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I had completed a full day, 1 day and 8 hours to be exact. Its now late night around 1 30 and the urges just started coming.
It was all okay the whole day I did have a slight urge but it wasnt a problem, but now I was having more powerful urges and I just couldnt bear them. I resisted at first but they kept on coming so I watched a little bit of porn but I didnt fap. I thought that this would get rid of the urges but actually “The more you feed the monster the stronger it gets” so instead of going away the urges became more powerful and I finally gave in.
This is whats been happening to me since the past month. The highest I can go is like 40 hours and then RELAPSE.
But now its enough, I am now fully prepared to change my life now and nothing will stop me.
I now will be making my days more productive and start shifting my focus towards other things and hopefully do something.
UPDATE: So about 30 minutes after my relapse I started to get urges again but I evaded them. This time they were very subtle and weak but noticable, so instead of resisting them(as I usually do) I turned to the NF app. The content one the message board is motivating and the quotes help too. I also used the ‘feel the urge’ option and surprisingly it was quite effective.