Hi everyone! I’m back to give an update. First of all, thank you so much for all the kind messages I’ve got from all of you (there are some messages I haven’t replied). In my first start on this forum, I told everyone that I never passed my 24 days for a long time, but I feel happy to announce that I am already on my 31st day without porn and masturbation.
I can’t do this without so many kind messages and advice I got from here, and all the encouragement and support is truly making my heart so warm and blessed. If you ask me how can I pass these 31 days, need to admit it is so so so hard since the thoughts still come and go. But as I read from this article (Is Pornography Your Therapy? | Desiring God) and it helps me to break down what caused the urge and deeper problem that I had and I realized my biggest cause is when I feel tired or lonely.
One thing that I decide to do is to tell my close friends and community about my addiction and they are so supportive to help me. And other things that I did (and that’s why I rarely open this app) are making me busy. I did so many communities activity, took some personal projects, hang out with my friends, decide to spend time with my family. Not letting myself watch porn and masturbate.
I realize sometimes the biggest cause is because it often becomes my “easiest escape to get dopamine” and I often choose to entertain my own feelings. All the list I decided to do is not truly easy since I am not really a “people person”, but it helps me a lot. Like I said before, the thoughts and the urges still come and go (when I type this actually I am truly in urges) but I try to not entertain the urges
And maybe the other thing that I did is to accept myself for having this addiction and not trying to fight it like crazy, but instead, I try to talk about it, share about it, and also I try to teach my mind to let it flow to another thought, because the more you hate, the more it appears to you.
I know everyone in here is on their own journey, but the biggest reason I want to share this is because without all the kind messages from you guys, I won’t have big encouragement to win this addiction. I’ll keep in touch and reply to all your messages btw, let’s be a better version of ourselves!
