UA's journey to No Fap

I am a 16 years old male and I have been masturbating for the last 4 years.
It has become real bad now.
I used to be a very sharp student in school bit now my grades are going down also my social life is a complete mess.
I am not a social peraon and spend my day in my home and have no physical activity.

I really want to change my life and unleash my full potential.

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Day 0:
I just relapsed a few minutes ago.
I was on a one day streak and thats what is for like over a month now.
I get on a one day streak and then end up breaking it the next day.
The highest I have gone until now is 3 days. Due to this excessive masturbation by the end of the day I have headaches daily. Also my productivity has decreased alot. I have been using this app for about 2 months but I have not made much progress, the reason I think is that when I face the urge all my motives kind of disappear and I forget that I have to counter the urge.
To combat this I will now be writing a daily log about my progress, because writing down your thoughts and experiences leaves a greater imprint on one’s mind.

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The best thing about you is that you found the truth so early in your life.
I found the truth when i was 25 yrs. Old.
Now i am 26 and still struggling.
Atleast your carrer is safe since you are just in your school.
Learn from my mistakes. From a intelligent boy to a dumb ass hole i have become. Not only that so many diseases i got from masturbation.
Save yourself boy.

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Well I am quite grateful that I understood the situation at the right time.
Also I read your diary as well and that is one of the things that inspired me to start logging my journey.
:v:

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I dont know the name of the person who said it but what he said is
"It is not failure but low aim that is a crime " if you are consistant You will rise above this addiction
I just went 30 days nofap after trying for i think 8-9 months

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Day 0:
Fuck Fuck Fuckk
Relapsed
I had completed a full day, 1 day and 8 hours to be exact. Its now late night around 1 30 and the urges just started coming.
It was all okay the whole day I did have a slight urge but it wasnt a problem, but now I was having more powerful urges and I just couldnt bear them. I resisted at first but they kept on coming so I watched a little bit of porn but I didnt fap. I thought that this would get rid of the urges but actually “The more you feed the monster the stronger it gets” so instead of going away the urges became more powerful and I finally gave in.
This is whats been happening to me since the past month. The highest I can go is like 40 hours and then RELAPSE.
But now its enough, I am now fully prepared to change my life now and nothing will stop me.
I now will be making my days more productive and start shifting my focus towards other things and hopefully do something.

UPDATE: So about 30 minutes after my relapse I started to get urges again but I evaded them. This time they were very subtle and weak but noticable, so instead of resisting them(as I usually do) I turned to the NF app. The content one the message board is motivating and the quotes help too. I also used the ‘feel the urge’ option and surprisingly it was quite effective.

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I am on my 11th day. Iam hoping to reach day 30 and then day 90 and then forever. If your whole day is gonna be about not relapsing, you are gonna relapse eventually. You need to try to add new habits to your routine. I have added meditation, prayer and excercise daily. Consistency is key. Best of luck brother.

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Thanks for the advice.
Will work on it and hopefully there will be positive results

Have you had traumatic experiences in your life? Maybe you are hung up emotionally about something. You sound really hard on yourself because you don’t want this in your life anymore. Try not to let guilt overwhelm you or your thoughts.

It’s good you are fighting this at a young age. I hope this community can help you have breakthroughs. :muscle:

No there have been no traumatic experiences in my life its just that I was a very ambitious person and then due to masturbation my life went downhill, my grades, my social life.
I had anxiexty and couldnt focus on anything properly and I went from a brillant person to a shitty one. This fall has given alot of guilt and I want to do anything I can to fix my life.

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Day 0(still):
So I didnt relapse but I did edge a little, normally I would not change the counter but this time I reduced 12 hours from my streak. I did this because I wanted to reap the full benefits of no fap and if I dont take any action against edging it’s going to be as harmful to me as fapping.
About my day - It was nothing special, in the morning I took a cold shower which I dont usually do and honestly it felt very good refreshing. After that I thought of cleaning my room but as I started I got tired and stopped. Then it was a pretty much normal day, nothing productive but I saw one change that the urges seemed to be much more controllable. It seems that my subconcious has become more aware and strong probabbly due to me writing my thoughts and reading the content from the forums.
Especially @anon66785751 your diary is quite inspiring and helpful. Music is also a very powerful agent in calming down your mind, relaxing and it helps me fight the urges.

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Bro. Edging = Relapse.
Believe me it takes away the pschological benefits. Only Energy is left in body which is good for nothing because you lost your self control and discipiline.

Yesterday i edged. I go to bathroom and saw precum on my penis. Then i decided to masturbate. My mind tricked me there. I could have just Reset the counter just like you did. But i was not as strong as you are. You are better than me

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Day 1:
I had relapsed after I edged so I reset my counter again. But now I made it to day 1. I am now at 1 day and 9 hours. I think it was probabbly because I was busy the whole day as my family was invited on a dinner and during the rest of the day I was out on some errands, but one positive thing I noticed that when I got back home late night I was tired and it’s jn these situations I fap the most so I can release all the stress and tensions in my body(the irony that the thing I thought removes stress was actually making me more stressed). I did have a slight urge when I was going to sleep and I told it to “FUCK OFFF”.
I didnt have energy last night so I am writing this diary the next morning. Energy levels are really low, even 10 hours of sleep isnt enough for my body.

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I really know that problem. If I have too many things to do, i used to watch porn for hours -> means even less time to do what I have to…
Stay strong!

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Day 4:
Its been more than a month since my last 4 day streak. I am not feeling any major effects of no fap right now as I am only on day 4 but I will have to say that I do feel much better, as the headaches have decreased(but are still present). Energy levels are not much higher but I have started some physical activity and sports but I get tired very easily. Another thing is that my memory has worsened due to this fapping and I forget things really easily.

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Day 5:
Just had a close encounter. I was having urges yesterday but today they had become really strong and so I opened a porn website and started browsing but my subconcious has become strong enough that I didnt fap and closed the website. My confidence has started to boost, but energy levels havent improved. When I wake up this morning I was tired as hell as if I had not slept the whole night but in fact I slept for 10 hours(._.)

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Day 0:
Relapsed 3 hours ago. Didnt ejaculate but I edged. Many people dont consider edging as a relapse but it actually is a smaller version of fapping. The goal of NO PMO is to clean your brain as well and if you keep on edging that wont be accomplished.
Last time I edged I reduced my streak but didnt reset it completely to teach my self a lesson but I still edged so now I am resetting the counter.
I have seen some improvements, first of all now I dont have headaches daily also I noticed a small burst of energy today in the morning but it was very short. And I then I relapsed an hour after that. Hope that I can do better this time.

Day 0:
Just relapsed again. The guilt is too much. I have been resisting the urges for the past 3 hours but they just wont stop but grow even stronger instead, after some point my will power gave up and I masturbated:(