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Now I am no longer a disciple of NoFap.

I have chosen this supremely difficult path of Celibacy for 3 years to achieve greatness in life.

Starts tomorrow.

Today was super indugent in masturbation and edging. i realized that having multiple partners that I fantasized to be an option for me in the future and having non ejaculatory sex with them as a dangerous way of living. Especially when my goal is to do something good in this world.

Living in such pleasure, whether or not you ejaculate is dangerous. And I am now against the idea of having multiple partners which I thought was not an unhealthy way of living. But it was my lust that convinced me. And having one woman who helps you in your mission is supremely important but only after I have completed 3 years of celibacy. Celibacy means no thoughts about women, no desire towards them, even avoid looking at them if they arouse desire. This is the hardest thing I am going to do in my life now. It starts tomorrow.

I am not sure if I will post regularly here or not. But I am deeply regretful for not living up to my standards and being so wasteful of my seed today.

A GOOD THING THAT HAPPENED IS THE REALIZATION OF STAYING AWAY FROM EVERYTHING FEMININE. AT LEAST FOR A WHILE.

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@TheFinalFrontier good luck in your journey, i wish you to find what you want to find by following your journey

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Don’t post it on LinkedIn jusf here then, if that’s the big problem.

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Leave the topic of posting bro @hensmkekdmrme there is no way he can do that. None of us can post our pic after writing all our darkest secret on our diary. If any of his family member join this forum and check out this diary he is done.
Look at it this way, with that COMMITMENT he completed 85 days of nofap, he improved a lot, gained a lot of self knowledge, from the failure too he learnt a lot. Now focus 100% on bouncing back and giving 100%
We have no other option. Brother @TheFinalFrontier is 27 now, if he procrastinate now all his dreams will break down and Iam 20, if I procrastinate Iam done! All the plans I made, my dreams, my goals everything will get fucked!
This is a do or die situation for both of us

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Guys. Here I am.

My commitment is a struggle. It is the most difficult things I have resolved to do in my life. Celibacy till 31st December 2023.

However I have resolved and so must do.
Apart from that I have also decided to not consume youtube casually. I have been wasting a lot of time. There is no point being on NoFap if I just watch YouTube videos all day. The whole point is to be hyper productive.

I WILL NOT OPEN THIS FORUM NOW GUYS. I CAME HERE JUST TO MAKE A SERIOUS COMMITMENT.

I HEREBY TAKE THE VOW OF CELIBACY AND I AM MARRIED TO MY PURPOSE NOW.
• Women are the sexual selectors
• At the current stage, you can only get women of your stature or below because women mate across and above. Be the best version of yourself till 31 December 2023 so that you can date the highest quality women
• Enough running behind women. That is low value behaviour. Why should you do the pursuing ? Women pursue and this is the truth. You have seen it before with MANY PEOPLE. Reach the point where women pursue you.
• Women are a distraction. This is the truth. If you focus all your energy on becoming your greatest self and forget about women altogether, you would be way too successful because nobody does that.
• There will never be a shortage of beautiful women. Find a woman who will assist you in your purpose.
• Chasing and sleeping around with multiple women is feminine behaviour. Men focus and have to make the difficult choice of choosing one partner who will support his mission.
• How you do one thing is how you do everything.
• Have something higher in your life than the primal desires of eating , sleeping and reproducing
• It’s okay to be attracted to women, just behave like the charismatic leader with a wife in 2023 would do. Smile, feel the energy and move on. Whenever possible however, avoid looking at women. Appreciate it and let go. Don’t let her invade your mind. Take a deep breath, be in the moment and remember your mission. Don’t feel guilty for your natural feelings. Don’t try to own the woman.
• Don’t go into the woman’s frame, let the woman come into your orbit. You want her to be part of your world not the other way round. Women are like cats. They come around people who don’t care about them. She will give you the sign.
• You look thirsty and like a homeless man begging for numbers.
• Have some self respect as a man.
• Stop validating women. Stop boosting their already inflated egos.
• Life is not all about women.
• You don’t need women. A woman should be a compliment to your life, never the focus.
• Some men choose to chase women, and some men choose to chase their goals. If you’re wondering which way to go, remember that your goals will never wake up and tell you that it doesn’t love you anymore.
• Chasing women takes time away from you pursuing your purpose. Chase your purpose and let the women chase you.
• You are the prize.
• Treat her like a celebrity, she’ll treat you like a fan!!
• Play on your own terms.
• No greatness can be achieved by running behind women

THATS IT.

I AM.SERIOUS ABOUT GREATNESS.

I WISH I SPENT MY TIME ON EARTH MORE WISELY !!!

I HAVE WASTED MY EFFORTS IN LUST. I AM NOT TOTALLY A LOSER. I AM DOING JUST “FINE”.

BUT I KNOW THERE IS GREATNESS WITHIN ME GUYS.

1ST JANUARY 2024, I WILL HAVE MY OWN BUSINESS THAT TRANSFORMS THE WORLD, I WILL BE ONE OF THE BEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD IN MY FIELD, I WILL BE THE MOST RIPPED PERSON YOU KNOW AND MOST CHARISMATIC HUMAN BEING YOU CAN THINK ABOUT.

PEOPLE WOULD CHASE ME. NOT THE OTHER SIDE AY ROUND.

THATS IT GUYS.

I AM DONE. I QUIT WHATSAPP FOREVER. I QUIT CONSUMING YOUTUBE. AND OTHER SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORMS. ONLY AUDIO BOOKS ALLOWED IN FREE TIME OR BOOKS.

I WILL RETURN WHEN I AM GREAT. THE LAST POST WILL BE SHARED ON 1ST JANUARY 2024.

KIDS WILL READ MY NAME IN BOOKS AND I WILL BE WORSHIPPED.
SIGNING OFF,
THE FINAL FRONTIER

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All the best in your journey brother. Trust me, all the things you promised here can be achieved. Keep going, I strongly believe there is greatness in you and me and almost all of us. All we have to do is, convert our entire focus and energy into our goals. In reality efforts count twice than talent! This is something all of us misinterpret! To know more about this, I suggest you to read the book ‘grit’- why passion and resilience are the secret to success. A great book.

Come back here as a great man and prove to this community greatness is possible! Porn addiction, sex addiction, heroine addiction nothing can stop the 100% commitment of a strong man!
Even Martin Scorsese, the great film maker was addicted to cocaine at one point in his life but those experience helped him in creating more!

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Writing here shamefully to admit that I have relapsed. I was feeling lonely. And I was bored. I got distracted and did not keep the vision in my mind. It is my mistake of course. And I dont want to say a lot. Fuck guys !! To be honest, I am 27. This loneliness thing is again a side effect of my relapse last time. And I fell into the trap again. I remember that as my streak was going great and I wasn’t edging this loneliness thing went away. It is as if you lose a part of you when you relapse. No wonder you feel lonely. You are disconnected with yourself.

This strengthens my conviction to be a celibate for the next three years. Since I have a lot of inner work to do to be honest.

By 1st January 2024.

I want to build an empire where I am impacting millions of people.
Be financially independent.
Be emotionally independent.
Be a superior man with multiple options to choose an ideal partner from later.
Have a super strong and fit body.
Have a community of people who support my mission.

GUYS I HAVE BROKEN MY VOW OF CELIBACY BY RELAPSING. BUT I AM GOING FOR IT AGAIN. THIS IS THE HARDEST THING I AM ATTEMPTING IN MY LIFE. THIS IS GOD MODE NOW. BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS TO SERVE AT THE HIGHEST LEVEL.

I HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM WOMEN IN MY PEAK PHASE NOW. I WILL HAVE DOUBTS. BUT I KNOW I HAVE NO OPTION. I MUST GROW INTO IT.

IF I DO NOT POST ON THIS GROUP, I AM GOING FINE. IF I FUCK UP OR NEED SUPPORT, I WILL COME BACK HERE.

I RELAPSED AND YES IT WAS A SHITTY DECISION AS ALWAYS. I AM GONNA CLIMB UP. I AM TARGETTING SOMETHING HIGHER NOW.

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VOW OF CELIBACY TOWARDS HIGHER PURPOSE :

I promise to never

  • Do PMO
  • Edging
  • Looking at women
  • No Youtube on Laptop
  • No Casual Browsing
  • No music
  • No whatsapp except urgent

Goal is to connect with real human beings / form a deeper connection with myself. So that I am capable of serving at the highest level. And to reach the point where I can look beyond the sexuality of women. I was afraid to go MONK MODE for obvious reasons.

NOTE THAT MY GOAL IS NOT SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENMENT OR ANYTHING. I AM NOT TRYING TO BE A MONK. BUT THIS EXTREME DISCIPLINE IS NOW NECESSARY TO SERVE AT THE HIGHEST LEVEL. I WANT TO BE SO FILLED WITH JOY AND PASSIONATE IN MY OWN BEING THAT I CAN SPREAD IT WITH OTHERS AND CREATE A COMMUNITY DRIVEN BY PASSION AND PURPOSE.

THERE IS HEAVEN AT THE END OF THE STRUGGLE.

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Brother i would suggest taking small steps in order to get out off chaser effect. Once you get out of it, SHOW THEM YOUR POWER

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@nofapstar123 You are right. I think I am the asshole. The chaser effect was not that strong. But I acted like a dick.

ANYWAY !!!

7th September 2020 is the last time I touch my dick for self-pleasure.
I have to rewire my brain completely towards true pleasure and purpose.

3 YEARS VANVAAS.
LIGHT DIYAS AND CANDLES IN MY HONOUR AS I COME VICTORIES ON 1st JANUARY 2024. I WILL BREAK MY CELIBACY VOW ON THIS DAY AND WILL BE OPEN TO FINDING PARTNERS.
AND 7TH SEPTEMBER 2024 WILL BE MY FOUR YEAR ANNIVERSARY GUYS. BUT 7TH SEPTEMBER 2024 I WILL HAVE FOUND A PARTNER.

Enough, I WONT POST ON THIS FORUM NOW.

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Bro, I highly recommend you to read the book Atomic Habits, @Martial_Beast suggested this book to me. At first I didn’t give much value to what he said and I was trying like you harder and harder each day. But goals are not the most important things, Identity is what really matters. When a habit becomes a part of our identity it stays.
That book has a lot of practical wisdom and ideas about habits. The author has researched and summarised almost everything we have to know about habits.
There are two types of approach to real and total change, one is the calm, silent method talked about in this book and other is the angry, beastmode method David goggins talks about in his book Can’t Hurt me. I suggest you to read both of them.
Atomic habit is a must read to create and make habits permanent easily. @Martial_Beast thanks man for suggesting it, I bought a copy of it. I suggest this book to everyone

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Bro…do you have ebook version or downloading link…if so pls share. Thanks in advance.

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hey thanks for suggestion. I think the David Goggins way definitely works but is not the ideal way to live life. I will check out the Atomic Habits for sure. Thanks a lot man.

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https://www.academia.edu/40426198/Atomic_Habits_by_James_Clear?auto=download&ssrv=nrrc

I relapsed again today. I need to change my approach now. I dont want to be accountable to this group my whole life. I want to be self driven and do things myself. I will read your book if it promises change.

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Every single moment now, I will behave like my ideal self. I WILL FAKE IT TILL I MAKE IT.

What would my IDEAL SELF do in 2023 if he faces a sexual urge ?
What would my IDEAL SELF do in 2023 if he is severely depressed ?
What would my IDEAL SELF do in 2023 if he feels angry ?
What would my IDEAL SELF do in this situation ?
How would he talk ?
How would he walk ?
How would he behave ?
How would he treat others ?
How would he treat himself ?

I am gonna own his identity totally now. I am that now. I AM GONNA FAKE IT TILL I BECOME IT.

The 2023 self would be ambitious but also humble. Right now I am probably too ambitious sometimes and so fail. The 2023 self would also be a Brahmachari and would be in control of his mind and urges. He would be a religious person. How would spread love my means of his love and interactions and bring value to others.

HE WOULD BE THE TRUE LEADER.

TheFinalFrontier is DEAD from this moment. Myself as I and the world know are dead from this moment onwards.

I WON’T LOOK AT THIS FORUM. PEACE. SAD THAT I KEEP ON NOT STICKING WITH MY WORDS.
THIS TIME I MEAN IT. IT IS NOT JUST ABOUT NOFAP, IT IS ABOUT MY WHOLE LIFE.
MOST OF THE DAY IS GONE. BUT I WILL TRY TO LIVE LIKE MY IDEAL SELF FOR THE REST OF THE DAY.

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We are all with you man. You can do this, you are only 27. There is a whole life lying in front of you. Focus, transmutte your energy. Keep the faith and push limits every single day. Discipline is the key

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Thanks for reminding me the age. …

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GOD !! I AM HELPLESS NOW. This moment this very moment I stop. I mean till when am I going to waste time on this bullshit. This is dirt to be honest. I hate PMO. I truly do. But I have been relapsing again and again. The orgasm without ejaculation thing is also bullshit. You have to take your mind off off lust.

I AM GONNA BE A SPIRITUAL PERSON NOW. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

I WANT THIS TO BE MY LAST POST HERE.

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We don’t know each other yet, but I read a few posts here. I hope you get out of the chaser. I believe in you. We believe in you.

Stay sharp.

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September 9 . 19:00 CET.

THE LAST FAP.

I know I have been saying this for a long time now. The chaser has got a hold on me.

My goals require me to stay at home for long hours during the day. So once I relapse, the chaser is hard to resist.

Of course, I am not complaining or making an excuse here.

Yes, I will flatline for sure.

I don’t want to be hard on myself. I know this is an addiction. I don’t want to cry now. Shout out. Or make big claims any more. I know I am weak.

I am trying not to beat myself up. And keep as calm as I can be. And forget about it. And yes I also broke the commitment to not waste time on social media.

Ok, let me see what has worked for me in the past.

A grave sense of urgency was definitely an important factor in the past. That helped me reach 145 days. I was running away from PMO. Whenever urges hit I would run outside and it would be fine. It worked. But I was resentful with myself. I was angry all the time and that affected my relationship with my friends and social skills as well.

Then I have had good streaks when I was not focussed on PMO at all and living life. Here again, I was probably outside more often than not.

But I have managed to stay at home most of the time and still have a good streak. This time the reason was again a sense of urgency and commitment. But I was held accountable by members of this group.

Also one really important thing is I was being a MAN in all these big streaks. I JUST MADE A DECISION and stuck with it LIKE A MAN.

In my last streak, I was being a needy man and was actually trying to get women. But I am over that phase as well now. I know I can talk to women if needed but I don’t need to.

Now it is just a matter of habit and NoFap is easy to be honest.

I need to

  • Make a decision to not masturbate till December 2023, not use Youtube and social media and just stick with it. It’s simply not an option. And that would mean saying NO a million times during high urge days. But it’s not that hard. Saying NO is way easier than PEEKING or EDGING.
  • I won’t be acting like a druggie now. I will instead try to remain with the urges and meditate on them rather than running away. That being said, I will exercise daily now.
  • I make a commitment to you again. I won’t break it.
  • I need to go outside once a day atleast even if just for a walk. It will make me feel fresher and real.

I am sorry. I know my words don’t mean anything anymore. I have broken my vow of celibacy many times now already.

I RENEW MY VOW OF CELIBACY.

I have been saying it is hard. It probably is. But it is EASY. yes a VOW OF CELIBACY is easy. I just need to be present and aware and I cannot make this mistake again.

I mean I am not learning anything from these mistakes anymore.

It is pretty simple stuff.

I just need to MAKE A DECISION and STICK WITH IT.

IT IS THE EASY THING TO DO.

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. I AM DEPLETED. I HAVE FAPPED SO MANY TIMES DURING THE PAST FEW DAYS.

IT IS MY FAULT. OR RATHER STUPIDITY.

These relapses are useless. I know there have been relapses where I learnt something. But here I didn’t.

Or probably I did. I am staying at home all day. I need to get out and meet more people. This is what I learnt.

And I need to be okay with the relapse. It’s ok. It’s not the end of the world. I am a human. I make mistakes. But I love myself. Hey, I have had big streaks in the past. 145 days, 90 days, 75 days, and multiple 30-60 day streaks. I am already a champ. Yes, I have fallen and made a mistake AGAIN and a MILLION times. But it’s okay. How hard can I be on myself. I love myself just the way I am. It is important to have self love guys. We NOFAPPERS are too hard on ourselves.

I know the right ways of living but I am not following things well these days. But it’s okay. I know I am capable of greatness. And love. And I am gonna love myself even if I relapse. It’s not that big of a deal anyway. Maybe it is. But that does not mean I will not love myself. WE NEED TO LOVE OURSELVES UNCONDITIONALLY. BE in the moment and be full of love.

FAPPING IS A DESTRUCTIVE HABIT. BUT WHAT IS MORE DESTRUCTIVE IS SELF HATE AND PUTTING ONESELF DOWN WHEN RELAPSED.

This is also probably the reason for multiple relapses.
Because it causes self hate and bad feelings to emerge which you then try to cover using this fake pleasure.

It Is Ok to relapse.

Forget about it. Reset your counter and move on.

Anyway, today is 9th SEPTEMBER 2020.

10TH SEPTEMBER 2020 THE VOW OF CELIBACY BEGINS !!!

SEE YOU ON 1ST JANUARY 2024. GREATNESS IS COMING.

PEACE. Thanks for the love guys. I love myself. No matter what happens.

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