Hi I am new here. I masturbate on a daily basis. I see this is a unique platform for people to quit pmo.
I am starting this diary to note down my journey. I will be pretty straight forward with my honest experience . I want to see the experience that all the nofap experts never fails to mention, if it’s universal or not.
How u been doing last few days bud??
It’s day 2 and 12 hours
I am trying to keep myself busy , I have taken 3 large projects and doing it at the same time with a strict deadline.
I didn’t had any urges until yesterday, I dreamt about having sex .
I am having some urges right now as I am writing , that dream triggered me , can’t get it out of my head .
I am doing good I guess, don’t know how long will it last
Fight it head on man. Never give into the urge. Even when it feels like you need to. Keep fighting. You got it.
This is a HUGE improvement of what you were on here saying earlier in the week. Hell yea. Good
Day 3, 18 hours , I relapsed. I felt a strong urge a very strong urge . It was because of Instagram. I have now unfollowed all the triggering accounts . Took a quick shower and got back to my work.
That’s not bad at all. Almost 4 days. That’s huge . Yes. Even simple things you view and watch online are triggers for me as well
Aah shit , I did it again. I need to increase my commitment . M not giving up this time I will stay away from porn till 7 days . I am very target oriented so I will try to set small goals at first and achieve them.
HERE I GO DAY 0 I don’t know if I can win against this addiction , my highest till now is 3 days but I wanna fight , I wanna see what’s there in the other side , I wanna know what it feels like so badly … Let’s Go mate you got this I got this
Yo I relapsed today as well… Do u Wana try going 7days together?? 7 will be my highest lol… my record is only 5🤪
Okay let’s do this…
I’ll admit I’m scared for 7 days lol… In the morning was my reset on my counter. Wat bout ur time?
It’s been 23 hours since I reset @emoro0220 mine was around midday
Okay cool. We aren’t far off. I’m just barely over 28 hours now
Couldn’t sleep last night so I decided to work and did fall asleep around 4 am . Filling dizzy now , no urges though.
Hopefully u sleep now bud… I’m bout to come up on day 2 in an HR . Major urges but I’ll be at work in an HR so all is good there
Okay on DAY 3 : I went outside and saw some hot girls on my way home , the urges became so strong that I couldn’t control myself , I wanted to have sex with every girl that I see. So to calm down I rush down to my apartment and had to fap to calm down my urges. Now my guilt started to rise up. I hate myself for these overwhelming thoughts. I just threw my phone to the store room and just closed the door.
3days later which is today , I went to my storeroom to pick up my phone , it was working fine except the screen glass was broken .
I have reset the counter, gonna try again. I hope someday I will get out of this shit storm
DAY 0 Here we go again
DAY 1 I started following Sadhguru and he provides wisdom that enlighten people like me. So I found a answer to my addiction, sort of.
All these years I was looking for results what if I don’t fap ,what are the powers I will get , what are the skills I will develop but this kept in the wrong side. I was so focused on the result I forgot about the process.
From now on I will try my best to focus on things that push me towards PMO and will overcome them one by one. Results will eventually show up one day or another . TRUST THE PROCESS
chill bro…I think its simple…you just need to lock all your apps in your phone bro. just like me, I knew that my phone is the real problems that will lead me to relapse and further edge. I decided to change who I am. I always tell myself that I’m better than this. if I cant control myself, atleast I can lock all the apps that triggered me to pmo.
all apps that I locked is facebook, google chrome, mobile internet (originally from phone), instagram, youtube and playstore… you know ehat, Im on day 3 right now and honestly this is the easiest path so far when I was in nofap journey. bro, there is no excuse if you really wanna change. the real obstacle is within ourself. keep strong and grow stronger bro.wish you had a great day