The Journey of Shining Fate

Hey guys, I’m 19yo male, struggling with pmo for about 7 years. My biggest streak was 15 days.
I wasted so much time and energy on pmo… I regret it so much…
I lost the best years of my life, I stopped growing as a person and I regret it.
The amount of regret I feel every day is crazy. This is partly why I continue relapsing: deaspair, feelings of regret and self-dissatisfaction - it’s all dragging me down. It’s a vicious circle.

So, my goal is to quit p*rn completely and abstain from masturbation for at least 90 days.

The reason why I want to do this: I want to stop being weak, I want to become a better version of myself, I want to become smarter and stronger.

How I want to do it: by maintaining discipline. I have been trying to lead a healthier lifestyle for a long time, but as I said, negative thoughts constantly drag me down. I hope that by sharing my progress with you here, I can overcome my feeling of loneliness.

That’s it. Stay tuned, I will post here every day.

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:sparkles: Day 1 :sparkles:

Exercising — :white_check_mark: (twice)
Meditation — :white_check_mark: (twice: 12 and 14 minutes)
Studying — :white_check_mark: (1 hr 26 min)
Reading — :white_check_mark: (58 min)
Limited phone usage — :white_check_mark:

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:sparkles: Day 2 :sparkles:

Exercising — :white_check_mark:
Meditation — :white_check_mark: (3 times: 11, 13 and 20 minutes)
Studying — :x:
Reading — :white_check_mark: (24 min)
Limited phone usage — :white_check_mark:

Today didn’t go well. I hope tomorrow will be more productive.

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:sparkles: Day 3 :sparkles:

Exercising — :white_check_mark:
Meditation — :white_check_mark: (twice: 10 and 13 minutes)
Studying — :white_check_mark: (46 minutes)
Reading — :white_check_mark: (1 hr 15 min)
Limited phone usage — :white_check_mark:

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What is difference between studying and reading. I mean reading means self improvement books??

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Reading only includes self improvement and fiction books. If I read a book for my studies, I count it as studying

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:sparkles: Day 4 :sparkles:

Exercising — :x:
Meditation — :white_check_mark: (twice: 14 and 15 minutes)
Studying — :white_check_mark: (1 hour)
Reading — :white_check_mark: (1 hr 14 min)
Limited phone usage — :white_check_mark:

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:sparkles: Day 5 :sparkles:

Exercising — :white_check_mark:
Meditation — :white_check_mark: (9 minutes)
Studying — :x:
Reading — :x:
Limited phone usage — :white_check_mark:

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:sparkles: Day 6 :sparkles:

Exercising — :white_check_mark:
Meditation — :white_check_mark: (13 minutes)
Studying — :x:
Reading — :white_check_mark: (30 minutes)
Limited phone usage — :white_check_mark:

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:sparkles: Day 7 :sparkles:

Exercising — :white_check_mark:
Meditation — :white_check_mark: (10 minutes)
Studying — :white_check_mark: (30 minutes)
Reading — :x:
Limited phone usage — :white_check_mark:

Today’s urges were strong, but I’m glad I didn’t give up

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Unfortunately, I relapsed today.
Not giving up. This time I will be stronger.

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Unstoppable @Shining_Fate

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:sparkles: Day 7 :white_check_mark: :sparkles:
I’m back.

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Day 8 :white_check_mark:
This morning I meditated, then I went for a walk. The rest of the day I was just chilling.

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Day 9 :white_check_mark:
Today I felt very good

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Day 10 :white_check_mark:
Had a good workout today

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Day 11 :white_check_mark:
I am starting to feel more energy, an improved mood, and my social anxiety has decreased.
I feel great.

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Day 12 :white_check_mark:
It’s been a rough day. For some reason I didn’t get enough sleep today, and it hurt my productivity. Now I realize that quality sleep should never be neglected.

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Day 13 :white_check_mark:
Urges were strong today. I have to remind myself that there is no real happiness in pmo. There is not a single reason to return to pmo. I don’t need pmo in my life.

Sadly, I relapsed today… And it wasn’t worth it AT ALL.
Brothers, don’t repeat my mistake, don’t return to pmo