Brother, I see your struggles and I have been there, I have been addicted to porn for 20+ years. It controlled my life, hurt my relationships, sin againsted God and my body, and lead me to depression! Only the last 5 years have I been fighting this addiction. It is a battle that you have to face everyday, it is not going to go way its not a flip of a switch. You have to win today! Keep winning each day. Keep your mind off of it, stop talking to Kes! She is a trigger, try to find someone at events such as going to church, or start doing things by yourself and getting out of your comfort zone! You can beat this thing and donât ever give up!!! Keep fighting, when its hard fight harder!!! You can go more than 2 days without a relapse you have a choice and its up to you!!!
Relapse can be anything which hinders your noFap streak like watching â â â â or masturbating which is considered in almost every case Allahu Alam some consider peeking or edging as a relapse some consider having actual sex as a relapse some consider sexting as a relapse.
So at the end it depends on you what is parameters of your relapse.
Its really up to you to determine what a relapse is.
There is easy mode (full PMO) before relapse.
There is hard mode where looking at just porn is a relapse.
Then there is personal mode. Whatever you consider a relapse like edging or masterbation only which makes sense since no fap means no masterbation.
Me personally, I reset after full PMO because once i start the relapse its a several minutes to a few hours. So instead of reset every few minutes or an hour, I go through it all to prevent edging as being done.
You need give yourself to be able to continue help and support others. At least do one thing for yourself. Let us know what you did for yourself tomorrow night