[WalkWithoutFear] Pledge to Kill korn forever! 🌄

[TonyTheChristian]

I will pray for you brother.

To get rid of it, repentance and seeking Grace is the ultimate way. This is the first thing you must do.

Repentance doesn’t only mean seeking forgiveness. It also means taking drastic measures. That’s what Jesus taught when He says to pluck the eye out. For example, if you are struggling with hentai, cut out completely anime and manga content ( that’s what I did because I also used to watch hentai). If it’s about p***, get rid of every single source that has the potential to tempt you.

It’s good that you are trying to win with your own efforts. But no matter what effort you try by yourself, you will be tempted. Even if you’ve been away for a 1000 days from this sin as @ejuile mentioned in a separate post. She was tempted, even if she did her efforts AND relied on God for protection. You will always be tempted in life someway. But relying on God makes it A LOT easier to control the urges and win. The urges become so weak when you are relying more and more on God. That is why I mentioned above that seeking Grace from God is the ultimate way to get free. By seeking it, you will naturally get less and less interested in these past habits. You will be more interested in learning more about God. And God is faithful. Someone who seeks Him will be protected from this sin. This means that whenever you are tempted, you must immediately think of Jesus. Don’t stare at the temptations or try to fight them. You will always lose because of the flesh. You must always run away to God and ask for His help. That is the only way brother.

Grace from God not only forgives, but it also transforms. Don’t forget that.

[WalkWithoutFear]

Brother. Thanks for all of this. Lately i have been thinking of God. But i have trouble where to. Start. My brain wants to do everything all at once and then i overthink. Its hard to concentrate at times. So then i dont think and get numb and just do basic stuff.

[TonyTheChristian]

Thanks for your honest response Brother.
I think a great start would first to repent fully. You have to pray sincerely to God. Think of your struggles and tell them to Him. As if you are having a discussion with a friend. Then confess your sins to Him. Tell Him all the bad things you did and that you regret. Then ask to receive His Grace. Ask for His Grace to be forgiven of the sins. Then, ask for His Grace to also be transformed into a new person. Believe sincerely that you receive Grace when you’ll ask for it, because He is faithful. He will give it to you. Trust in Him.

Then you have to do a drastic change. Because if you keep the same habits, you will of course fall again. What I did when I prayed for His Grace is that I also committed myself to start a “Bible in a Year” podcast. It’s basically a priest and a team who structured the Bible in a way that you would fully understand the whole story of salvation. The priest is Father Mike Schmitz. I decided that I would take a morning walk every day (very early in the morning) and at the dame time listen to the podcast. Then later in the day, I would read the chapters that I listened to in the podcast, and I would take notes. I decided to do that because I was so far away from God. At the beginning, I forced myself to do it because I didn’t have the motivation. But with time, I started to learn more about Him. I’ve been doing this for a while, and I can’t even imagine where I would be if I haven’t started this program. I am infinitely grateful for it. Try it brother, it will help tremendously. Even if you don’t feel motivated. Eventually, you’ll even start to like listening to the Bible and reading. At the same time I took drastic measures: I completely stopped watching anime and manga content. I put a time limit of 1 minute on social media on my cellphone before they were blocked ( so I don’t scroll mindlessly through reels) (I couldn’t completely block them because my family would sometimes send me messages on them. So I needed them to check the messages). I also decided to go to Church every week. I also kept going to the gym (3-4 times per week for years). If you don’t want or can’t go to the gym, start training at home. Or do some jogging outside. Any consistent physical activity will greatly help Brother. Take drastic measures immediately.

Upon receiving Grace, brother, the transformation starts. But you have to keep nurturing your spirit. Otherwise, you will be stuck. Like I said above, receiving Grace doesn’t mean you will never be tempted again in your life. But you will be certainly a lot stronger, since God’s strength will be with you.

In moments of temptation, don’t stay where you are. Pray to God for His protection, remind yourself of some passages in scripture, and listen to Christian music. You can even go to another room where there’s someone and talk to them to change your thoughts (Ecclesiastes 4 verse 9). If you’re alone and struggling a lot, prayer is the ultimate weapon. What helps me when I am tempted is that I immediately pray and the thoughts are gone. If they persist, I open the Bible and read a few passages. By then they are gone. Listening to Christian music also helps tremendously. You can even take a walk outside and listen to the music at the same time. Thanking God for His blessings and His patience, reminding ourselves of His love… That’s how we win brother.

[WalkWithoutFear]

4/365 days
Day 4
I woke at 9:25 a.m. i will do workout today and listen to the word of God as well so that i can be nourished in mind and body. I was feeling a bit sick yesterday but i ate a ginger root raw little by little( spicy) lol and along with lime juice and honey. I also went out yesterday for a while to this wildlife refuge place for animals, i just drove around but didnt go in because the ground looked very rocky and didn’t want tires to pop. I had music in my car to relax and wanted to feel independent for once in my life without needing to go out with someone else to depend on like always. Since i have social anxiety i need to train myself to go out more often even if alone. Now i feel healthier this morning. I dont feel horny but i feel like i have some more energy now.
I got to say, it feels different not watching TV in room Fr more than a week(.started this week). I feel more free but also more likely to want some stimulation of some kind. Like yesterday i was eating alot of food without knowing why and it made me awake for a bit last night. So appetite control is important. I’ve watched TV only in living room so it makes me disciplined not to watch alot of TV. I also reset the time my phone should shut off to 12:30 a.m. max time. In case i am on phone longer than that because last time i had it at 2 a.m. but it just made me wait till it was 2 a.m. lol. Procrastination. So this time its more earlier.
I will set timer for email as well to avoid distractions.

[WalkWithoutFear]

11/365

Day 11
I can’t believe i made it this far already. It was hard. There were times where i was tempted and i thought back at my last relapse how i went to church and i relapsed anyways even though deep down i wanted spiritual food. I didn’t relapse because i prayed to God to “rid of me from lust and that i dont wish to think of these things anymore. " i don’t want to be in the hands of darkness anymore and want to follow the light even if i don’t know how, i know anywhere other than darkness from all this lust is better.”
So when i prayed and layed on my bed so that the urges can go away and closed my eyes. The urges went away slowly. I was thinking "how i have a long way to go in my spiritual journey and if i give in now. I won’t know my true potential fully, i must listen to the ways of God. " i told myself this.
*i did also homework assignments because now my school has started. I am taking computer science.

I haven’t worked out for couple days because i was healing my left shoulder arm from pain. I think i did too much pushups the last time i did pushups haha. So that is why i took a good break from workout. I will eventually get back to it but go easy. It also gives me time to reflect that i don’t always need to workout to defeat my urges. I can depend on spiritual food i give to my body. Like ability to practice to be calm and at peace with own energy is a good practice. Feeling calm but also not disturbed by negative thoughts is a powerful energy skill. Not watching TV has helped calm my thirsty seeking dopamine mind. But yesterday i watched TV in my room because i gave myself a reward for reaching past 10 days.
It is okay to give reward but not too much.

[WalkWithoutFear]

Just reminder to self for journey 2025:

GOALS

Happy 2025!
However this year simply means that we need to work harder in ourselves. The same way we plan to improve ourselves, the same way the enemy has gotten stronger, that is korn!
So lets commit ourselves this year 2025 and break free from all addictions by fasting from:
TV for a good time( every 2 weeks minimum) only but mostly watching TV in living room anyways.
social media doomscrolling ( scrolling too much or too much in the media in FB.etc…) *recommended to delete them for a time being if possible and act like your fasting from all stimulations. You can still look at messages people write to you but try not to be addicted.
fast from sugary foods and heavy processed foods alot especially at night ( no exceptions)
sleep 7 to 8 hours minimum every day and wake up on time to conquer your day.
no dating apps whatsoever until you finish 90 days minimum of korn free and masturbation. This will reset your brain and even you will feel like dating apps arent needed and that its best to talk to girls one on one in person maybe. Who knows. ( do if your feel you have more self control)
Fast from too much headphone use if possible. ( alot of people seem to be addicted to it, i understand but if you want to really live in the moment and get rid of too much ear worms in the mind. You will need to eventually fast here to.) You can still listen to music, just dont make it too much of a habit of having headphones.

IT WILL BE A HARD JOURNEY. BUT SO WORTH IT!

THINGS TO DO:

read more books, drawing, play guitar, dance, sing, hobbies, etc…or write in journal to distract mind from TV and keep productivity.
from experience

if have social anxiety, try to go outside room minimum more than 2 times per month other than shopping for foods or clothes. ( maybe trips to trails etc. from experience, no matter what, try to do this even if alone outside. You will feel good about yourself and refresh self.Human is meant to be social outside house as well. It is in our nature!!

exercise more
from experience, yes this helps

read more to distract mind to be more productive and gain more knowledge in your life
from experience

persistent in hygiene regimen. from experience. I regret not doing it earlier but im not too late

telling yourself positive affirmations so that you can beat negative energy and negative talks in the mind. from experience

try to take breaks in between your day so that you dont gas yourself out ( small rests if you need them, do it!!) from experience

meditate more often in journey. This battle is mostly mental and other is body. But if mastery of mind is possible then you can gain lots in this world. from experience

persistent in disciplining self by following all this list above!!!

[WalkWithoutFear]

2/365

Day 2
After i recently relapsed. I thought alot about why i relapsed and how to overcome this addiction to my fetishes and lust after woman. I become a bit depressed affer i relapsed and listened to some sad content like i always do when depressed. But this time, it hit me hard with an advice that stuck with me. There was one advice that said " if you want any change, not small change. You must go all out. All out. That includes cutting off friends if you have to, especially they not treating you right, technology, or whatever. Go all out."
I took this to heart after looking at how i disciplined myself recently because i told myself every 2 weeks i can see TV in my room but that habit only made me want to binge watch alot of TV till very late midnight. So i decided, a very hard decision for myself. That i will only watch TV downstairs with family and never upstairs or atleast until i reach high level days like 90 or 365 and hardened my discipline.
I also cut off messenger app because i dont use it as much. I automatically check my messenger app i guess because i am waiting for someone to text me back i guess. I always had that habit actually. I guess because i want friends and someone to care but everyone has their own lives. But it just wastes time since i dont have much friends in real life or any friends. I only use my default text app from phone in case i need to add anyone to contacts.
Somehow it feels very freeing. Knowing i don’t use Facebook anymore and constantly trying to compare myself to others and just living here and now. Another advice i got was to try to improve. “Improving yourself is your purpose”
“People say it must be easy for me. Nah it wasn’t. You must embrace that pain, it hurts but i dont care. I die to myself to become what i am now” - David Goggins.
Today:
I plan to exercise doing cardio to increase energy levels.
Do homework
Listen to more positive podcasts (eliminate negative thoughts. )
Pray inbetween day and night

[WalkWithoutFear]

Day 4
No urges. Just finishing up homework i need to do. Will play a relaxing music and keep a focused mind while doing homework. Felt a little sick but it went away quickly.
Woke up 9 a.m. today.

• “dont over think it.” Word of the day.

[WalkWithoutFear]

Day 14
Amazing!
I am keeping strong. I had some urges yesterday and a few days back but i am keeping strong and have a big reason to keep going. My goal is to sleep more on time and wake up on time. I want to do that today. I have my future me smiling back at me for overcoming this temptation. I will be set free. Time to overcome and break my limits and set myself free through my creator! Not my own strength. Staying disclipined and knowing my sacrifices are for his sake that we make this temple a temple of God’s and we crucify it daily. Amen
Today:

1. Will workout today - intense muscle exercises with a little cardio. I was feeling a little sick but not alot.
2. Finish up some reading and homework
3. Listen to some encouraging affirmations.

[WalkWithoutFear]

Day 2
I relapsed a few days back. Luckily i didn’t watch alot of korn because i was getting tired since it was midnight and kept sleeping late. That ruined my schedule alot! I must cut off anime for now since i think watching anime on TV is associating with hentai in my mind. I was on TV in weekends and ate sugary things at night, spoiled myself a bit(must not eat stimulants at night). But i think i should not watch anymore and just focus on reading and improving as much as i can till i reach 100 days or more. That way the stimulant i get from watching shows is normalized. We also have novelty when we see TV about a particular show and end up seeing ourselves in the show and even if not rated R show, you will start to imagine and other ideas will come about. So its best not to watch shows at all for good number of days and focus on sleeping on time as well. The journey is tough trying to balance work/life and this journey. But we must balance it and get sleep right!
Yesterday i did a good workout. In the morning drank Maca root powder and few hours felt a splurge of energy! Then i did workout and felt my energy and accepted the inner man of my being and felt great actually even after sleeping late yesterday. I felt myself being more 1 with my inner energy = self awareness(life energy).
Today:

1. Finish assignments
2. Eat good nutritional food
3. Sleep good
4. Play guitar
5. Reply to any messages i have
6. If time maybe journal
   Must must sleep well today !

[Prayer_Warrior]

It sounds like you’re really reflecting deeply on your habits and the impact they’re having on your journey. It’s great that you’re recognizing the importance of managing your environment, especially the media you consume, and how it can influence your mindset and energy levels. Cutting out certain distractions, like anime, to avoid triggering associations with past behaviors is a smart move if you feel it could help you stay focused on your goals.

You’re also paying attention to your physical and mental energy, which is key to sustaining long-term progress. Your workout and the boost from Maca root powder seem to have contributed positively to your overall sense of well-being, even if you didn’t sleep as much as you ideally should have.

Balancing work, life, and personal growth can definitely be challenging, but it sounds like you’re making deliberate choices to ensure that you’re nurturing your mind, body, and goals. Continue to prioritize sleep, nutrition, and mindful habits, and it’ll make the journey a lot smoother in the long run.

One thing to keep in mind is that it’s okay to have setbacks or off days—what matters most is how you respond and get back on track. You’re doing great by being aware of these patterns and making conscious decisions to improve. Keep it up, and stay focused on your long-term vision!

[WalkWithoutFear]

Thanks man. I appreciate it. God Bless you brother. I am making changes to my sleep patterns as the main priority because ive been sleeping past midnight for many months everyday and want to change that habit.

[WalkWithoutFear]

Day 4
Staying the course!
I’ve been working on school stuff and some business website building for past days. I woke up 9 a.m. today and i had a deeper dream today even though i slept a little earlier i still wanted to sleep more and felt a bit tired lol
Earlier today worked on assignments and will do some exercise today.

1. Finish more assignments
2. Workout
3. Eat well
4. Read bible
5. Sleep before midnight

[WalkWithoutFear]

Day 2
I couldn’t handle the pressure without meditation. The distraction of lust was too much so i relapsed. I must make time for meditation in this journey so not to burn out and use korn as a way to relax. I was also tired, when the brain gets tired, it wants to find a way to relax and it will think of korn, korn is also a stimulant so it will wake you up momentarily but after you will feel disgusted. I think that is why alot of people watch it, its like a way to relax they think but actually more destructive that it seems. In day 0 i did exercise like 150 pushups and situps as well. I also set my social media restriction time limits and no TV routine. Phone limited past midnight - its automatic with this app i have.
Things i will do today:

1. Do homework assignments
2. Do reading
3. Meditate practice
4. Read bible
5. Sleep