Video games and porn addictions made me perpetual student

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#1

I will be 27 this year. I began my studies on one of the universities in 2011. I was gaming instead learning and numbing the pain with porn.

I resigned from this uni in 2014, when I realized I won’t be promoted to next semester.

After summer 2014 I began another studies on another uni. This time they were part-time studies, so I was working entire week and went for classes at weekends.

At first I felt good to not worry about studies, because I had this 2 weeks break. Oh boy… you can tell I was so wrong… I couldnt manage my time even though I had it not much. I still preferred gaming over studies and “fapporn” lifestyle before going to sleep.

I had really hard time to be promoted from one year to another. My classes backlog was getting longer and longer. On the end of 2016 when I found NoFap subreddit I decided to try it. In the next half of year I totally quitted video games. I was nice change. I tried to devlop myself in different areas. The efforts helped me a bit to get my hope back. However, for some reason I came back to gaming and from there all went downhill again. I deepened my problems with studies to the point that after 3 years I decided to revise my recent year to keep up with my classes (for entire time I keep try NoFap but with no result). Winter semester flew away, I’m “sober” since just about one week and will revise 2 classes from 4 I took.

Currently Im trying to pass remaining 2 exams. Ive skipped one already and wrote the second, but Im not sure if I will pass. Still I have second chance to both next week, but it will require serious work. The positive thing is that what I learnt for the small chunk of time I wrote on the exam with no problems. The whole point is to write to rest to pass and thats what I will try to achieve. Basically I have to come back to learning routine, which never existed before lol.

Due the fact I was ignoring my problems, studies and was numbing the pain with porn I cant learn properly. I cant focus, I easily forget what I read, I have issues with memory. That sucks.

Just yesterday I thought it would be better to learn without distractiong like playing music and that was good idea. I remembered more and could focus. However it also thanks to my “soberity” I think.

I will keep continuing my recovery, because I realized how much my youth, mentality and dating experience have been damaged by these drugs. I will strive to face my problems. I know it will be hard and Im in quite tough situation with studies, but I will try my best.

Incoming summer semester will be harddue the fact I will have more classes to revise. This is why I will keep trying to stayclean and focus more on my studies.

If not now, then when?

P.S. I will be hitting 7 days today. I think I can focus more on what I read and remember it.


#2

I have very similar situations. Failed first year of studies due to porn and games. Needed to retake it. I had some exams now. Started great, working hard and passed them. But some of them failed, because I was wasting time. It’s the highest time not to waste our lives :wink:


#3

Keep trying guys. Gaming seems like a good thing . But to limit it and to look forward to it is the key. Like all good things.


#4

Gaming addiction is not good. Today Im certain I wasted only my time on them.


#5

Best wishes for your studies and exams.we don’t manage our time and energy and just waste them instead of utilizing them in positive healthy activities


#6

You’re doing good. You have goals in mind. I’ve yet to find out what I want to do. What also makes it worse is that I haven’t turned my PS4 on since 2017, so I don’t really have an excuse lol To me you’re doing great. Good luck in your exams!