That’s it guys. I am finally free. Serious this time.
PLEASE READ IT FULLY. THIS CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE. TRUST ME.
It is such a low level pleasure that once you encounter higher pleasures like spiritual oneness, this would not seem pleasurable.
I meditate for 1.5-2 hours taking recommendation from the previous post. And felt really blissful.
Then I decided to touch my genitals again.
Hold on. Don’t judge me.
Yes I decided to touch my genitals fully mindfully really trying to understand what it is and why I do it.
To my surprise I did not want to do it.
I felt disgusted by it and I did not feel any pleasure.
Don’t get me wrong. I was still getting aroused and my dick was hard as fuck but I was being observant of all sensations and trying to just stroke it really SLOWLY.
I realized that it is NOT PLEASURE.
It is simply a rise of energy and makes energy move uncomfortably towards my genitals and is actually discomfort so to say. Because it wanted me to take out that energy. And it was more AN URGE than PLEASURE.
I began rubbing my nipples in a similar way and very slow and I felt that what we consider pleasure is actually not pleasure. It is just some sensation that we mistake for pleasure.
Now again I took it to another level and I opened porn videos of my favourite pornstar. God damn it, I found it disgusting you won’t believe.
I felt bad at watching this and realized it to be a useless activity.
Damn guys. I have FINALLY UNLOCKED THE MYSTERY.
The book EasyPeasy makes sense. Total sense.
For the first time I can actually understand it.
The reason we consider it to be PLEASURE is because WE ARE IN DISCOMFORT AND PAIN already . Which maybe due to day to day stresses or maybe induced by PMO itself and then to overcome it we GO TO IT again.
And since we are in pain these sensations SHADOW them. And we think it is pleasure because momentarily our PAIN disappears.
God damn it.
I have figured it out finally.
And I am free.
I have to keep reminding my that and meditate and stay at a HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS level. Then this petty thing won’t bother me.
So how do we free ourselves ?
RAISE YOUR VIBRATIONS.
NEVER FALL TO THIS TRAP.
THIS IS AN ILLUSION.