers. How you gonna react to it. I suggest you join some challenges around in this forum . Follow the rules and interact with the community. We are there for you. You are not alone in this fight.
This diary is a part of that action plan.
I write diary when i am triggered.
I keep myself busy.
Started doing night shifts.
Cutoff myself from social media.
Fb insta everything.
Its just my opinion not to do those challenges coz they always remind me of porn in some way.
I dont want my brain to keep thinking of avoiding porn.
I just wanna forget it. So no challenges.
Both of them give you dopamine hit like crazy, you have basically trained your brained to be reworded every minute or hour which is crazy just like me i struggle with pmo alot in my life, but one thing that helps is looking inside yourself and aaking yourself “what do am i doing wrong where did all this start?, what must i do to face my addiction?,” ASK YOUR SELF SOME QUESTIONS brother look at the people who have succesfully stoped smoking how did they stop ask for advices apply that same mindset to NOFAP. Its all about small steps. Do not talk down on yourself and even if you do say things like “this sucks it hurts me and i want better for myself” lets go brother💪🏿
Totally agreed.
And the reason i failed many times in past is because i wanna take down both at same time.
My brain goes crazy of not getting dopamine hit at all.
Even a small bad news or stress leads me to relapse.
Thats y i am gonna train my brain of living without porn first and then when i get comfortable.
I will quit smoking.
Now i handle stress by smoking and not fapping.
And i hope in future the joy of doing nofap will handle stress rather than smoke.
I love that idea stoping pmo first will lead to you stoping smoking in fact i think i have seen it being mentioned before, in life its all about small steps to be honest, i agree with you maybe stoping all at once is too much for the brain and body, but you already fighting proud to havw you here.
Day 5 -
As the days passes by, urges are getting stronger and stronger i almost relapsed just now.
Opened my fav porn site but before i played any of its videos i came here and started writting.
Mild pain in balls.
Feeling low in energy.
Encourage me guys.
I mostly relapse when i wake up.
To cure PIED… what should a man do ?
You know the answer.
Smoking is also a cause of weak erection.
Now,
Here is your encouragement :
I had PIED… Now… i am cured.
I had sleeping drugs addiction. Now… i am 2 months clean. Sleeping naturally.
For me… PIED is not a problem because if you are young… it can be cured from a 3 week streak of hard mode.
The Main Problem for me is a Relapse. That is the Main issue. I have wasted 3 years on nofap because i didnt give my all… i mean to say that… if you are only 1% inclined towards sexuality… and you want 99% nofap… You are going to Relapse…
One thing i know that… we have to choose one side… there is no middle path… that for 3 months i am doing nofap… and after that i am going back to the fapping.
100% focus… in one direction… and there is no return.
Those who are walking but once in a while looking back … there head is going to hit something… because they are not focused on one thing…
So… brother…
Hope you got some encouragement… but it was like some piece of advice.
You know i cant completely forget about sexuality for 3 months i am in a long distance relationship but yes i will stop looking to porn.
Hope so after a month i will quit smoking too.
Day 6 -
Back home from work.
Urges hit as soon as i hit the bed.
I am so tired that i even dont wanna go out for a walk.
Dont know what to do.
I dont wanna relapse.
