Recently I’ve been thinking about my addiction in porn and I think that I found one of the reasons why I still watching this shit.
When I was 12 I had my first contact with internet porn and with 14 years old I was already addicted. Because for this addiction I wasn’t really good to talk with women, I tried but I couldn’t hold a conversation cause I was too anxious and I wasn’t a interinteresting person cause I was spending alot of time fapping instead of working on myself.
So my communication problems continued in high school and I didn’t went out with girl, which means that never kissed a girl in my life and of course I never had sex.
The fact that I’m a 20 years old man that never had sex and also don’t know how to conquer a woman, makes me feel like a piece of shit. It’s too late for me, I’ll probably die a virgin cause I didn’t learn how conquer a woman when I should have (13 -17). And if I had a opportunity to have sex with a woman (which will never happen), would be a disaster cause I have no idea how to touch a woman (I don’t even know how to kiss).
So with all that I see in porn a temporary comfort (that destroys me and make the things worse) and in my head I know that porn is the closest thing that I’ll have to sex in my life.
Now all I’m trying to do is teach myself that sex isn’t that important and it’s ok to be a virgin for the rest of my life. If I had a opportunity to do it probably the girl wouldn’t be ok with that cause a 20 years old guy shouldn’t be a virgin ( I’m saying that cause all my friends they’re not virgin anymore and they make fun of me).
I just wanted to take off this weight from my back and share my feelings and if you feel the same way, don’t worry there’s nothing wrong with being virgin… sex is only one of the amazing things of life.
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