Day 0
I failed after 22 days here, I feel so bad (my counter showed 33 days, it was 33 days without the challenge).
“Truly great men must, I think, experience great sorrow on the earth”.
~ Fyodor Dostoevsky
I will be gone for some time, to find some answers.
Do not go into that path (PMO)…For it kills the spirit.
Peace.
That sucks just get back up and start again get yourself another long streak hopefully…!
Day 10Mini-Challenge
Shower every 2 days
Listen to 5 songs
Single 25m Pomodoro (biz)
Personal
(Emojie thing not auto generating)Remember afternoon med
(Emojie thing not auto generating)Update any WP plugins & post 1+ Udemy coupon(s)
No arugment with hunny. Was amazing day. Spiritual wife so accepting after me explaining the whole app and that I’m getting help. She had a huge smile on her face. I had to tell her cause ended up having mild panic attack worrying about making it to my first (conscious) 30 day streak.
I got agitated for 2 minutes, went to other room and had a 2 min tantrum, but no argument : )
So blisd! Im over the mountain with the most important support I could get 
Rewire
Mini-challenge/90 Day Hero Check-in
Today’s Jan Telegram Check-in, etc…
Coins Received: 6
Total Coins: 61
Study Bunny Coins Recieved: 0
Study Bunny Est. Total Net Worth: 58
Benefits:
Mood: 
Productivity:
Proper Relaxation:
@anon67854825 Thanks for tagging me brother,
good to see you back on the forum again 
Pray things are well with you.
I had some challenging days recently, fell back into some old habits and I slipped. Thankfully I stopped before heading back to P, but I felt ashamed of myself nonetheless.
So, this is what I did…
During the night, I misused the WhatsApp GIF search to look for something inappropriate, searching progressively more dangerous keywords until I searched for some ‘names.’ The app was pretty safe though, hardly anything came up.
I also searched for NNN memes, knowing that not everyone that participated in November was serious and someone would have shared someone unsafe. Not much there, nothing I could click on without triggering the accountability software software, and with Google SafeSearch still on.
The next day, I was searching for a movie to watch online, and I looked at titles, thumbnails and descriptions of 18+ titles that would have been unsafe. They were documentary style movies about things like the industry, ex and current actors, that sort of thing.
The main thing that held me back from going any further was the accountability software, which is a really bad place to be. All my mindset training and plans went out the window, all that was left was “I don’t want to generate any alerts.”
I was dealing with some serious mistaken beliefs like “It’s not ■■■■ so it doesn’t count,” and lying to myself that I don’t have to mention anything, it’s not even a slip.
I’ll be returning to the challenge, I’m deciding what positive habits will really help me turn things around.
Don’t know whether to heart this or not. It’s weird, sounds like both of us had a rough night in different ways.
Glad your boat didn’t sink entirely. Great job with patching things up again.
Monday
@Forodwaith @Forerunner
@Rebooter81 @Gk-00
No challenges today, but easy day of work.
Went to the steam room without hesitation.
Not a Fan of the gym/leisure suite this time of year, as it’s usually full of people trying to lose what they gained from Xmas, new years resolutions and all - surprisingly steam room wasn’t too busy.
I could sit, relax, reflect on things and feel moved, to then sit in the cold plunge pool to calm down.
Light friendly conversations - and a few things I could go into that happened during visit to the sauna, and conversation with a lovely man on my walk back home.
Thanks @Forerunner and hope you’re doing well too! 
Don’t worry, be Happy 
Tomorrow;
Long walk - Church,
Eat well,
Office, admin, complete emails,
Piano for an hour or more,
Tai Chi,
Eat with friend and buy a sweet treat as he enjoys cooking 
Thanks be to God for today
Accountability software can be real saviour on high streaks. We do not know when we may be attacked. We know the philosophy, still we can slip. THAT’S WHEN SOFTWARE SAVES. THAT’S WHEN FORCED, PAID, STRONG BLOCKING SAVES. And after getting saved, we get back on track and become stable.
I also tried searching after reading this. It can be triggering. I closed it immediately.
Day 11 | Clean 31 DaysMini-Challenge
Shower every 2 days
Listen to 5 songs
Single 25m Pomodoro: 1.5-2 hours [Online Businesses]
Personal
Remember afternoon med
Update any WP plugins & post 1+ Udemy coupon(s)
No arugment with hunny.
Rewire
Mini-challenge/90 Day Hero Check-in
Today’s Jan Telegram Check-in, etc…
Coins Received: 7
Total Coins: 68
Study Bunny Coins Recieved: 6
Study Bunny Est. Total Net Worth: 64
Benefits:
Mood:
Productivity:
Proper Relaxation:
Forerunner did you slip and what was that exactly or are you quoting ?
I’ve realised you are under a lot of pressure now to maintain a good streak because it’s such a high number of days and because of your videos which are public guess that’s both a good and a bad thing.
Also would you feel ready/able to date or are you dating? Or would that be risky for you?
I use acc2u its certainly helped but by no means fool proof if I really want it I can access 'material ’ that is soft core but unmonitored by any blocking software also I can turn acc2u off but this does inform my accountability partner so I do my best to avoid doing that. Its psychological I’ve realised; knowing its installed allows me to breathe easily knowing viewing porn on my pc or phone is simply not an option I really consider. Viewing porn then becomes a deliberate effort that requires thought and planning well initially this got me a 16/17 day streak but now I need a another good streak…
My APs get even the name of the tabs, so soft core is also not accessible. But of course, the most important finishing touch to all blocks is “blocking in mind itself”.
Life is more enjoyable without pmo, simple pleasures… (!)
An example of a good govt. work (Indonesia)
@Forerunner I have blocked the tenor and giphy domains altogether. I am very hard on pmo demon this time. I give it zero chance. If I find it using some new weapon, I develop mine too.
If someone needs:
@Forodwaith 
GOD give you strength, my friend.
@HappySoul Sorry to have triggered you brother! I amended my post. Good to see you overcame that temptation.
Yes, the accountability software really helped me avoid doing any more damage. And you’re right, we can then get back on track - thank GOD for that.
This is so true! I’ve spoken so much about the philosophy, but still I fell into the same traps. It’s why it’s good to have those extra layers of protection in place.
@Rebooter81 Yes I slipped brother, that’s what I had posted here:
Yeah man, I’m as public as I can be 
My name and photo, YouTube channel… It’d be a real shame to have to make a Day Zero video. I will stay strong with GOD’s Help. Purity is the goal, no more slips or weird searches.
I haven’t given much thought to dating. What do you think would be risky about it?
Yeah, Acc2u still lets us access material for sure, unlike CovenantEyes that Alegend is using. It helps to have good accountability on the other end, someone attentive who asks questions about what searches we’re making and what our intentions are. The thought that comes to mind is Should I really be making this search? What will my AP say when he sees the alert?
New year, recharging the journey with some new habits. I refuse to go back to square one again.
5-Minute Journal
Work on Business Projects
Planning the Day
New video - Positive Self-Care
Sometimes, we focus so much on fighting urges and not going backwards that we forget we need to do positive things to replace the void PMO left behind. It’s essential that we take care of our needs in a healthy and positive way. Negative emotions will always come up, and they are usually a trigger. Stress can be even worse than dealing with urges. We have to defend ourselves from negative emotions through positive self-care habits.
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Hi @Paulista79
@Forodwaith @Gk-00
Completed challenges for today.
Didn’t quite finish some admin - but stayed up and enjoyed a few extra hours.
Tomorrow;
Church,
clean up for clients,
eat healthy,
finish admin tasks, start new ones,
dog walk + shower,
piano and start some music work.
Thanks be to God
Day 12 | Clean 32 DaysMini-Challenge
Shower every 2 days
Listen to 5 songs
Single 25m Pomodoro: around 3-4 hours [Online Businesses]
Personal
Remember afternoon med
Update any WP plugins & post 1+ Udemy coupon(s)
No arugment with hunny.
Rewire
Mini-challenge/90 Day Hero Check-in
Today’s Jan Telegram Check-in, etc…
Coins Received: 8
Total Coins: 76
Study Bunny Coins Recieved: 1
Study Bunny Est. Total Net Worth: 65
Benefits:
Mood:
Productivity:
Proper Relaxation:
Great productive, rewarding and nice day while both alone and with spiritual wife. Looking forward to what tomorrow brings.
