When flatline comes say it that i am ready to die but i would never return to day 0.
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DAY 22 - COMPLETED
Woke up fresh – deep sleep, strong morning wood I hadn’t seen long time
Didn’t give in. Took that whole charge and dumped it straight into my work
Worked at full speed, full focus. Proud of myself the whole time.
Yesterday I was furious, today – calm power.
Flatline’s like that: one day you’re on the floor, the next day on the ceiling.
That’s the brain rebuilding.
Hang on.
The good days grow.
We’re still going. 
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DAY 23 - COMPLETED
Exhausted to the bones. The thought came – just one click, then you can rest. But I didn’t. I shoved it off. I know damn well one click isn’t relief – it’s a free fall. And I’m not letting myself fall. Determined. Done.
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Proud of you, man. Keep improving.
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DAY 24 - RELAPSED
Twenty-four days straight. Gone. Came home wrecked, opened the cams, paid, stroked, finished. Empty again.
No dramatic vows. No „never again” promises. None of that.
Just this:
Tonight – no.
Tomorrow – no.
That’s the only rule that matters right now.
Falling doesn’t mean you lost the war.
Staying down does.
I’m back up.
Eyes forward.
One clean breath at a time.
Anyone who’s climbed out of this hole before – raise a finger.
Show me it’s possible.
Because I know it is.
Even after this.
We’re still in it.
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Do u live alone at home ?
DAY 1 - COMPLETED
My mind tricked me – I fell. Twenty-four days of purity, straight to dust. Had to start from scratch. No fake streaks – that’s self-bullshit. If you fall, you fall. Now I’m back on the battlefield. Not swearing I won’t drop again – but every day I hold, I’ll own. I fight. I stay. I know what eats me
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Congrats for such a good streak. Keep finding solutions.
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Thanks for the support. I landed flat on my face relapsed. Now I know exactly which rock I tripped on. So instead of big vows – just, I won’t take that next step. We’ll see
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DAY 3 - COMPLETED
The brain still whispers, but it’s quieter now.
Yesterday I sat down, took a breath – and didn’t click.
Just a calm „not tonight”.
The gray screen feels like an old telly left on in the background: it’s there, but there’s nothing pulling me in anymore.
Something still twitches in the corner of my head, but I kept my hand to myself.
Not a hero. Not shouting „I’m free”.
Just… here.
And that’s enough to make tomorrow feel a little lighter.
One clean breath at a time.
We’re still moving.
DAY 4 - COMPLETED
Played chess pretty much all day. Like ten hours, from morning to night.
Used to spend that kind of time on pornography, now I put it into something that actually sharpens the head.
No regrets – chess forces you to think, plan, count moves ahead.
Completely different vibe than the old one.
I know I have to work on this brain, so I’d rather dump those hours into something useful.
And yeah, faith helps a lot. Without it it’d be way harder.
Just a day.
No big speeches.
Keeping on
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DAY 5 - COMPLETED
Gray screen keeps things under control.
Dance practice – spot on.
Dance partner super pleased.
Clean head, I feel her, I respond.
Less pornography in my thoughts – faster I get better results. Day by day I feel better
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DAY 6 - COMPLETED
I noticed something cool.
When I switch the screen to black-and-white, even if I scroll, nothing pulls me in.
Colors are like glowing hooks: body, skin, light – brain screams „more, more”.
In gray? Nothing. Just text, zero craving.
Movie, photo, whatever – it turns boring.
Not magic.
But it works for me.
Like I hit mute on dopamine.
Try it if you want.
I do. And it helps
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DAY 7 - COMPLETED
No 30-day streak bullshit.
If I start planning numbers, sooner or later the brain say “ok, now you earned it” – and I’m back in the gutter. I just appreciated for every day when I’m free and very grateful.
So I don’t play that game.
I just fight today.
Every single day I don’t click – that’s the only win that matters.
Not big, not loud,
Just mine. Quiet. Real.
All I care about right now is - not today.
Those dark thoughts still whisper sometimes.
They knock. They beg.
But so far – they don’t get in.
And that’s enough.
One clean breath at a time.
Still here.
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DAY 8 - COMPLETED
Today was tough.
The attacks came hard – like someone was yanking at my head.
Satan, demons, whatever you call it – but I didn’t give in.
I fought. Didn’t fold.
I don’t plan “how many more days”.
Just: not today.
And that’s enough.
Still going.
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DAY 9 - COMPLETED
Yesterday the demons tore at me like never before.
They wanted me to fall, to click, to give in.
But I didn’t.
Today I feel proud.
It’s lighter.
I just arrived to Holland for 18 days of work – hotel, solitude,
This will be a challenge.
But I’ve got a plan:
no phone after 8 p.m.,
deep, real sleep – no scrolling before bed,
black-and-white screen always on – because it simply takes away the fuel for scrolling.
And one more weapon: daily prayer.
People try it alone, but without God’s help… it’s like going to war without a shield.
Many don’t even realize – they think willpower’s enough.
But this is bigger than that.
When I grab the rosary, read a line from the Bible – the demons go quiet.
I don’t have to fight. I don’t know how to explain it rationally but it happens
I’m not planning „how long I’ll last”.
Just: not today.
And that’s enough. Thanks for support brothers - stay strong
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DAY 10 - COMPLETED
Today was good.
Work – total focus, no room for nonsense.
Came back to the hotel – and… silence. No demons.
No urge, no tugging, not even a thought like „maybe just five minutes on my phone”.
Just sorted myself out.
Prayer in the evening – as always.
Crosswords, puzzles – brain on, not bored.
Black-and-white screen? Still locked in.
I’m proud.
Not because I’m some hero – because this actually works.
And because I keep going.
But right now – it’s day 10 of freedom
And everything’s heading the right way.
Not tomorrow, not the day after.
Today
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DAY 11 - COMPLETED
Today my head felt heavy – weather sucked, everything pressing down.
But at work? Total lock-in. When the bad moments hit, I just focus into the task. Full focus. Body in the game. It really works.
Back at the hotel – silence. No demons.
No itch to grab the phone „just for a sec”.
Black-and-white screen? Still on, still killing the fuel.
After 8 p.m. – no touching the phone. Iron rule.
Yoga, meditation, book, prayer, maybe a crossword. Brain stays awake, not numb.
And guess what?
I’ve got more energy.
No idea where from – maybe because I’m not leaking it into fantasies.
I’m proud. For some people 11 days is nothing but for me is everything.
11 days behind me, 12 rolling.
Not asking „how long till I relapse” ?
Just: not today.
And yeah – still alert. Demons didn’t vanish.
They’re waiting for my weakness
Going hard but I’m not gonna give in
Not today, no !!
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Bring a God into your life & demons will fly away in fear.
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DAY 12 - COMPLETED
Day twelve.
Memory sharper.
Focus like I’ve had three coffees.
At work – no distractions, no shaking, no punching the table.
Calm.
Control.
I don’t snap – I solve.
Not even thinking about going back.
What’s happening to me right now…
is too good to fuck up.
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