Day 21 
Unfortunately, today I relapsed. I was fighting strong urges for several day, but in the end I lost. This is very sad.
Right now feeling absolutely empty. These 10 minutes of pleasure didnβt worth it at all.
By the way, in the beginning of this streak I promised, that if I relapse I will go to a therapist. I guess I should do it in order to quit pmoβ¦
Right now I feel like Iβm gonna take a break from this forum. I will return here when I have any interesting news or updates.
The battle is not over. Eventually I will win.
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You donβt have to take the word of a nobody that seriously, donβt leave, I was just trying to make you serious. You will be just fine, you can open up to us, you donβt need to go to the therapist, you have us.
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Thank you bro.
Itβs okay, Iβm definitely not leaving forever. I just need some time to get a clearer understanding of my goals, I feel like I need to rethink some things about my life. I will return when Iβm ready, as soon as possible.
About therapist, yeah, this is not the decision that I should mindlessly make, I agree with you about that. But I think that maybe I should give it a try.
Like I said, Iβm going to rethink a lot of my goals and how Iβm going to achieve them. Maybe if all goes well and I donβt relapse from today, then maybe I wonβt go to a therapist, who knows.
Thank you for your support brother. I will do my best to defeat this addiction for good. And I will return to this forum as soon as possible.
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The best is all that is required. I hope you do return stronger and at least 30 days strong. Donβt give up brother you are stronger than you realize.
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Hey all.
Wanted to give you some news about my nofap journey.
Frankly speaking, it doesnβt go well. I still relapse after 7-10 days.
It became very easy to get to this number of days. Itβs so easy that I donβt even feel urges in that period.
But after this 7-10 days periodβ¦ the urges are just unbearable. They are present literally every minute. Because of them I canβt concenctrate on anything. I canβt study, I canβt work out, and I canβt meditate. These urge waves last all day.
To be honest, Iβm tired of this. Iβm tired of dealing with these urges and then lose to them. I just want to end this addiction for good. But I still give in to urges, and I need to fix that somehow.
Anyway, Iβm back and I will be posting here every day.
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@Shining_Fate welcome back brother. You may have but that battle isnβt over yet. You may relapse after 7-10 days but find three words that resonate with you that will help you overcome. As for me i find that these three words helped me βTHIS ENDS NOWβ. Spoken either in silence or out loud these three words will develop self-discipline. Also do some sort of meditation that will help you in this journey.
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Thank you brother. Iβll try it
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Day 1 
Overall it was a productive day. I studied for more than 6 hours + had a very good work out session.
But my mental state was not very good. Because of yesterdayβs relapse I felt like zombie. I must do whatever it takes to not let this happen again. I canβt afford wasting my time and energy anymore.
I need to find ways and methods to deal with urges. There has to be some method that will work for me, I just need to figure it out
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@Shining_Fate have you looked at any of my methods? Maybe one of them or all of them may help. To find my methods just tap my profile and it is on the featured topic on my profile card. I applied these methods little by little and start November 17, 2024. You may use some or all whichever you prefer.
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Ok, thanks, Iβll look it up
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Day 2
Today was also productive. I studied a lot, exercised, gone for a walk, and overall my mood was great.
For some reason I feel very optimistic about the future. I believe that everything in my life will be great. And today I also felt that this PMO cycle is finally over. I donβt know how to explain it, I just believe that I will not relapse anymore. 100%.
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Donβt be to overconfident, because that was my downfall. Be confident is okay but just be careful not to be overconfident.
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Thatβs true. I need to stay vigilant
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Day 3
Today I felt a little tired. I think itβs because I havenβt had enough rest lately. Today I was also busy almost all day. I think tomorrow I should relax a little.
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Day 4
Today I again cooked very hard and got really tired. Tomorrow I will be relaxing all day, I promise this to myself.
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Relaxing is part of the process to grow stronger and meditate on why you started this journey in the first place. Keep going brother you got this!
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Day 5
I rested well today. Now Iβm ready for grind.
This journey has been very easy so far. I havenβt had a single craving in these 5 days. Letβs see how it goes
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Never give up!! Every attempt is an answer that you keep fighting. Better days ahead
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Keep going and just stay the course. Donβt give up be strong.
Be strong. Be vigilant. Stay alert.
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