2025-04-14T18:30:00Z
Almost a week clean
Urges are definitely there, but Iβm holding strong with Godβs grace.
Something about my mindset has changed. Iβm not sureβ¦I donβt exactly know how to describe it either. Itβs justβ¦different.
I have more appreciate for the little things in life. And taking things slow. Working hard. Staying clean.
I need to spend more time with God. Itβs something I keep procrastinating. I need to understand why Iβm feeling this way. Itβs not a bad feeling. Itβs justβ¦different.
Different can be good.
Been following a fairly good schedule. Doing all daily tasks except working out because of my injury. Focusing on keeping the momentum. When I get back to college, Iβll be able to restart my athletic workouts, which is good, because we have an athletics tournament coming up at college soon and I want to do well in that as well.
Before going back Iβll definitely work on setting up a proper schedule for the same, including focus on plyos, my timed sprints, endurance as well as general explosiveness and some full body calisthenics and strengthening for my shoulder. I had been working on handstand pushups for some time now but progress was severely laidback due to my shoulder injuries. Perhaps I will restart that later this year.
I donβt know why I face so many comebacks. But I know that God wants me to rely more and more on him, so I will learn to do so.
Meeting a sports specialist about my shoulder this weekend. Praying he gives good advice including which shoulder brace to wear to keep playing. The last sports ortho I went to simply said Donβt ever play basketball or go to the gym again and after we left I immediately told my family Iβm not following that advice, because thatβs ratherβ¦well, not smart.
Anyways, will see.
Deus vult.
also just try to stay cautious